Here lately, I've felt mostly like I'm sinking. My husband is working long hours and most of the time we do spend together I am exhausted. This makes me irritable and I am extremely sensitive. My little one is a very sweet and in most ways an easy baby to take care of. She isn't colicky, she's not a big fusser, and she sleeps a good block between 7pm to 2:30 am but I can't seem to sleep then. And by time I can finally bring myself to rest and to sleep she is awake and she needs to be changed or fed or the other usual baby needs. So then I get my mom to take her and I'm running on three hours of sleep a day. And I can't seem to get hired anywhere and sometimes not all the bills are met... And then she needed diapers... And I'm sinking and nothing I'm doing is feeling like it's enough. Our place isn't a wreck but it isn't clean completely either and I don't feel I have the energy. And I feel more and more like my husband isn't in my corner because he doesn't seem to see or care how much I try to do for us all. I'm unable to financially care for her, I'm partly incapable of caring for her because I'm tired all the time, and because of that I'm feeling like a failure at life. And I don't know how to change any of it because I am essentially powerless because I can't make someone hire me and I can't seem to get me husband to change more than two days in a row because I apparently don't encourage him to do so enough (where is my thanks my encouragement my dues?!) and I can't seem to get any rest because my mom only takes her for so long... I'm just failing.
Anyone have any advice? Words of wisdom or something?
Re: Feeling like a failure
one to watch her while you get a half hour of sleep. Don't worry soon you won't feel so tired. As crazy as it sounds some day you'll miss those 230am wake up calls. Just know this you are NOT failing.
That was only one day one moment. I know it'll get better but man there are days when I'm exhausted all day.
I know this is tough right now, but you can survive this. Hugs momma ❤️
DS2 due 12/12/18