@cjs260 I feel like I could have written your post myself. I think everything you said makes complete sense. You know the logical answers but your heart can't soak it in.
When my normal mantras aren't cutting it, I quit trying to talk to myself and go for distracting myself instead. I recently got into cross stitching as something to take my focus when I need something to distract myself. (There are a lot more cute cross stitch patterns for free on the Internet now than when we were young and you had to buy patterns that looked like something only a 90 year old woman would make.)
Maybe you could take up a new inexpensive hobby that uses your hands to disctract your mind from the "what ifs" that only time can answer. My therapist often talks about "bilateral stimulation" as a way to get your brain out of the same old rut of thoughts. Some things that use both hands such as cross stitich, knitting, crocheting, gardening, baking are great options. Also have you see the coloring books for adults? They have really intricate designs that take focus to color in well. Anything to get your hands moving and your focus on something else.
Just take it one day at a time - shoot even one hour at a time of you have to. You are a strong woman - you've battled back OCD and pregnancy loss grief. You can and will get through this waiting period too. We all have FX for you and your bean.
Puzzles and audiobooks, I just let myself sink into a book and zone out. If it helpls I bled after every exam last time. Your cervix is super sensitive right now . Honestly I think thats why I have been spotting, if I pick up something heavy and do anything strenuous it picks up. Take it easy
So other mantras I've tried out are: I trust my body. My body knows how to support this pregnancy. I also visualize a warm white light around my uterus.
I second the suggestion to zone out if you can. Sometimes that is the best way to get me out of my head. Trashy TV works or you could also try a guided meditation. Adult coloring books are great too, I love mine. Big hugs @cjs260
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
@cjs260 I'm really sorry today is a rough day. I agree with a lot of the other suggestions on here about other activities. I've been knitting a lot lately, and the focus it requires helps stop a lot of the ruminative thoughts.
I know you asked for mantras, which are usually things that can be used to refocus your brain when it gets distracted, and so useful for when you're trying to get back on track, but while I don't have any mantras, I do have a relaxation app recommendation. I find Andrew Johnson's relaxation apps to be immensely helpful: he's got a great, very soothing voice, and they do help me to step outside my thought patterns. So if you can take a few minutes with some earbuds in, they might be a good way to short circuit the worries. He's got quite a few that I've used, and his deep sleep app is one of the few things that can get me to reliably fall asleep when I'm deep in insomnia-ville.
@cjs260 The I'm pregnant today, doesn't work for me at all. I try to distract myself - tv, crafting, Pinterest. Anything to get my mind off of everything. I'm so sorry for the stress. You have legitimate concerns and it's so hard! Sending lots of hugs your way.
You ladies are so awesome. Thanks to each and every one of you.
@LoneStar21416 I definitely think the spotting has been extended thanks to the ultrasound. And that's a great way to look at it - we have no reasons that we can't carry a child full term like anyone else.
@ceclarlinetlo I'm all about the crochet and cross-stitch. I also have a few coloring books, too! Those things work wonders at home (especially for OCD episodes) , so I just need to find something similar that I can do for slow days at work (like today). Maybe I could sneak a cross-stitch in and just work on it for 10 minute intervals. All wonderful ideas! And you are so strong, too. I'm thankful to have another person with OCD here to talk to (though I wish no one was plagued with OCD at all).
@Briala My OB seems to think it was caused by cervical irritation - it's just hard to allow myself to believe that. I really appreciate your experience, as it does help reassure me that this very well could be all it is.
@susykat77 I love that white lighted uterus! I'm definitely going to try that. And I can definitely get into some trashy TV.
@poetryandoceans I'm going to look into those apps ASAP. That sounds perfect for work.
Thank you all again. It's so comforting to know I can turn here on a bad day and receive all this love. Seriously guys, y'all are all so awesome. Creepy internet hugs to each of you!
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating) DH and had a miscarriage about 4 years ago. We have been trying to have a baby for the past 3 years. We are very excited to finally have a baby on the way. 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) I am feeling pretty good. My only symptoms so far have been sore bbs and light cramping every now and then. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) I have been very nervous since I found out. I keep checking to see if I am spotting every time I go to the bathroom. I try not to think like that, but its hard at times. 4. When is your first or next appointment? I have my second blood draw tomorrow morning. And they say they want to see me the end of next week for an u/s, but we are waiting to schedule that until we see results from the blood work. 5. Rants/raves/whatever I had my first blood draw on Tuesday and was really excited with my HCG levels, but then I was informed that my progesterone levels were a little low. Now I am on progesterone suppositories twice a day. Not happy about that at all, but glad that we are catching it early. Anyone else having to take progesterone? 6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having? I think the weirdest dream I have had was right before I found out I was pregnant, I had a dream that DH was cheating on me and then I found out I was pg and had to raise the baby on my own. Thank goodness it was just a dream!
@Southrnbell Hi! Glad they caught your progesterone issue early.
So in my weekly check in I updated that I was waiting back on a urine culture. My doctor called me today and said that the results were "inconclusive." There was bacteria, but they could not determine if there was an infection because it may be the case that the sample was contaminated (i.e., I didn't do a good enough job cleaning the area prior to the collection, etc.). So now when I am back in town on Friday, I will go to give another sample. I feel irrationally upset. I should also add: when I went to the doctor for the spotting approximately 4 weeks ago, they did a urine culture. The rapid test came back fine, but when it was sent to the lab for further analysis they found a decent amount of slow growing bacteria. They put me on an antibiotic for 7 days as a precaution and assured me that the risks of it turning into possible infection was more than the risk of the antibiotic. So I guess now I am just nervous that this infection is back and something is horribly wrong with me, and worse that this is somehow hurting baby. Since I'm not having a ton of infection symptoms (just some frequent urination that comes and goes, no burning, etc.), she said we can wait until this new test comes back before considering antibiotics again.
Should I chill out until we get the results next week? I feel like I'm just using this "inconclusive" test as a way to focus my anxiety on something. Am I getting irrationally spun up over something that isn't that big of a deal? Any advice?
@LoneStar21416 Hmmm. I feel like as an outsider looking in, I should say "trust your doctor". But that's easier said than done (as I am a perfect example of over worrying about stuff that my doc is not worried about). Is there a quick clinic that you could run to and get a culture done under suspician of a bacterial infection?
@cjs260 I'd love to go tomorrow, but I don't know how feasible it is. I'd have to significantly alter our work schedule and meetings we had planned during our trip. I definitely try to always put health/family first as a general rule, but I don't know if this situation warrants me messing with our pre-planned work schedule so drastically?? And Friday I get on a plane first thing and should be back in my hometown by late morning/early afternoon. Then I'd go straight to the lab. My doctor wasn't concerned with the timeline, but I feel uncomfortable. I have a hard time trusting my intuition because, like you, I worry about everything. And I also sometimes (read: most of the time) think I know better than trained medical professionals when I have absolutely no medical training whatsoever
@LoneStar21416 Gosh, that's a tough one. And I completely understand feeling like we know better than the doctors, haha! I, too, am often guilty of that. I think that it's such a short time between tomorrow and going to the lab on Friday, and since you're not having any symptoms other than frequent urination (which can be just pregnancy in general), maybe it would be okay. Of course, you know your body best, and I don't want to encourage you to wait and you be uncomfortable. If it were me, I think I would try to wait (keyword try, haha). I'm sorry you're in such a tough position, and I'm not sure that I actually said anything to help. But I will be thinking of you, either way! Let us know how it goes.
Thanks for all the welcomes. Makes me feel loved! Glad to see I'm not alone in progesterone department. Hate that we have to be taking it, but I am glad that the doctors are on top of things. I am hoping for good results at tomorrows blood draw.
@cjs260 Thank you for your responses; they WERE very helpful. I really appreciate you taking the time to respond. I agree this is the right course of action for now. I am hoping the rapid test will come back before the weekend from the lab, and we should know by Tuesday after the holiday about any slow growing bacteria. If anything changes over the weekend and my symptoms suddenly and drastically worsen, I can always go to the ER or urgent care.
@LoneStar21416 I think you made a great decision. I'm glad I could help a little! I'm sure that everything is probably fine, and it's always a comfort to have an urgent care clinic to run to if necessary. I sure hope you don't need it though!
@RocksInTheWater So much better, thank you for asking! My spotting has all but stopped, and I'm feeling much more positive today. I'm taking a reading day at work, so in between articles, I'm allowing myself to bounce between here and Pinterest.
I hope everyone is having a positive day, as well!
Shit! I just went to the bathroom and I'm spotting. I know this can be normal but it is making me freak out!! Should I call my doc? I know there is nothing they can do but they might be able to ease my mind... I am on blood thinners and just upped injections to 2x/day. I know this can be it too. I am just freaking out and need to vent.
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
@susykat77 ugh. Spotting is never fun. I've had it twice so far and my heart sank both times. But like you said it can be totally normal.
it never hurts to call your doc. Worst thing that can happen is they just say watch it and give you instructions for when to call back. Don't worry about bothering them - it's their job.
@susykat77 I always call my doc when I'm having spotting. I like for it to be on record, in the case that it's needed in the future. Like @ceclarlinetlo said, the worst thing they can say is just watch for increases and color changes. I know how disheartening it is, and I'm sorry you're having to go through it. FX that everything is perfectly fine!
@susykat77 I agree with the others that I would call my doctor if I was you. If nothing else, they may be able to help answer any questions. I hope it's nothing to worry about!
MC #1 January 2013 DS born 4/06/14 MC #2 August 2015 CP November 2015 MC#3 January 2016 BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
Thank you @RocksInTheWater@cjs620@ceclarlinetlo I called the doctor's office and the nurse called back and said exactly what you ladies said - that it is normal and to monitor it. She also said pelvic rest and no hiking or biking. I feel so fragile! Thank you for supporting me. Seeing the brown discharge was like immediate anxiety inducing. ugh.
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
I am feeling pregnant today, which is a good thing! I'm happy for the pregnancy symptoms, even the annoying ones like sensitive boobs and aversion to coffee. I had a nurse visit this week but it was really just a consult appointment, no exam. Even so, it made it feel more official to me. I'm 2.5 weeks past where I made it last time, so I'm feeling a positive trend.
@susykat77, hope things are settling down for you today.
@ceclarlinetlo I am trying my darndest to remain positive. I am still spotting a tad but there is a logical explanation - progesterone suppositories. I did have my beta checked again and it went from 2114 to 4915 with a doubling time about 41hrs - which is really great for beta's of that level. (Can you tell I am trying to focus on the science of it to reassure myself?)
@susykat77 I'm with you on the trying to remember the logical explanation. It's hard, but if PGAL brain can calm down, it can be reassuring. I always try to focus on the science, too, haha! I actually just read a study (and posted about it on the "Study" thread that was posted recently) that women with light bleeding and heavy spotting are at no increased risk of miscarriage. This study found that only bleeding heavier than typical menses, WITH pain increased the risk for a miscarriage. This was conducted with over 4000 participants, and looked like a study that I would trust, as it's been cited several times and in one of the best journals for the field.
@ceclarlinetlo Thank you for asking! I'm doing pretty well. I'm having a milder nausea day - my stomach growled this morning for the first time in 2 weeks! Are you still doing okay?
I am having a bit of a rough Friday. I got home yesterday to a message from my doctor on my machine, telling me that she had been tracking my betas and was a little concerned that my last set of numbers didn't double in 48 hours and was wondering why I'd stopped going. Thing was, my betas had been doubling really consistently, and this time they had gone from 9011 to 13893, which was a 72 hour doubling time, and I figured I was just getting past the point where a 48 hr doubling time was expected. Which was why I decided to stop going, which I ran by my husband, who is also a GP, and he said it made sense to stop if the results were just going to cause me worry.
I've mentioned before that my usual doc doesn't do maternity, so the logical part of me thinks she might just be a little out of her area here, but of course since she said she was a little concerned I'm totally freaking out. And I'm having this kind of cramping feeling that comes and goes that's very specific and localized, and it's pretty much exactly where I kept feeling much stronger cramps in the week leading up to my MC last time...
I'm just really nervous because with my MC there was some weirdness with my numbers and they were monitoring for a suspected ectopic for a while. But when I miscarried naturally they decided to not investigate further. Now I'm really second guessing that. Does anyone know anything about doubling rates in ectopic pregnancies and how long they can appear normal? I thought 2 straight weeks of normal doubling rates put me pretty well clear, but now I'm second guessing myself...
And, if you don't know anything about that, can you still just tell me to chill the f*ck out, because stressing isn't going to help things either way?
@ceclarlinetlo Thank you for asking! I'm doing pretty well. I'm having a milder nausea day - my stomach growled this morning for the first time in 2 weeks! Are you still doing okay?
Edit: I hit post too soon.
Glad to hear your doing good!
I woke with a tiny bit of brown spotting which wasn't fun but it was just the one time I wiped and I haven't had any more.
I suppose I really only get nervous when I think specifically about what should either have happened since my ultrasound or should be happening soon - for example arm buds should be forming but I don't want to assume baby has arm buds and then see it never actually got that far. Oddly enough I'm ok imagining making it to the end of 9 months or having a baby at home - it's just too much to think too specifically about what's happening now.
@poetryandoceans hcg stops doubling at some point in 48 hours. There is a chart I studied religiously a while ago, you can google it. As soon as hcg reaches certain thresholds, it's doubling time increases.
@ThePax89@susykat77 See, this is the chart that I found, and it made me feel better, right up until my doctor called me expressing some concern about the numbers. But according to the chart, if anything, I'm doubling more quickly than expected. Ugh, I can't wait until my first appointment with my midwife. Tuesday can't come fast enough.
@poetryandoceans I don't know anything about that, but I'm going to look after I post. I've definitely heard that it can take upwards of 96 hours to double the closer you get to week 8. I will look into it for you. Otherwise, my H's bff (who I work with) always tells me when I'm stressing "This stress will not change the outcome, but it IS making you miserable now. Don't borrow trouble." I know so much how hard it is to follow, but it does tend to calm me a bit. Also, is your cramping central or on one side? I thought that I was at risk for an ectopic because of a pulling pain above my right hip, and my dr. said it was mostly (RLP). I was SUPER surprised to hear that term in the 1st tri - especially at just over 6 weeks. But she said it can be more pronounced if you're not drinking enough water (which I'm bad about).
@ceclarlinetlo I always try to let brown spotting just slide - my OB said that brown spotting can happen even after a BM since the cervix/vaginal wall is so sensitive right now. But I completely get what you say about the specifics of what is happening right now. For me, the anxiety comes when I imagine finding out that there is no HB or that there has been no growth since my last u/s. I really don't know how people do it when they have to wait so long to get an u/s. I'm just so, so ready to be out of the 1st tri. Last night H had a rehearsal, and I stayed at home playing on pinterest, pinning a million baby related things. When he came home, I showed him all I had done, and he told me to go ahead and order this gender neutral Etsy outfit. In like one moment all of that excitement came crashing down by the PGAL/OCD brain kicking into overdrive. I feel like I'm finally getting excited, but then I'm so very scared to get my hopes up. H is constantly telling me that it's okay to feel excited, and that worry is only stealing today's joy. But it's hard.
@cjs260, yes it's on the right above the hip. I've been having twinges for the last week or so that I've been chalking up to RLP, I think this is just setting me off because it's in exactly the same spot I was having pain at during the lead-up to my MC. It's probably unrelated, or I was just having RLP last time which had nothing to do with the MC, but PGAL brain plus Generalized Anxiety Disorder Brain are just going to town on me today.
@susykat77 Thank you for the reassurance It's one of those things that my logical brain can say all it wants, but it doesn't sink in; it's great to have a place to come and talk about this and get reassurance. I really appreciate it.
@poetryandoceans The single study I found discussing HCG levels in ectopic pregnancies had the vast majority of levels below 1000, with 50% of those below 500. I'm thinking you are way in the clear, AND I think your doubling rate should be slowing down anyway. And yes, totally understand the anxiety. I would say drink some extra water, and see if that helps it. Also, I don't think you have any reason to think that your little squish isn't growing like a champ in there!
Re: Weekly PGAL check in - 5.23.16
When my normal mantras aren't cutting it, I quit trying to talk to myself and go for distracting myself instead. I recently got into cross stitching as something to take my focus when I need something to distract myself. (There are a lot more cute cross stitch patterns for free on the Internet now than when we were young and you had to buy patterns that looked like something only a 90 year old woman would make.)
Maybe you could take up a new inexpensive hobby that uses your hands to disctract your mind from the "what ifs" that only time can answer. My therapist often talks about "bilateral stimulation" as a way to get your brain out of the same old rut of thoughts. Some things that use both hands such as cross stitich, knitting, crocheting, gardening, baking are great options. Also have you see the coloring books for adults? They have really intricate designs that take focus to color in well. Anything to get your hands moving and your focus on something else.
Just take it one day at a time - shoot even one hour at a time of you have to. You are a strong woman - you've battled back OCD and pregnancy loss grief. You can and will get through this waiting period too. We all have FX for you and your bean.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
Me: 26 DH: 29 Married 8/4/2012
BFP #1 8/20/2013 | EDD 5/4/2014 | MMC 10/2/2013 9w3d | D&C 10/8/2013
BFP #2 2/8/2014 (kinda) EDD 10/29/2014 | DS Born 10/8/2014
TTCAL 11/2015 BFP #3 5/12/16 | EDD Jan 2017
So other mantras I've tried out are: I trust my body. My body knows how to support this pregnancy. I also visualize a warm white light around my uterus.
I second the suggestion to zone out if you can. Sometimes that is the best way to get me out of my head. Trashy TV works or you could also try a guided meditation. Adult coloring books are great too, I love mine. Big hugs @cjs260
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
I know you asked for mantras, which are usually things that can be used to refocus your brain when it gets distracted, and so useful for when you're trying to get back on track, but while I don't have any mantras, I do have a relaxation app recommendation. I find Andrew Johnson's relaxation apps to be immensely helpful: he's got a great, very soothing voice, and they do help me to step outside my thought patterns. So if you can take a few minutes with some earbuds in, they might be a good way to short circuit the worries. He's got quite a few that I've used, and his deep sleep app is one of the few things that can get me to reliably fall asleep when I'm deep in insomnia-ville.
@LoneStar21416 I definitely think the spotting has been extended thanks to the ultrasound. And that's a great way to look at it - we have no reasons that we can't carry a child full term like anyone else.
@ceclarlinetlo I'm all about the crochet and cross-stitch. I also have a few coloring books, too! Those things work wonders at home (especially for OCD episodes) , so I just need to find something similar that I can do for slow days at work (like today). Maybe I could sneak a cross-stitch in and just work on it for 10 minute intervals. All wonderful ideas! And you are so strong, too. I'm thankful to have another person with OCD here to talk to (though I wish no one was plagued with OCD at all).
@Briala My OB seems to think it was caused by cervical irritation - it's just hard to allow myself to believe that. I really appreciate your experience, as it does help reassure me that this very well could be all it is.
@susykat77 I love that white lighted uterus! I'm definitely going to try that. And I can definitely get into some trashy TV.
@poetryandoceans I'm going to look into those apps ASAP. That sounds perfect for work.
Thank you all again. It's so comforting to know I can turn here on a bad day and receive all this love. Seriously guys, y'all are all so awesome. Creepy internet hugs to each of you!
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating)
DH and had a miscarriage about 4 years ago. We have been trying to have a baby for the past 3 years. We are very excited to finally have a baby on the way.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
I am feeling pretty good. My only symptoms so far have been sore bbs and light cramping every now and then.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
I have been very nervous since I found out. I keep checking to see if I am spotting every time I go to the bathroom. I try not to think like that, but its hard at times.
4. When is your first or next appointment?
I have my second blood draw tomorrow morning. And they say they want to see me the end of next week for an u/s, but we are waiting to schedule that until we see results from the blood work.
5. Rants/raves/whatever
I had my first blood draw on Tuesday and was really excited with my HCG levels, but then I was informed that my progesterone levels were a little low. Now I am on progesterone suppositories twice a day. Not happy about that at all, but glad that we are catching it early. Anyone else having to take progesterone?
6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having?
I think the weirdest dream I have had was right before I found out I was pregnant, I had a dream that DH was cheating on me and then I found out I was pg and had to raise the baby on my own. Thank goodness it was just a dream!
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
So in my weekly check in I updated that I was waiting back on a urine culture. My doctor called me today and said that the results were "inconclusive." There was bacteria, but they could not determine if there was an infection because it may be the case that the sample was contaminated (i.e., I didn't do a good enough job cleaning the area prior to the collection, etc.). So now when I am back in town on Friday, I will go to give another sample. I feel irrationally upset. I should also add: when I went to the doctor for the spotting approximately 4 weeks ago, they did a urine culture. The rapid test came back fine, but when it was sent to the lab for further analysis they found a decent amount of slow growing bacteria. They put me on an antibiotic for 7 days as a precaution and assured me that the risks of it turning into possible infection was more than the risk of the antibiotic. So I guess now I am just nervous that this infection is back and something is horribly wrong with me, and worse that this is somehow hurting baby. Since I'm not having a ton of infection symptoms (just some frequent urination that comes and goes, no burning, etc.), she said we can wait until this new test comes back before considering antibiotics again.
Should I chill out until we get the results next week? I feel like I'm just using this "inconclusive" test as a way to focus my anxiety on something. Am I getting irrationally spun up over something that isn't that big of a deal? Any advice?
@LoneStar21416 Hmmm. I feel like as an outsider looking in, I should say "trust your doctor". But that's easier said than done (as I am a perfect example of over worrying about stuff that my doc is not worried about). Is there a quick clinic that you could run to and get a culture done under suspician of a bacterial infection?
DS born 4/06/14
MC #2 August 2015
CP November 2015
MC#3 January 2016
BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
I hope everyone is having a positive day, as well!
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
it never hurts to call your doc. Worst thing that can happen is they just say watch it and give you instructions for when to call back. Don't worry about bothering them - it's their job.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
DS born 4/06/14
MC #2 August 2015
CP November 2015
MC#3 January 2016
BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
You guys have been on my mind - How are you ladies feeling today?
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
@susykat77, hope things are settling down for you today.
BFP 2/3/16 --> MC 2/13/16
@ceclarlinetlo I am trying my darndest to remain positive. I am still spotting a tad but there is a logical explanation - progesterone suppositories. I did have my beta checked again and it went from 2114 to 4915 with a doubling time about 41hrs - which is really great for beta's of that level. (Can you tell I am trying to focus on the science of it to reassure myself?)
@Curleysue22 Thank you for the well wishes!
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
@susykat77 I'm with you on the trying to remember the logical explanation. It's hard, but if PGAL brain can calm down, it can be reassuring. I always try to focus on the science, too, haha! I actually just read a study (and posted about it on the "Study" thread that was posted recently) that women with light bleeding and heavy spotting are at no increased risk of miscarriage. This study found that only bleeding heavier than typical menses, WITH pain increased the risk for a miscarriage. This was conducted with over 4000 participants, and looked like a study that I would trust, as it's been cited several times and in one of the best journals for the field.
@ceclarlinetlo Thank you for asking! I'm doing pretty well. I'm having a milder nausea day - my stomach growled this morning for the first time in 2 weeks! Are you still doing okay?
Edit: I hit post too soon.
I've mentioned before that my usual doc doesn't do maternity, so the logical part of me thinks she might just be a little out of her area here, but of course since she said she was a little concerned I'm totally freaking out. And I'm having this kind of cramping feeling that comes and goes that's very specific and localized, and it's pretty much exactly where I kept feeling much stronger cramps in the week leading up to my MC last time...
I'm just really nervous because with my MC there was some weirdness with my numbers and they were monitoring for a suspected ectopic for a while. But when I miscarried naturally they decided to not investigate further. Now I'm really second guessing that. Does anyone know anything about doubling rates in ectopic pregnancies and how long they can appear normal? I thought 2 straight weeks of normal doubling rates put me pretty well clear, but now I'm second guessing myself...
And, if you don't know anything about that, can you still just tell me to chill the f*ck out, because stressing isn't going to help things either way?
I woke with a tiny bit of brown spotting which wasn't fun but it was just the one time I wiped and I haven't had any more.
I suppose I really only get nervous when I think specifically about what should either have happened since my ultrasound or should be happening soon - for example arm buds should be forming but I don't want to assume baby has arm buds and then see it never actually got that far. Oddly enough I'm ok imagining making it to the end of 9 months or having a baby at home - it's just too much to think too specifically about what's happening now.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
@ThePax89 and @poetryandoceans. I have studied this chart obsessively while looking at my betas
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
@poetryandoceans I would say that your beta's look great!! Hoping you can trust in the numbers and have a relaxing weekend until your appointment.
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
@ceclarlinetlo I always try to let brown spotting just slide - my OB said that brown spotting can happen even after a BM since the cervix/vaginal wall is so sensitive right now. But I completely get what you say about the specifics of what is happening right now. For me, the anxiety comes when I imagine finding out that there is no HB or that there has been no growth since my last u/s. I really don't know how people do it when they have to wait so long to get an u/s. I'm just so, so ready to be out of the 1st tri. Last night H had a rehearsal, and I stayed at home playing on pinterest, pinning a million baby related things. When he came home, I showed him all I had done, and he told me to go ahead and order this gender neutral Etsy outfit. In like one moment all of that excitement came crashing down by the PGAL/OCD brain kicking into overdrive. I feel like I'm finally getting excited, but then I'm so very scared to get my hopes up. H is constantly telling me that it's okay to feel excited, and that worry is only stealing today's joy. But it's hard.
@susykat77 Thank you for the reassurance