@ceclarlinetlo Thanks for checking in! I went in and did my second round for my urine culture. I followed the directions exactly (which I was sure I did previously as well, but maybe not...), so let's hope this sample is not "inconclusive" or "contaminated." I'm feeling a lot better about issue right now because the symptoms haven't changed. I'm having frequent urination, but I'm also drinking between 60-70 ounce of water a day, and all my urine is very clear so I know I'm hydrated. I hope everything comes back normal on Tuesday -- which is likely when we will hear from the lab. They told me today not to expect anything sooner since they wait for any bacteria to grow for 24 and then 48 hours and re-examine it at those points. So with the holiday, I'll probably hear Tuesday.
@poetryandoceans I definitely agree with all the PPs. Also, maybe this will give you a little confidence as well: I went in for beta draws after spotting. At just under 5 weeks, my hcg was about 8,500. A little less than 48 hours later, my hcg was 11,300. I was similarly concerned that it was not rising appropriately or fast enough. My doctor said at that point, there really isn't any set standard on what an appropriate rise is and she was not concerned. She said we would just have to wait and see what an ultrasound revealed in about a week. (We had seen the sac in the uterus, but it was too early for heartbeat.) So I went back exactly one week later at just about 6 weeks for an ultrasound and we saw baby and a heartbeat. My hcg was around 55,000 at that point. It was in no way doubling. I'm definitely not out of the woods by a long shot, but I feel like my doctor was right and there wasn't any reason to be concerned about those numbers. I also agree (in my non-medical opinion haha) that you're well in the clear of ectopic. By 1,000-2,000 they can see something in the uterus, if that's where the pregnancy is. I believe the big issue with ectopics is when the hcg is hovering around those numbers and they can't locate a pregnancy in the uterus. Or if the numbers are lower and not rising. I know you haven't had a scan yet, but I really don't think your numbers would have risen that high if the pregnancy was not in the uterus.
@cjs260 I feel the same way. My anxiety is absolutely imagining going into my next appointment and finding out there is no longer a heartbeat or no growth. I try to envision the exact opposite...having a great appointment with great update, but it is so hard. The closer it gets, the more anxious I am.
My struggle today is really just that I don't "feel" pregnant and that the rug is going to be pulled out from under me again when I go back at 10 weeks. I'm trying to stay positive and really picture/envision what a great appointment will look like in about a week and a half.
@LoneStar21416 I think that sounds like good news so far on the infection front. Also, I feel like us PGALers sometimes don't allow ourselves to "feel" pregnant. I think your envisioning sounds like a great thing to do, and I'm going to try it as well!
@cjs260 Those numbers are really reassuring. It's good to know that ectopics don't usually go that high. I know nothing is every 100%, but that makes me feel like if I'm going to be that 1 in a billion, there's not a lot I can do about it, and the odds are much better that everything is just fine. I can't tell you how awesome it is to have someone around who both has access to the current paywalled info AND the ability to read the studies. I can get into all the databases with my uni access, but unless the papers are talking about literary or theoretical approaches to the topic, I am so far out of my depth... I'm going to try and do some deep breathing and just focus on my scan in 6 days. This week is going to draaaaaag by.
@LoneStar21416 Thanks for the personal story, it's good to know what to expect with my levels been at a certain point when I go in. I know the feeling of "not being out of the woods" but trying to focus on the positive. I am trying to tell myself that not having a scan until 8 weeks means that I will absolutely see something when we go in, but I envy all of you that at least know everything is in the right place.
@poetryandoceans I'm so glad I could help a bit. And seriously, if you (or anyone for that matter) wants a paper interpreted or a topic looked into from the science side, I'll definitely volunteer. I feel like there is another science researcher around here, but I can't remember who it is.
@poetryandoceans I'm so glad I could help a bit. And seriously, if you (or anyone for that matter) wants a paper interpreted or a topic looked into from the science side, I'll definitely volunteer. I feel like there is another science researcher around here, but I can't remember who it is.
@cjs260 and @ceclarlinetlo I knew there was a reason I liked you both! I am a biologist (although, not a practicing one ) Now I know who to go to when I need more expertise!
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***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
Hot damn. I'm an anxious mess. Trying to set myself up for another loss, even though literally nothing is telling me that is the case. My symptoms just aren't strong enough for me to remain convinced all the time.
@poetryandoceans ugh! I'm so frustrated for you that someone is discounting your very solid betas. Keeping all my parts crossed for an amazing confirmation in the form of a scan.
I don't have a scan until week after next, but I'm feeling a little like a mess myself. I have very few symptoms. I do feel tired and very low energy, but I've also been traveling all week for work and have been up early, etc. My waves of nausea are much less frequent and my boobs hurt less (or maybe I'm just more used to them now?). I have a friend that has one child and another on the way (she's well into her second tri) that has never experienced symptoms in the first tri. I think we just need to focus on the fact that everyone's body reacts differently to pregnancy and our lack of symptoms doesn't mean something is wrong. Easier said than done!
@ThePax89 I came here to write the same thing! I am a mess too. I have sore BBs and have had some tiredness but that's it. I feel like with my previous loss I had more symptoms than I do now. I am just so scared that this will be a loss too. My first U/S isn't until June 7. And that just seems too far away for me to hold my shit together.
@LoneStar21416 It is SO true that everyone's bodies react differently and maybe we are just lucky with so few symptoms and it doesn't mean anything is wrong. Like you said though - easier said than done.
Big hugs to you both. Somehow we have to keep the faith. I've been searching for mantras to say when I have negative thoughts and I came across a very simple one - I am, I am. (Emphasis is on the I the first time you say it and on AM the second time you say it). Any other ways you ladies are combating the negative thoughts?
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
@susykat77 this is terrible, but I am just expecting the worst. I'm not sure when I'll feel confident in the pregnancy. Probably when I feel kicks. With my loss, I read positive mantras every day (I have a board on Pinterest). Sorry I'm so negative. This pregnancy stuff is hard. Just trying to focus on my little family and have an epic Memorial Day weekend.
@thepax89 I'm in the exact same boat - I really don't have any strong symptoms at all. If I hadn't seen my bean last week I would definitely be going nuts with worry. I am also dreading my ultrasound on Wednesday. I'm just not ready to be sad again. I've finally had a taste of happy news with this pregnancy and I don't want it to end.
@ThePax89@ceclarlinetlo My MS has gone from being all day, to only if my stomach is empty. It was definitely unnerving the first day I realized that. But I think it's pretty normal for symptoms to come and go and change. I have everything crossed for y'all to have the best u/s ever this week!
1. Me After almost a decade of trying (stopped tracking specific length for sanity reasons), we got pregnant. I ended up losing the baby at 8weeks with a missed miscarriage confirmed by ultrasound and 48-hour HCG quant. I knew something was wrong because I had one massive and painful cramp (I would equate to a contraction now) followed by less and less pregnancy symptoms. I couldn't bear waiting for the baby to pass so I opted to get a D&C. I felt like a pumpkin getting cleaned out with a metal spoon.
About a year later, we got pregnant again. I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG), the morning sickness from hell that was still going strong through the second trimester. By the third trimester, I was accustomed to regular blood draws, IVs, a variety of medicine that made me drowsy, had lost almost 40 pounds, could hardly walk and I literally didn't have the strength to bathe myself. I wasn't back to myself fully until after birth. I have an amazing husband who helped me and was there for me at every step. It's possible to be going through symptom hell and still be grateful for the symptoms. After our miscarriage, every symptom that didn't go away gave me reassurance that my baby was still holding on. I quit working a satisfying administrative state government career to be a stay at home mom, my dream job. He's two now. Doctors recommend waiting until your child is 2 before getting pregnant again. We only had to try for about 5 months this time around. We're so happy. I'm hoping for twins but it's doubtful.
2. Feeling I'm cautiously optimistic that this minor and manageable morning sickness will stick through the first trimester. I'm only 6weeks though, so I still have time before HG can kick in... Other than that, I've been having some major bloating, minor occasional cramping and pretty healthy dose of the tiredness.
ETA Its been a little painful to nurse my son. He only nurses 1-3 times a day now so at least I have that going for me. Also, my appetite is almost non existent now. I basically have to force myself to eat. My son has been eating better than me.
On Tuesday, I had blood, new blood. I went to the doctor and the outcome was cautiously positive. They did an ultrasound and my gestational sac was measuring on target but the baby was still too small to see a heartbeat. They think I was overdoing my workouts. I was trying to bring my jogging pace up so was doing progressive timed interval run/walks (pushing the Couch to 5K program as much as I could). I've been told to ease up and downgrade to walking. I think I'll just become a couch potato until I see a heartbeat. With the other orders, I think what they put me on is also called "pelvic rest".
3. Anxiety
Every now and then my symptoms disappear and I worry that I've lost the baby. I have a love/hate relationship with symptoms.
4. Next Appointment
June 9th with RN intake followed by 8week ultrasound. We haven't picked our OB yet. Our family doctor/OB just moved so that's a little frustrating.
5. Raves
My husband is so understanding, helpful and sympathetic man I know. I'm so glad to be in a healthy relationship.
6. Dreams
I usually forget them about 30 seconds after I wake up unless I make it a point to try and remember. I know I've been having some weird one though.
I know how you guys feel I keep having intermittent spotting and it is driving me crazy!! My Dr. said if it keeps up through the weekend then I could come in for an ultrasound next week and get it checked out. I know I should probably wait but I don't know if I can : It is soo hard.
@ThePax89 I have had the mindset of letting him wean himself in his own time. During the day, I never ask him if he wants to nurse, I let him ask me. We really only nurse for sure before bedtime, sometimes before nap time and sometimes first thing in the morning. It helps him get into the mindset of going to sleep. I figured he'd wean himself once the flavor changes. I don't know.
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating) -My name is Laura and I'm a 28 year old student working towards my bachelor's in Secondary Education with a concentration in English Language Arts. DH and I have been "not preventing" since we first got married (2009) but at the time we didn't know my health/weight issues were keeping me from ovulating. In 2014 I had a Sleeve Gastrectomy and lost over 100 lbs and changing my life in the best way possible. Shortly after (in June 2015) we found out we were pregnant for the first time but that pregnancy ended in a MMC sometime around 7 weeks when the baby stopped growing. We took some time and allowed ourselves to heal and began trying again earlier this year. Then, on April 29th, we got our BFP, and I have been a nervous wreck ever since.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) -They seem to ebb and flow differently everyday for different reasons. Like, today the sweet relish I put in DH's tuna salad made me gag, but not the tuna, which is strange because I hate the way tuna smells. Otherwise, the only constant symptom I have is sore/sensitive and itchy nips.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) -Every little thing freaks me out. I'm pretty much on edge all the time. I'd just like to relax and enjoy my pregnancy, but I'm scared to do that.
4. When is your first or next appointment? -My next appointment is June 8th to make sure baby is growing on schedule. At my first appointment, the bean measured about 2 weeks behind(6w instead of 8w) but with a strong heartbeat of 159. After my next appointment, I have another on June 24th for a u/s and blood work, and then July 5th will be the 1st Trimester Screening.
5. Rants/raves/whatever -Raves for my awesome obgyn and staff for keeping my mind at ease and helping me through this pregnancy. Also, major raves for DH for putting up with my craziness and being so supportive and understanding. Also, raves for my church family for being so supportive and keeping our growing family in their prayers. They really are the best.
6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having? -I'm pretty sure I was some kind of Laura Croft tomb raider, but preggers, and I was being hunted down because a group of people wanted the baby (he/she was an heir of some kind) but I was being protected by a husband and wife team of vampires and a really hot Hispanic man (with whom I kept trying to initiate sexy times, but he was much too gentlemanly for those kind of shenanigans). There was a lot of jumping through windows and doors and out of trains etc. It was a wild ride and very detailed and vivid!
@ThePax89 H JUST finished fussing on me for being so negative. He's super, super excited. I totally wish that I could be as excited as him, but I told him I have to take baby steps. I bought some maternity leggings today to go under some flowy tunics I already own. I told him that's as optimistic as I can get right now. Hopefully after the next u/s at 10 weeks, I'll really start to feel safer getting attached to this baby and pregnancy.
@cjs260 negativity is our fight too. I'm so sick of being positive. I'm trying negativity on for size. I'm a meanie. It's so terribly scary. You get a scan at 10 weeks too? I'm going to ask for one. Waiting from 8 weeks (assuming my 8 week scan is fine) until 12 is too long.
1. Hello, first time here. This is my second pregnancy. My first daughter was stillborn at 25weeks last November due to a cord accident.
2. Morning nausea and mood swings, so can't complain there. It's been smooth so far.
3. I feel like I'm still partly in denial. I should have a 3month old baby, not be pregnant again. But I am excited, my husband is so happy and encouraging. Most of my anxiety stems from that I did not know my daughter died until a routine ultrasound. I'm so scared something will happen or has happened and I won't know. Again.
4. As of now, June 24. But I may switch to a different practice.
5. Rant. I just want to keep my MIL out of this pregnancy as long as possible. She was so hurtful during my loss that I feel like she has earned nothing when it comes to this baby.
6. I had a dream aliens were hanging ugly pictures up on my walls, woke up delirious talking about it and creeped my husband out.
@cjs260@ThePax89 I am in the same boat. My hubs is so excited and I just can't seem to get there. I'll get excited when the scan looks good but the moment I walk out the door I'm skeptical once again. He has a count down for the next appointment and I feel like I'm just waiting to hear some bad news.
Re DH and negativity: DH is definitely more positive than I am. I would say most days I am cautiously optimistic but I definitely have my days where I get down and I'm sure it will ramp up as our ultrasound on Wednesday draws near. We had some pretty ugly discussions after our second loss when he was "over it" and I was still struggling and grieving and he thought I should have been over it by then. Thankfully, those ugly discussions did end up being fruitful and improved our communication about how to support one another better. Since then he has done a lot better at just listening and not dismissing my feelings. I also think he does a good job now of being positive in an encouraging way rather than patronizing or critical.
Ladies who's SO could use improvement in this area: do you think your SO would be open to discussion in a neutral time rather than in the heat of a moment where one or both of you are upset about something. You could just sit down over coffee or ice cream or whatever and discuss how to support one another. A useful tool I've learned is each person tell the other something they are doing well and should continue, something that is not helpful that they should stop doing, and something new to start doing that would be helpful.
@kurtni I am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. Thanks for joining us.
@ThePax89 Yeah, DH is definitely the more positive of the two of us (concerning this pregnancy anyways). He fusses at me when I get down and negative, but it's just hard knowing that we're not in the "safe zone" yet and anything could happen, because the worst possible thing happened last time. I feel so masochistic because I rejoice the days when my symptoms are strongest and I have bad ms and then I'm skeptical of the days when my hormones have ebbed a bit and I have fewer symptoms even though I know logically that just because my symptoms have eased off a bit, doesn't necessarily mean anything bad is happening. (how's that for a nice long run on sentence ) It's just hard.
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating) This is my 3rd pregnancy in the last year. I'm 5w3d. I suffered a loss in August and another the day after Thanksgiving. I have an amazing almost 3 year old son who so badly wants a sibling.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) I've been feeling decent. My boobs are SUPER tender/sore and I'm starting to get more fatigued. Today I started having some nausea. Other than horrible fatigue, my symptoms weren't terrible with my son so I'm hoping this pregnancy will be similar.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) I go back and forth. I had my HCG checked twice last week with a good/normal increase. When they checked it this past Friday, it had increased substantially. Now I'm feeling pretty good about a successful pregnancy but pretty anxious about the possibility of twins!
4. When is your first or next appointment? I have an ultrasound on June 14th and an appointment with my doc on June 30th.
5. Rants/raves/whatever Im on kind of a confidence high after my last set of labs and want to start telling certain people but my husband is being very cautious and wants to wait until after our ultrasound. I hate that he's being the reasonable one.
6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having? I recently had a dream that I was returning a VHS to the video store (because that's super common place these days!) and got really embarrassed when I realized it was a porn starring a nun and Crocodile Dundee.
Re: Weekly PGAL check in - 5.23.16
@poetryandoceans I definitely agree with all the PPs. Also, maybe this will give you a little confidence as well: I went in for beta draws after spotting. At just under 5 weeks, my hcg was about 8,500. A little less than 48 hours later, my hcg was 11,300. I was similarly concerned that it was not rising appropriately or fast enough. My doctor said at that point, there really isn't any set standard on what an appropriate rise is and she was not concerned. She said we would just have to wait and see what an ultrasound revealed in about a week. (We had seen the sac in the uterus, but it was too early for heartbeat.) So I went back exactly one week later at just about 6 weeks for an ultrasound and we saw baby and a heartbeat. My hcg was around 55,000 at that point. It was in no way doubling. I'm definitely not out of the woods by a long shot, but I feel like my doctor was right and there wasn't any reason to be concerned about those numbers. I also agree (in my non-medical opinion haha) that you're well in the clear of ectopic. By 1,000-2,000 they can see something in the uterus, if that's where the pregnancy is. I believe the big issue with ectopics is when the hcg is hovering around those numbers and they can't locate a pregnancy in the uterus. Or if the numbers are lower and not rising. I know you haven't had a scan yet, but I really don't think your numbers would have risen that high if the pregnancy was not in the uterus.
@cjs260 I feel the same way. My anxiety is absolutely imagining going into my next appointment and finding out there is no longer a heartbeat or no growth. I try to envision the exact opposite...having a great appointment with great update, but it is so hard. The closer it gets, the more anxious I am.
My struggle today is really just that I don't "feel" pregnant and that the rug is going to be pulled out from under me again when I go back at 10 weeks. I'm trying to stay positive and really picture/envision what a great appointment will look like in about a week and a half.
@LoneStar21416 Thanks for the personal story, it's good to know what to expect with my levels been at a certain point when I go in. I know the feeling of "not being out of the woods" but trying to focus on the positive. I am trying to tell myself that not having a scan until 8 weeks means that I will absolutely see something when we go in, but I envy all of you that at least know everything is in the right place.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
@cjs260 and @ceclarlinetlo I knew there was a reason I liked you both! I am a biologist (although, not a practicing one
) Now I know who to go to when I need more expertise!
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***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
And @susykat77 - yay for all these lady scientists!
Hot damn. I'm an anxious mess. Trying to set myself up for another loss, even though literally nothing is telling me that is the case. My symptoms just aren't strong enough for me to remain convinced all the time.
@LoneStar21416 It is SO true that everyone's bodies react differently and maybe we are just lucky with so few symptoms and it doesn't mean anything is wrong. Like you said though - easier said than done.
Big hugs to you both. Somehow we have to keep the faith. I've been searching for mantras to say when I have negative thoughts and I came across a very simple one - I am, I am. (Emphasis is on the I the first time you say it and on AM the second time you say it). Any other ways you ladies are combating the negative thoughts?
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
Fx we both get fabulous news this week.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
After almost a decade of trying (stopped tracking specific length for sanity reasons), we got pregnant. I ended up losing the baby at 8weeks with a missed miscarriage confirmed by ultrasound and 48-hour HCG quant. I knew something was wrong because I had one massive and painful cramp (I would equate to a contraction now) followed by less and less pregnancy symptoms. I couldn't bear waiting for the baby to pass so I opted to get a D&C. I felt like a pumpkin getting cleaned out with a metal spoon.
2. Feeling
I'm cautiously optimistic that this minor and manageable morning sickness will stick through the first trimester. I'm only 6weeks though, so I still have time before HG can kick in... Other than that, I've been having some major bloating, minor occasional cramping and pretty healthy dose of the tiredness.
ETA
Its been a little painful to nurse my son. He only nurses 1-3 times a day now so at least I have that going for me. Also, my appetite is almost non existent now. I basically have to force myself to eat. My son has been eating better than me.
On Tuesday, I had blood, new blood. I went to the doctor and the outcome was cautiously positive. They did an ultrasound and my gestational sac was measuring on target but the baby was still too small to see a heartbeat. They think I was overdoing my workouts. I was trying to bring my jogging pace up so was doing progressive timed interval run/walks (pushing the Couch to 5K program as much as I could). I've been told to ease up and downgrade to walking. I think I'll just become a couch potato until I see a heartbeat. With the other orders, I think what they put me on is also called "pelvic rest".
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
Me: 26 DH: 29 Married 8/4/2012
BFP #1 8/20/2013 | EDD 5/4/2014 | MMC 10/2/2013 9w3d | D&C 10/8/2013
BFP #2 2/8/2014 (kinda) EDD 10/29/2014 | DS Born 10/8/2014
TTCAL 11/2015 BFP #3 5/12/16 | EDD Jan 2017
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating)
-My name is Laura and I'm a 28 year old student working towards my bachelor's in Secondary Education with a concentration in English Language Arts. DH and I have been "not preventing" since we first got married (2009) but at the time we didn't know my health/weight issues were keeping me from ovulating. In 2014 I had a Sleeve Gastrectomy and lost over 100 lbs and changing my life in the best way possible. Shortly after (in June 2015) we found out we were pregnant for the first time but that pregnancy ended in a MMC sometime around 7 weeks when the baby stopped growing. We took some time and allowed ourselves to heal and began trying again earlier this year. Then, on April 29th, we got our BFP, and I have been a nervous wreck ever since.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
-They seem to ebb and flow differently everyday for different reasons. Like, today the sweet relish I put in DH's tuna salad made me gag, but not the tuna, which is strange because I hate the way tuna smells. Otherwise, the only constant symptom I have is sore/sensitive and itchy nips.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
-Every little thing freaks me out. I'm pretty much on edge all the time. I'd just like to relax and enjoy my pregnancy, but I'm scared to do that.
4. When is your first or next appointment?
-My next appointment is June 8th to make sure baby is growing on schedule. At my first appointment, the bean measured about 2 weeks behind(6w instead of 8w) but with a strong heartbeat of 159. After my next appointment, I have another on June 24th for a u/s and blood work, and then July 5th will be the 1st Trimester Screening.
5. Rants/raves/whatever
-Raves for my awesome obgyn and staff for keeping my mind at ease and helping me through this pregnancy. Also, major raves for DH for putting up with my craziness and being so supportive and understanding. Also, raves for my church family for being so supportive and keeping our growing family in their prayers. They really are the best.
6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having?
-I'm pretty sure I was some kind of Laura Croft tomb raider, but preggers, and I was being hunted down because a group of people wanted the baby (he/she was an heir of some kind) but I was being protected by a husband and wife team of vampires and a really hot Hispanic man (with whom I kept trying to initiate sexy times, but he was much too gentlemanly for those kind of shenanigans). There was a lot of jumping through windows and doors and out of trains etc. It was a wild ride and very detailed and vivid!
DD2: 9.22.06
DS1: Born too soon, 19w3d 1.28.14
DS2: 3.5.15
It isn't going so hot over here. DH calls me negative for getting worried with every twinge. I feel like I can't talk about it with him
2. Morning nausea and mood swings, so can't complain there. It's been smooth so far.
3. I feel like I'm still partly in denial. I should have a 3month old baby, not be pregnant again. But I am excited, my husband is so happy and encouraging. Most of my anxiety stems from that I did not know my daughter died until a routine ultrasound. I'm so scared something will happen or has happened and I won't know. Again.
4. As of now, June 24. But I may switch to a different practice.
5. Rant. I just want to keep my MIL out of this pregnancy as long as possible. She was so hurtful during my loss that I feel like she has earned nothing when it comes to this baby.
6. I had a dream aliens were hanging ugly pictures up on my walls, woke up delirious talking about it and creeped my husband out.
Ladies who's SO could use improvement in this area: do you think your SO would be open to discussion in a neutral time rather than in the heat of a moment where one or both of you are upset about something. You could just sit down over coffee or ice cream or whatever and discuss how to support one another. A useful tool I've learned is each person tell the other something they are doing well and should continue, something that is not helpful that they should stop doing, and something new to start doing that would be helpful.
@kurtni I am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. Thanks for joining us.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
1. Tell us about yourself (if your first time participating)
This is my 3rd pregnancy in the last year. I'm 5w3d. I suffered a loss in August and another the day after Thanksgiving. I have an amazing almost 3 year old son who so badly wants a sibling.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
I've been feeling decent. My boobs are SUPER tender/sore and I'm starting to get more fatigued. Today I started having some nausea. Other than horrible fatigue, my symptoms weren't terrible with my son so I'm hoping this pregnancy will be similar.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
I go back and forth. I had my HCG checked twice last week with a good/normal increase. When they checked it this past Friday, it had increased substantially. Now I'm feeling pretty good about a successful pregnancy but pretty anxious about the possibility of twins!
4. When is your first or next appointment?
I have an ultrasound on June 14th and an appointment with my doc on June 30th.
5. Rants/raves/whatever
Im on kind of a confidence high after my last set of labs and want to start telling certain people but my husband is being very cautious and wants to wait until after our ultrasound. I hate that he's being the reasonable one.
6. GTKY: what's the weirdest dream you can remember having?
I recently had a dream that I was returning a VHS to the video store (because that's super common place these days!) and got really embarrassed when I realized it was a porn starring a nun and Crocodile Dundee.