I hate that I have to work and I especially hate that I have to come back to work after the baby is born. I hate that I feel this way and I hate that it makes DH feel like shit because he doesn't have a job that will allow me to stay at home so he feels bad. Stupid work and bills and responsible adulting.
Yes, I know I'm not going to get a fucking award for not wanting an epi. Stop telling me how much it's going to hurt and how I'll want one. Support me and stfu.
Why did my big toenail have to come off right before prime sandal/flip flop season? I have to wear a giant band aid or risk showing my gimpy toe. Bleh.
The artist formerly known as Butters. July BMB June Signature
I'm grumpy and sore and uncomfortable and don't want to be at work. My job isn't even that hard at the moment, so I have no real grounds to complain, but Monday. I'm over it. I even treated myself to Starbucks this morning to try to shake the funk, but I still feel like I'm wading through mud today.
Married 6/1/13
BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
I don't care about anyone's pregnancy on my fb unless it's bump ladies. I guess that's more of a confession. Still doesn't change the fact that these biddies don't speak to me on a regular basis unless it's to inform me what happened to them. Really don't give a fly squirrel at all.
I hate work today, and everyday. I just don't care anymore and I can't believe I have so much time left to go. How will I ever come back and give a rat's ass about any of this? I used to love my job but with a new boss coming in and so much up in the air I just can't be bothered with any of it. I find myself wondering what it would be like to find a new job while on maternity leave.
And everything hurts, and I'm so damn tired, and nothing ever seems to get accomplished - nursery's not done, necessities aren't bought, bags aren't packed, etc., etc.
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I feel like once we hit the 3rd tri, it's hard for us not to complain about work. I feel like I could write a book about how much I hate work right now. I know while I'm on maternity leave I'm probably going to miss being at work though. Funny how that works?!
My bitch is about my nephew/family today. My nephew is 4 years old and was the first grandchild on our side of the family. He's cute and smart and all, but he is a TOTAL baby. Everyone caters to him and does everything to appease him. He is constantly being catered to. He's extremely sensitive, which isn't really a problem, except that because of it he ends up getting completely babied and has such a think skin. He is currently on track to be one of those children whose parents/care-givers will try to solve all of his problems for him.
Now, my DS is very rough and tumble, and he's pretty laid back and easy to please. Watching DS interact with his cousin around my family makes my blood pressure go through the roof. Everyone is so quick to correct my child because God forbid my nephew get hurt. My nephew headbutted DS last night and subsequently erupted in tears, and everyone rushed to his side. No-one even asked if DS was all right. He came over to me and sat on my lap and rubbed his own head, but he was mainly just concerned because his cousin was so upset.
I'll admit that this is basically the same dynamic as my brother and me growing up - he was the first child/grandchild, and I was the second, and he was super sensitive while I'm more easy-going. I've always felt like he was the favorite, so maybe I'm projecting some of my resentment from my childhood onto this situation. But seriously, people, stop treating my kid as any less awesome just because he doesn't melt into a puddle of tears at the drop of a hat. He deserves just as much love and attention.
I am sucking it up to go to a group lunch with my old "big boss," who I am not interested in seeing and making small talk with. And I forgot this was planned so I brought a lunch for no reason.
Also, my newly diagnosed GD does not make me want to go to an Italian restaurant only to order a f-ing salad. I haven't had the counseling/gotten a glucometer yet (Wednesday) so I could cheat a bit, but I'm trying to get in a good routine and of course be good for my baby.
I am also on the my job is my bitch train. Basically any projects I have had have been taken away and I have the workload of what I had when I started 3 years ago. Maybe this is my boss trying to make me relax before I go on maternity leave, or it is because I am having a baby which is BS, therefore I am going to have the talk about wtf is going on.
Also, my boss who is always late, failed to do a reporting drill today, so her boss came to me to complete the task. I completed the task and not even a thank you from my manager, how about you show up to work on time and do your job!
@adough27....yep, same thing happened to me. Basically, my boss took away my only major client and gave it to someone else about 2 days after I told him I was pregnant. I am so done with this place right now...
@dolewhipper *Eye-roll* to the no award for no epi comments! If people don't want to be supportive, they shouldn't ask about birthing plans. I don't know about you, but I'm not shouting mine from the rooftops so anyone with the info to make comments was just setting me up. I've started flat out telling women "I'm working on creating the right mindset and not open to hearing horror stories." It's shut down 2 people so far and while I know they could use support, an expectant mother is NOT the appropriate venue.
My b!tch is always heartburn. Drinking a big glass of water, a big glass of OJ and 2 cups of coffee wasn't the best way to avoid it this morning, but I'm craving drinks and not food for some reason. Pregnancy body always sending mixed signals...
The garbage truck came an hour earlier this morning and woke up DS1 with its crunching and beeping. Disastrous because a) I was just getting back to sleep after an emergency pee and b) DS knew the truck came and that he missed seeing it, which caused lots of tears.
My father-in-law and brother-in-law didn't come to my (co-ed) baby shower this weekend. I didn't find out until I got there, and being pregnant and having a soul and all, it brought me to tears. I understand some guys might be weird about baby showers, but brother-in-law had a co-ed baby shower for his only daughter four years ago, and father-in-law was there for that one. This is our first child, and the first boy in the family, so I thought that meant something to them, but my father-in-law's excuse was "Baby showers aren't my scene." He is usually a really caring person and we have a great bond, so that brush off was especially hurtful. I even texted him to let him know I wished he had been there for his grandson's shower, but he never answered and even stopped by our house yesterday to pick up some mail and didn't acknowledge that the shower had happened or anything. I know I have to get over it, but it's hard right now to see how I am going to without any kind of apology or ownership on his part.
I am also on the my job is my bitch train. Basically any projects I have had have been taken away and I have the workload of what I had when I started 3 years ago. Maybe this is my boss trying to make me relax before I go on maternity leave, or it is because I am having a baby which is BS, therefore I am going to have the talk about wtf is going on.
Also, my boss who is always late, failed to do a reporting drill today, so her boss came to me to complete the task. I completed the task and not even a thank you from my manager, how about you show up to work on time and do your job!
I feel like I'm in the opposite boat. My boss is giving me a bunch of stuff to do! I guess he thinks if I get it all done before I leave, it puts him in a good spot to have all this work already done. The last thing I'm going to do is stress about the workload though so I'm doing what I have time for and that's it. At least you can talk to your boss about it; mine probably wouldn't understand.
Me: 31 DH:35 Started TTC in June 2014 Started seeing RE in June 2015 HSG in July 2015 = normal, started Clomid/Ovidrel/IUI cycle in August 2015 Cycle #3 in October afforded 1st month of mature follicles - underwent IUI BFP on 10/27/15 - EDD 7/8/16 DD#1 born on 7/1/16
TTC #2 in September 2018 BFP on 12/2/18 - EDD 8/16/19
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We're set to have about 600 baby chickens at our office (hopefully tomorrow). Normally, that would be one of the most awesome days of the year for me, but my everything hurts, and while I can definitely sit in the floor and sort the chicks into the main boxes, going out there and bending down to pick up 10-20 chicks for 39 different kids is going to be a nightmare. I'm sure as heck not helping them pack the boxes to the car...
So there's this boy. He kinda stole my heart. He calls me "Mom"
Someone's feet in the OB waiting room stink so bad it's making me sick. Also there's a waterfall in here... A WATERFALL, as if I didn't already have to pee 24/7.
Someone's feet in the OB waiting room stink so bad it's making me sick. Also there's a waterfall in here... A WATERFALL, as if I didn't already have to pee 24/7.
Sounds like a conspiracy to me. Some evil mastermind has staged that waiting room!
Married 6/1/13
BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
Someone's feet in the OB waiting room stink so bad it's making me sick. Also there's a waterfall in here... A WATERFALL, as if I didn't already have to pee 24/7.
Haha! My office has one, too. Luckily, there are two bathrooms right in the waiting room so I just hop up and go before they call my name.
The artist formerly known as Butters. July BMB June Signature
Sort of a random than a bitch but nevertheless:
Just like the rest of you bumpies, I rather not be at work because it just feels irrelevant & unimportant! I want to be sprawled out on my couch watching old 90210 and just veggin' and being the BEST prego bum I can be!
Also another bitch- BH at work?! I'm sorry but as my baby visibly moves around under my shirt and then I have big BHs during a meeting, I'm not paying attention! How am I supposed to be paying attention while this is happening?
Yes, I know I'm not going to get a fucking award for not wanting an epi. Stop telling me how much it's going to hurt and how I'll want one. Support me and stfu.
Along the 'I don't want to work' line... My sense of responsibility and desire to nest is making me feel guilty about the state of my house. The daily necessities are done, I keep up on the laundry and dishes and such but it really needs a deep clean and all I want to do is Netflix.
Maybe I'll take a trip to the store for more postpartum stuff and cleaning supplies (do they sell motivation too?).
@dolewhipper and @PootsDragon ugh it's so annoying when people say shit like that about my plan! THEN WHY DID YOU ASK ASSHOLE? Just to shoot me down and tell me "why suffer if you don't have to?" I don't know, why are you choosing to beg me to punch you in the face when you don't have to?
Clearly I am too tired to even deal right now. Must go zen fold tiny pairs of pants and cry about it for no apparent reason.
@PootsDragon I am in the same boat with wanting to drink rather than eat. Smoothies have been going down so much better than any solid foods. Tropical Smoothie (yes, I know probably not the healthiest...) has a smoothie with bananas, chia, oats, dates, cinnamon, and almonds. Also, these mango sorbet pops are amazing...
On the topic of work... Woke up every half hour last night with an aching body, then took my 3 hour fasting glucose test this morning. My body is all, "what are you doing to me??" Trying to focus at work this afternoon but that is REALLY hard... I really want to sleep for the rest of the afternoon...
Where are these "nesting instincts" everyone keeps talking about?? I would love to get my ducks in a row, and nothing is getting done when I am at home except watching stupid tv.... My poor husband just wants to come home to a clean house after busting his ass at work, and I literally can't bring myself to do anything.
I currently have 2 bitches. 1. Bought a watermelon and it's totally not sweet. I was so craving some juicy sweet watermelon . 2. I'm starting to get a sinus infection and it really, really sucks.
F work today. and Probably tomorrow too. I had indigestion all night so I slept with my head propped up and my neck is killing me. I am in a weird blah/depressed mood. And my lunch sucked. I now feel sick and like I ate 100 pounds of food when all I had was a taco and some potato things.
@PootsDragon@hreed7289 I'm having a super hard time eating lately as well. I've been downing lemonade like crazy, it's the only thing that sounds good. I'll force myself to eat a protein bar, but eating is just super hard lately! Any tips or tricks from other mamas on how to still get the calories I need to grow two babies?
I keep having people telling me how fast my labor could go and it's freaking me out and making me angry! I don't know why such a thing makes me mad but I guess I just don't want to get my hopes up, and I'm getting irritated that I may not have time to throw my sheets into the wash before I go to the hospital.
Same thing goes for everyone telling me I could have the baby early. Yep. I could. But why get my hopes up? I'd rather go with my method of telling myself, "8 weeks left at the most." (34+8=42)
July BMB Siggy Challenge: Weird Hot Dog Situations
Add me to the ever-growing list of people OVER their jobs. Today one boss walked in, freaking out thinking I must have called in sick because he didn't see my car in the parking lot. I responded from my office, Nope, I'm here! He only proceeded to annoy me more asking certain questions he was too lazy to research himself, etc. Every question along those lines made me think, WTF are you going to do when I leave?!? Get used to doing your own research!! Then during our Monday staff meeting he asked if I was anxious to start my leave and warned me it'll only be coming with new challenges. I quickly responded, 15 work days left, but no, I'm not excited (sarcastically). I informed him, although I'll miss them, I am excited to not have an alarm clock go off every day!!! I am genuinely exhausted by Thursday. He then let me know, in a funny voice, Don't worry, we'll still call you! Sad thing is, I believe it. I also informed him at least once my new challenges begin, I can go back to having unlimited coffee and WINE!!!
I am getting so tired of people telling me their induction horror stories. It really doesn't help my BP at all to tell me all this crap when I'm still not even sure if that's how my doctor wants to go about this. I have just about burst into tears a few times when people try to scare me and encourage me not to get induced; they don't even bother to ask if it's for legit medical reasons.
I'm wearing maternity spanx today since I'm wearing a white dress. The size I ordered was based on my height and current weight (not pre-pregnancy weight). However, they are still strangling me and extremely uncomfortable. Never again!! I'd rather just look lumpy!
I am getting so tired of people telling me their induction horror stories. It really doesn't help my BP at all to tell me all this crap when I'm still not even sure if that's how my doctor wants to go about this. I have just about burst into tears a few times when people try to scare me and encourage me not to get induced; they don't even bother to ask if it's for legit medical reasons.
If it makes you feel any better, I had 16 friends/family pregnant around the same time that I was pregnant with DD. There were about 10 of us that were induced (including me), and all of them delivered without issues (and also delivered vaginally)......except me (I had issues, and then had a c-section). So just because there are a lot of people out there that have the shittiest birth stories when it comes to induction, there are many, many, many ladies out there that are induced and don't have anything negative to say about their induction.
Work is my bitch M-F so I won't bore anyone with any more work stories. Today's bitch is that I ordered a tshirt for a concert a few months ago and I really didn't think about what I would look like at 30 weeks pregnant. This shirt is sooooo tight, I'm contemplating not wearing it. I feel like I look like this: I had my husband wear it to stretch it out and it fits him better than me :'( I am also worried how I'm going to survive a stadium show and being on my feet for several hours. This shall be interesting...
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Married: October 2014
TTC #1 since September 2015
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And everything hurts, and I'm so damn tired, and nothing ever seems to get accomplished - nursery's not done, necessities aren't bought, bags aren't packed, etc., etc.
I have so much to do today but I'm so tiiiiired.
Now, my DS is very rough and tumble, and he's pretty laid back and easy to please. Watching DS interact with his cousin around my family makes my blood pressure go through the roof. Everyone is so quick to correct my child because God forbid my nephew get hurt. My nephew headbutted DS last night and subsequently erupted in tears, and everyone rushed to his side. No-one even asked if DS was all right. He came over to me and sat on my lap and rubbed his own head, but he was mainly just concerned because his cousin was so upset.
I'll admit that this is basically the same dynamic as my brother and me growing up - he was the first child/grandchild, and I was the second, and he was super sensitive while I'm more easy-going. I've always felt like he was the favorite, so maybe I'm projecting some of my resentment from my childhood onto this situation. But seriously, people, stop treating my kid as any less awesome just because he doesn't melt into a puddle of tears at the drop of a hat. He deserves just as much love and attention.
Also, my newly diagnosed GD does not make me want to go to an Italian restaurant only to order a f-ing salad. I haven't had the counseling/gotten a glucometer yet (Wednesday) so I could cheat a bit, but I'm trying to get in a good routine and of course be good for my baby.
Me the past few days:
Also, my boss who is always late, failed to do a reporting drill today, so her boss came to me to complete the task. I completed the task and not even a thank you from my manager, how about you show up to work on time and do your job!
My b!tch is always heartburn. Drinking a big glass of water, a big glass of OJ and 2 cups of coffee wasn't the best way to avoid it this morning, but I'm craving drinks and not food for some reason. Pregnancy body always sending mixed signals...
Started TTC in June 2014
Started seeing RE in June 2015
HSG in July 2015 = normal, started Clomid/Ovidrel/IUI cycle in August 2015
Cycle #3 in October afforded 1st month of mature follicles - underwent IUI
BFP on 10/27/15 - EDD 7/8/16
DD#1 born on 7/1/16
TTC #2 in September 2018
BFP on 12/2/18 - EDD 8/16/19
Team Green!
So there's this boy. He kinda stole my heart. He calls me "Mom"
Voted "Mom of the Year" 2012 Sweetpea Mom Awards
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AMEN!
Maybe I'll take a trip to the store for more postpartum stuff and cleaning supplies (do they sell motivation too?).
Clearly I am too tired to even deal right now. Must go zen fold tiny pairs of pants and cry about it for no apparent reason.
Same thing goes for everyone telling me I could have the baby early. Yep. I could. But why get my hopes up? I'd rather go with my method of telling myself, "8 weeks left at the most." (34+8=42)
I had my husband wear it to stretch it out and it fits him better than me :'( I am also worried how I'm going to survive a stadium show and being on my feet for several hours. This shall be interesting...
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