Hi, ladies. If it's okay, I'm going to go ahead and join you today. On Wednesday we went to the peri to have some testing done to diagnose a Trisomy 21 diagnosis and found that our son had already passed. Despite bracing for bad news later down the line, we were shocked and dumbfounded that he was already gone.
We had to have a D&E done but due to the political climate around here, none of the local hospitals work with the doctors that perform them. I was referred by my perinatologist to a clinic and upon arrival found it was an abortion clinic. I had to sign all kinds of state-mandated forms consenting to the termination of my son even though he was already deceased. It was a nightmare on top of a nightmare. The procedure itself went well and now I'm home trying to rest and figure out how in the world I'm supposed to get up and go face the world again. All I want is to be pregnant with my son again. I look down at my now flat belly and I can't stop crying.
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for everything that has brought all of us here together and hope I'm able to provide some support to everyone else who is hurting.
Me: 38 l DH: 41
Gavin - 8/27/10
*TW*
Gabriel - 2nd tri loss 5/17/16 Trisomy 18 & 21
Hope - 2nd tri loss 12/7/16 complications from pneumonia
Re: I guess I belong here now. 2nd tri loss intro
ETA: I went and read your posts on N16. I'm so sorry you had to deal with insensitive comments from others about an intensely personal and agonizing situation. I thought your post was articulate and tactful. That's more than some deserved. Hugs.
Im not sure when this gets better. I'm also having a bad day today. Just know we are here to listen to you whenever you need it. Sending so many hugs!
ETA I just read your post in N'16. Thank you so much for writing what you did about the reality of of T-21 diagnosis. That needed to be said and you said it perfectly.
Im sorry that you had to go through even more issues, I didnt know that hospitals wont do d&e. I guess its an area thing. Mine does them and offers prayers, burials, and support. I hate that you had to go through the extra heartache. But you seem to have done well. Its a sad time and takes everyone different amounts to heal both physically and emotionally. We are all here for you, just pm if you ever just want to chat. Hugs your way.
Together since 2006
Married 01.17.15
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
Me:28 DH:31
Diagnosed with Diminished Ovarian Reserve March 2015
IUI # 1 May 2015 - BFN
December 2015 - Natural BFP - Our Angel baby Mila Grace went to heaven @ 21 weeks on 4/21/16 (D&E) due to Triploidy
Currently waiting to start TTAL
Gavin - 8/27/10
*TW*
Gabriel - 2nd tri loss 5/17/16 Trisomy 18 & 21
Hope - 2nd tri loss 12/7/16 complications from pneumonia