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Re: PGAL- Loss Mamas Check-in- older thread

  • MrsBinPA said:

    @amyberkley86 I had a tiny brown spot last night too. All seems well for me today. Thinking of you. Keep us posted!

    @BostonBaby1 I will ask the RE about suppositories vs oral progesterone. At least then I am informed of the treatment decision!

    I've been even more obsessed about checking for blood today after the events of last night.

    I completely understand. Try to put your feet up and do something relaxing. Are you a tv gal?
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  • MI have been doing family stuff the last 36hrs or so. Heading home now to lay on the sofa & snuggle my puppies. I suspect I will fall asleep as soon as I eat and get horizontal. Lol. I'm mostly caught up on my shows, but I'm sure I can find something. I doubt I will make it to The Walking Dead.
    ****TW****

    Me: 39 DH: 40
    Married: 12/6/2014

    BFP#1: 1/20/15      MC: 2/14/15
    BFP#2: 10/28/15    MC: 11/24/15
    BFP#3:  3/20/16     MC: 4/26/16
    BFP#4:  7/15/16     DD: 3/18/17
    BFP#5:  5/1/18     EDD: 1/12/19
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  • Hi ladies - intro'ing myself. I'm Amie, I'm 6w with my third baby, fourth pregnancy. I had a loss in April of this year. It was a missed m/c; we found out at the 8w scan that growth had stopped around 6w. That's also why my symptoms, which are usually severe in first tri, were quite mild.

    I found out I was pregnant on 10/20 at 9dpo and went in for betas the next day. They were 23 at 10dpo, 68 at 12dpo, and 1237 at 17dpo. I think I peed on about 45 pregnancy a tests, lol. But I needed the peace of mind. Those first two weeks were an absolute roller coaster! I was so scared.

    My first scan is Tuesday at 6w2d. Thankfully, I'm very symptomatic already, so I'm confident we'll see a little bean. I hope we get to see the HB.

    Love and luck to all of you!
  • I'm really glad that we seem to have a good group of women to check in with. Thank you ladies!
  • Currently between 5-6 weeks and feeling surprisingly calm until today when I started mild cramping/spotting. Pretty nervous now as this is similar symptoms to my loss in April. Have my first appointment later this week, so guess I'll just try not to worry until then. Pretty hard - just waiting for it to get worse at this point...
  • @tmdiehl308 Hope everything is ok!
  • Still loving all this support here. Today I feel paranoid because I don't feel "exhausted". It's only noon and I have had excellent sleep both Friday and Saturday nights and maybe my body just appreciates that and is being nice to me today. But because I don't feel tired, I'm paranoid my progesterone is decreasing or something crazy like that.

    Seriously, pregnancy makes you micro worry every. day. THIS struggle is real for all of us!!

    Sorry, cross referencing from the other thread but I just wanted you to know my breast tenderness has come in waves with my previous pregnancies. Lessened and reappeared well before the losses. Sending T&Ps for comfort for you. Tonight you are pregnant.
  • @amyberkley86 So glad to hear that! Fx everything looks great at your next scan
  • Hi everyone,

    I'm Meghan, I got my BFP just this morning.  I experienced an early loss in June, but don't know exact dates because at that point I wasn't keeping a close eye on my cycles.  I actually didn't even know I was pregnant until I went to my OB for "mid-cycle bleeding" and the test they did there was positive.  I know I must have been very newly pregnant.  Seeing the second line this morning was so amazing, but I'm also terrified.  I'm definitely feeling all the same things you all have posted about already.  Glad that this thread is here for support!

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    Me: 29 & Husband: 36                                                         
    Married: October 2014
    NTNP: April 2015 - June 2015
    M/C: June 2015
    TTC #1 since September 2015
    BFP: 11/9/15 - EDD: 7/24/16
  • It's been four years since our loss and I just got my BFP today. I'm so excited and yet a big part of me can't let go of "it's not real" or "it's a false positive" and a myriad of other negative thoughts. Also checking my tp neurotically every time I wipe. I feel like I'm constantly steeling myself for the worst, which sucks that you can't just sit back and enjoy it. I definitely get the same sense of "no rose colored glasses" and I wish I didn't, but it is what it is I suppose.

    Glad to know you guys are here for support, I'm sure I'm going to be needing it.


    I'm the same with checking the toilet paper and worrying about false positives!
    H. Foxe born October 22, 2013
  • How's everyone doing today?
  • Hi I'm Danielle. I had a Partial Molar Pregnancy in February of this year. I went in for my 8 week ultrasound and everything was good ... then at 12 weeks no heartbeat. When they did the D&C they discovered it was a partial molar. (This was new to me .. its not very common.) I am so excited to be here and I am jumping right in and hoping for the best. I am trying really hard not to let all my fears get to me!


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  • Doing good today. I'm a ball of nerves though. I have my first appointment with a perinatologist tomorrow at 9am. I know they'll be doing an ultrasound so I'm excited to get some good news....hopefully!

    I'm curious if anyone has turned down the services of a perinatologist? I was referred because I'll be 35 before baby is born....so they are already categorizing me as AMA. If I'm not having any other complications or concerns, would it be something I should feel ok turning down? I'm going to at least go to this first appointment and see what it's all about.
  • Doing good today! I got the results of my last 2 betas and they doubled so the doctor says I don't need to do anymore! I really don't like getting them done...way too stressful waiting for the results. She thinks the risk of ectopic is low now and so I can wait and have an ultrasound at 7 weeks. Sine that will be thanksgiving week and I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks before, I'm just going to enjoy the holiday and have the ultrasound at 8 weeks instead. Hopefully all will remain uneventful until then!
  • Today is a good day. Nothing crazy. Tired by 3:30/4 everyday. Craving Frank's Red Hot for some reason.
    Just trying to stay calm until tomorrow when we have our first ultrasound and I find out how far along I actually am.

    Feeling excited and nervous at the same time.
  • I'm having a mini panic today... Thought I had a UTI so went to same day. In UA everything was Negative except there was some blood in my urine?!
    That combined with some localized cramps on one side has me worrying. Waiting on a call from my OB.
    H. Foxe born October 22, 2013
  • Doing great today! As of Friday progesterone is right where it should be and that makes me happy. Breasts are back to feeling tender. Feelin very tired but wide awake at the same time. Had a rough sleep last night though. Hope everyone else is hanging in. Much love to you all!!!
  • @AB34 I'm sorry this is going on. Maybe a kidney infection? Please keep us updated and T&Ps heading your way.

    @dani1124 glad you were able to try again not too long after the partial molar. Congrats on your BFP.

    @amyberkley86 Grrr. They said I can't do laser. I understand not being able to do the bikini because of the temp but it's good to know I can do my legs. So happy you had a good experience.

    @SaraC381 I see an MFM (maternal fetal medicine specialist aka perionatologist.) honestly, the way that it was explained to me was that you just get a lot of extra attention and treated very well. I actually am glad I go (not that I need to but because they are amazing and the u/s quality is fantastic.) good luck tomorrow!

    @jillhenhard YAY for doubling betas!

    @KK1033 Completely understandable feelings. Good luck tomorrow!!!
  • @BostonBaby1 thank you! My OB is not concerned, but moved up my first apt a week (yay!) and told me to let them know if anything more happens.
    H. Foxe born October 22, 2013
  • @BostonBaby1 I wouldn't mind the attention and ultrasound, it's just the extra expenses!
  • @BostonBaby1 thanks :smiley: and hope all is going well with you too!
  • SerpicaSerpica member
    edited November 2015
    Thinking of you @AB34 keep us posted

    My update - yesterday my stomach (digestion) was weird but not too painful. Today I felt ok but had mid-level nausea all day, no energy... I need to take it one day at a time because every time I think about how long it could last it gets me anxious. Last July I felt nauseous for a long time after the loss, that was terrible, so now I think I automatically associate the two things. So it's time to reassociate nausea with some hope. 

    This weekend I did an exercise with my partner, we listed things we're looking forward to, to help remind me of why I'm working hard to tolerate this! I was worried about getting too excited about this pregnancy so I stayed cautious, but still allowed myself to enjoy it a bit. 

    Also I am telling my closest friends and family who will know no matter what happens. I've found it helpful. I even told one of my supervisors at work because she will definitely guess if I don't tell her (she guessed about the previous pregnancy and loss), so that's helped a bit. Also I'm just annoyed that we're not supposed to tell anyone right when it's the hardest, so I'm trying to think about who I want to know, instead of whether or not I'm supposed to tell. 

  • I had an ectopic pregnancy in July. My first 2 pregnancies went so smooth so having a miscarriage this summer was definitely heartbreaking. I am 5 weeks today and feeling good. No spotting or cramps like my pregnancy this summer. I am trying to be positive and not think "what if" so much. I thought like that so much this summer and my worst fears turned into reality. I just put it in Gods hands and trust that what ever happens it is meant to be
  • I had a good day too. I was in an all day meeting which made the day go by fast. I was very tired at times during the day & felt exhausted when I was driving home but forced myself to go workout. It made me feel better.

    i was feeling a little dizzy mid day today. I think I need to step up my water consumption. I'm doing better than my normal but still not enough.
    ****TW****

    Me: 39 DH: 40
    Married: 12/6/2014

    BFP#1: 1/20/15      MC: 2/14/15
    BFP#2: 10/28/15    MC: 11/24/15
    BFP#3:  3/20/16     MC: 4/26/16
    BFP#4:  7/15/16     DD: 3/18/17
    BFP#5:  5/1/18     EDD: 1/12/19
    Babysizer Geeky Pregnancy Tracker


  • @Serpica, there are no "rules" on when to tell people. People tell you to wait until 12 weeks because of the miscarriage rate. I tell people and family almost immediately. I would want the support no matter what. If it makes you anxious and you want to tell people, tell them. It will make you feel better.
  • @tmdiehl308 update? How are you doing?

    @AB34 That sounds like kidney stuff for sure. Hope you're feeling better soon!

    I had an ok day today. I was nauseous again today which I was actually quite happy about as most of my symptoms seemed to disappear over the weekend. Still trying to take it one day at a time and remain positive. It seems to finally be sinking in for DH which helps for talking things through.
  • @SaraC381 it depends upon how your insurance is structured. For me, once I have the confirmed pregnancy and the initial visit, I have no co-pays.
  • Having kind of a rough morning.  I started getting really anxious last night that I misread the HPT yesterday morning so I took another test this morning.  It was positive, but then I started worrying that the line wasn't darker than it was yesterday and took just as long to turn.  I am seeing my regular doctor next week and I may ask her to do blood work just for my own peace of mind, even though I know it's not really necessary.  I keep trying to tell myself that even if this results in a loss, I'm pregnant right now and should enjoy it.  If I do have a successful pregnancy, I don't want to look back and realize I spent the majority of it being anxious.  It's not easy though!
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    Me: 29 & Husband: 36                                                         
    Married: October 2014
    NTNP: April 2015 - June 2015
    M/C: June 2015
    TTC #1 since September 2015
    BFP: 11/9/15 - EDD: 7/24/16
  • My nipples are less sore this morning which has me over thinking! Thursday and another HCG and early US needs to just get here already! I need new data!!
    ****TW****

    Me: 39 DH: 40
    Married: 12/6/2014

    BFP#1: 1/20/15      MC: 2/14/15
    BFP#2: 10/28/15    MC: 11/24/15
    BFP#3:  3/20/16     MC: 4/26/16
    BFP#4:  7/15/16     DD: 3/18/17
    BFP#5:  5/1/18     EDD: 1/12/19
    Babysizer Geeky Pregnancy Tracker


  • So.. I hate hate hate saying this. But I haven't let myself be happy yet. I wouldn't say full on fear, but uncertainty plagues me everyday now. Today and Thursday having betas tested and once they hit a certain point I will have an u/s scheduled. I have a shit ton of cramps so I know something is going on in there, I guess I just don't want to get excited until I see that little flicker. Looking at the screen last time with obvious little gummy bear baby with no flicker broke my heart. Ugh.


    Addison (DD) born 6/10/12
    M/C 3/3/14 Due 10/8/14
    Rainbow Koen (DS) born 7/9/16


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  • @addyplusone creepy internet hugs to you! I hope soon you can be reassured and happy!
    H. Foxe born October 22, 2013
  • Some of you may have seen this already, but I just saw this linked in a thread on the 1st trimester board.  I thought it was pretty cool and a positive spin on statistics!

     

    https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12575727/the-odds-of-not-having-an-early-miscarriage

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    Me: 29 & Husband: 36                                                         
    Married: October 2014
    NTNP: April 2015 - June 2015
    M/C: June 2015
    TTC #1 since September 2015
    BFP: 11/9/15 - EDD: 7/24/16
  • Hey girls. Haven't introduced myself in this thread yet. I just got my BFP yesterday morning... still trying to wrap my head around it.

    We discovered a MMC at my 12 week scan back in July, I had a D&C on 8/12, finally had a visit from AF on 10/3 and thats what I was waiting for to start trying again. Apparently it worked our first try.

    I so badly want to be happy right now, but I'm filled with anxiety. I'm reaallllyy really working on letting myself understand that whatever happens, happens.
  • @nkyokley I got my BFP yesterday morning too!
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    Me: 29 & Husband: 36                                                         
    Married: October 2014
    NTNP: April 2015 - June 2015
    M/C: June 2015
    TTC #1 since September 2015
    BFP: 11/9/15 - EDD: 7/24/16
  • @megstervt Thanks for sharing that! It does help some to see the positive side of things once in a while!
  • SerpicaSerpica member
    edited November 2015
    @megstervt yes, thanks for sharing, this was a nice way to look at things!

    @juliagulia38 thanks for your reply, i agree!! 

    i took my first "i-need-to-take-a-walk-right-now-or-i-will-vomit-in-my-office" lunch stroll today, followed by the "i-might-vomit-at-anytime-during-this-work-meeting-and-i-am-practicing-not-caring...." it worked well enough to get me through, so hooray for getting through one more day... i ordered some preggie pops yesterday, can't wait for them arrive, i found them helpful last time. 

    Sorry to hear about today's anxiety (I won't tag everyone!), we are all managing it quite well it seems even though it's hard... day by day..... 



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