My in-laws just picked up my 10 month old to stay the night. I hate this. I don't like it. I want my baby back. Is it too late to change my mind? I'm bawling and DH is laughing at me telling me to calm down.
I know he's in good hands and everything will be alright. I thought I was ready for this but I'm not.
I have a neighbor who lived across the street from my parents from the time I was born until September, when they moved to California for the husband's job. This woman was such a staple in my life. I spent endless hours sitting out front of the house, listening to her and my mom talk. They came over for holidays and were present at all of the important events in our lives. She was like family and it was very hard when they moved. They've been planning on coming to visit later this summer after the babies (mine and my sisters' twins) are born.
Yesterday, my sister and I went to my parents' house for dinner. There was a box in the living room. My mom told us it was from Joanna (the old neighbor) and that she wanted us to open it before my shower on Sunday. We Facetimed her so she could watch us open the gifts. While we were pulling stuff out, we looked up and she walked into the room. She flew all the way from California to NJ to surprise us for my baby shower. My sister and I sat on the floor and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. It was a beautiful, amazing surprise.
I'm so happy that she's here for the shower and even happier that she'll be back to meet the babies this summer.
So I didn't shed tears but I thinks that's only because Im at work. I just ordered my husband's birthday present last night (his birthday is this Thursday the 28th o.o) One item has a delivery date of the 27th but the other had one of May2nd-17th! o.o. Luckily amazon has an option where you can e-mail the store/provider a message regarding the purchased item. I sent a message asking if there is anyway it can be delivered as close to the 28th as possible, even if that date is May 2nd. Amazon then gave the whole, "...they are not obligated to fulfill this request...please allow two business days for a reply..." This afternoon I check my email and there was a reply from the store...."We have sent a tracking which indicated your expected delivery will be April 29th!!!! Have a great day!" I replied to them, thanking them or doing this and within minutes I had an other reply "We are happy we could help you out!! Cheers." I will have to make my self remember to give them a good review on amazon. If I wasn't at work I would probably be crying.
Last night I flat out wept because DH touched my butt and I didn't want him to touch me. I want to want him to touch me and it makes me really depressed that I don't. He totally understands and gives me what I ask for, but I wish I was asking for love and snuggles and not space for my giant uncomfortable ass to spread out alone
I'm not gonna lie. I cried when I watched Beyonce's Lemonade. I've watched it more than once now I still cry. Too many feels, my pregnant self can't handle it.
Just had a full blown meltdown, sobbing into my pillow and all, bc DH is sick with a bad cold and he asked me to make him more food after I'd already made soup.
I just feel guilty that im too wiped out to be a good wife when he's sick and also pissed at myself that I snapped at him. Rather than apologizing and explaining myself, I ran off crying like a baby.
Poor or guy is left clueless downstairs, wondering where his level headed wife went.
My boss is moving me from my janitorial job to a desk job on Monday so tomorrow is my last day. New building, new job, new coworkers. I'm bringing brownies in tomorrow with a nice note and I sat down to write it...cue all the tears. I'll silly because it's what I want, but I'm really sad to leave my work family. Tomorrow is going to be rough.
I haven't cried a lot with this pregnancy but today I learned that one of my fifth grade teammates is interviewing for positions at different schools and my other teammate is overwhelmed due to the students in his classroom. I'm worried that both will leave me and with maternity leave I won't start the year until late September so I will come back to a mess. This is my fourth year teaching and I have seen teachers come and go over the years but I'm still upset.
@hreed7289 Thanks for thinking of me! It wasn't as bad as I'd predicted. I didn't cry when I left so that's a bonus! I booked a prenatal massage after work and that helped calm me down. I'm sure I'll be a wreck Sunday night though.
On Friday at my 28wk appointment I got told I gained too much weight the last month and really need to watch what I eat, exercise more and monitor from here on out. Then on top of it I failed the 1hr glucose test and need to go in for the 3hr test. I've been crying ever since. The 3hr test calls for carb loading for 3 days before the test and then fast for 12 hours. How can I watch my weight before the 30wk appointment and carb load at the same time? Tears seriously flowing since Friday. I know it's really minor in the grand scheme of things because they said baby's heartbeat sounds great but I have always struggled with my self image and weight and being told I gained too much really has me down on myself.
On Friday at my 28wk appointment I got told I gained too much weight the last month and really need to watch what I eat, exercise more and monitor from here on out. Then on top of it I failed the 1hr glucose test and need to go in for the 3hr test. I've been crying ever since. The 3hr test calls for carb loading for 3 days before the test and then fast for 12 hours. How can I watch my weight before the 30wk appointment and carb load at the same time? Tears seriously flowing since Friday. I know it's really minor in the grand scheme of things because they said baby's heartbeat sounds great but I have always struggled with my self image and weight and being told I gained too much really has me down on myself.
I've never heard of "carb loading" before a three hour glucose test... For other medical reasons I've gotten a 2 or 3 hr glucose test every year for the past 10 years and this has never been suggested. Obviously not your doctor, but I'd inquire more... I've always eaten 100% normal even the day before the test. Don't stress about the fasting part... Schedule your blood draw for first thing in the morning... If you schedule it at 8 you can eat a normal dinner at 6 and even have a snack a little before 8 (and then go to bed early and sleep in) and that's your 12 hrs of fasting. Don't stress too much about the weight gain... Some doctors mention it and some don't- as long as baby is getting the appropriate nutrients and looks okay you've got nothing to worry about
Marley and Me. It's not even the end of the movie yet. I told myself I would change the channel before it gets sad. I'm sitting here cuddling my dogs with tears running down my face.
Marley and Me. It's not even the end of the movie yet. I told myself I would change the channel before it gets sad. I'm sitting here cuddling my dogs with tears running down my face.
Oh Christ, why would you even do that to yourself? I can't even think of that movie without tearing up
Because I'm tired and at work so obviously face down at my desk crying. Why do I feel like third tri is a repeat of first tri? Lunch nap is going to be required.
My husband caught me in the shower leg against the wall, trying to see around/lift my stomach to attempt a hack-shave-job on my ladybits. He laughed. I cried. I never did get to see how bad a job I did.
I just saw the Wal Mart stop hunger commercial with the two elementary school girls in it. One girl talks about how she and her mother donated food to help other people. The other girl talks about how they received help from a food bank. It ends with the two girls sitting next to each other on the school bus and one girl thinks "I'm so glad we could help." The other girl is thinking "I'm so glad someone helped " Cue waterworks.
The thought of a child going hungry breaks my heart on a normal day...add pregnancy hormones and it makes it 10 times worse.
DH made shepherds pie for dinner at my request despite the fact that I've been essentially vegetarian for this whole pregnancy. I took 2 bites to discover that a) He added WAY to much salt and pepper and b) I still can't stomach meat. I'm laying in bed sobbing because I'm mad at myself for thinking I could eat meat, mad at him for adding too much salt and pepper and mad that I don't have lunch for the week since I was planning on taking the leftovers.
This morning I exploded with rage at DH because it's my birthday and he slept in, leaving me alone with not only a toddler who wakes up too early and refuses to eat breakfast but also a house to clean before a prospective buyer's visit. Also, he didn't bother to wish me a happy birthday while his mother, who doesn't even like me much, had already texted a wish this morning. When he meandered cluelessly downstairs just before I had to load the toddler in the car, I screamed at him. Then, when DS and I arrived at our Little Gym class, one of the other moms had brought me brownies and her little boy gave me a flower. I immediately broke down in tears...in front of all of the other parents. It was mortifying.
I was being a total pill at the airport whining to H on the phone about a delayed flight and the long line for flight change etcetc. A complete stranger said she'd hold a place in line in front of her and I should sit down. She was so kind. Cue tears umm tearing now reliving it. I was SUCH A PILL. Every now and then aren't people great?
We went to a garage sale at the house we use to live in today. When we pulled up DS said "home!!" Our house now is way better for us but I just loved that house. it was where we brought DS home and he lived the first 22 months of his life. Plus the kitchen was so much nicer than the one I have now
I saved a lot of my sentimental books from when I was little like The Lorax, The Giving Tree, The Little Prince, Where the Wild Things Are, etc. Today I put them on the shelf in baby's room and it made me all kinds of sentimental and teary. Like some day he will read the same copy of Hop on Pop that I learned to read from (and spell my name in!).
My husband and I were on the couch and he was talking to the baby, and then I said "Are you ready? Like for your whooooole life to turn upside down??" And he goes "you mean right side up?" I welled up instantly.
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I know he's in good hands and everything will be alright. I thought I was ready for this but I'm not.
I have a neighbor who lived across the street from my parents from the time I was born until September, when they moved to California for the husband's job. This woman was such a staple in my life. I spent endless hours sitting out front of the house, listening to her and my mom talk. They came over for holidays and were present at all of the important events in our lives. She was like family and it was very hard when they moved. They've been planning on coming to visit later this summer after the babies (mine and my sisters' twins) are born.
Yesterday, my sister and I went to my parents' house for dinner. There was a box in the living room. My mom told us it was from Joanna (the old neighbor) and that she wanted us to open it before my shower on Sunday. We Facetimed her so she could watch us open the gifts. While we were pulling stuff out, we looked up and she walked into the room. She flew all the way from California to NJ to surprise us for my baby shower. My sister and I sat on the floor and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. It was a beautiful, amazing surprise.
I'm so happy that she's here for the shower and even happier that she'll be back to meet the babies this summer.
I just ordered my husband's birthday present last night (his birthday is this Thursday the 28th o.o) One item has a delivery date of the 27th but the other had one of May2nd-17th! o.o.
Luckily amazon has an option where you can e-mail the store/provider a message regarding the purchased item. I sent a message asking if there is anyway it can be delivered as close to the 28th as possible, even if that date is May 2nd.
Amazon then gave the whole, "...they are not obligated to fulfill this request...please allow two business days for a reply..."
This afternoon I check my email and there was a reply from the store...."We have sent a tracking which indicated your expected delivery will be April 29th!!!! Have a great day!"
I replied to them, thanking them or doing this and within minutes I had an other reply "We are happy we could help you out!!
I will have to make my self remember to give them a good review on amazon. If I wasn't at work I would probably be crying.
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I just feel guilty that im too wiped out to be a good wife when he's sick and also pissed at myself that I snapped at him. Rather than apologizing and explaining myself, I ran off crying like a baby.
Poor or guy is left clueless downstairs, wondering where his level headed wife went.
also:
cue sobbing
The thought of a child going hungry breaks my heart on a normal day...add pregnancy hormones and it makes it 10 times worse.
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I welled up instantly.