I had a miscarriage of twins about 12 weeks ago. I had no idea I was pregnant. No idea what so ever. I was having my period like norma, we'll I would call them normal then one day I had started my period and there was something odd, different, very different that I had never seen before. It was almost like I knew right then and there what it was. My body knew. I did not. So I had finished wiping and knew I was going to call the doctor because something wasn't right, so I went to bed. I woke up the next morning to call my doctor and right before I did I went to use the bathroom and change my tampon and there was something so similar to what I had saw the night before. I was in a panic. I had no idea what it was.
When I called my doctor, she wanted to see me that same day. So I go into the doctor, she checks me and sits down and talks with me, asks me questions, and the next thing I hear her say is, you've had a miscarriage. What? Mind you I'm only 19, but I have my head on my shoulders better then you typical 19 year old. Accidents happen, but what was different with this is that it upset me. It upset me bad. I didn't know I was pregnant. I had no signs, nothing. And my doctor guessed I was 8-10 weeks. Like wow! And with twins. Me and my boyfriend were devastated. I wish I would've knew. I do. I had to go to the hospital. I did my ultrasound. Luckily, I didn't have to have a d&c. I had passed everything at home.
Since my miscarriage, no one really talks about it. My family doesn't really know or they don't bring it up, but me and my boyfriend we talk about it all the time. All the time. We are parents to two little angels up above. Yet now we realize we want a baby. We want a family, we are doing good as a couple and we realize that we do want one of our own. My boyfriend has a son already, but he doesn't get to see him because of where his mother lives and how she acts. I know I want a baby. I am TTC! And I know this because all my friends are getting pregnant. All I see anymore are babies. I just wish it wasn't so hard. I don't really know much about TTC because I am new to all this. I'm new to bump and everyone here. Anyone have advice?
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I know it's hard when it seems like everyone has babies, but trust me - you're young. You have so much time! If you weren't trying to get pregnant before, if I were you I would remind myself of why.
It's ok to want a family and to want to have babies. But think about the position you're in right now. Have you both finished school? Are you both working? Do you have affordable health insurance? What's your housing situation? Are you renting? What's your financial situation? Do you have savings? How will you afford a baby? Will you stay home? If so, can you afford that? If not, can you afford day care?
I don't ask these questions to be mean. But trying to get pregnant is a very serious decision. It might feel very urgent to you based on your situation, but you have lots of time. I'd strongly suggest getting a reliable form of birth control (like an IUD) and making sure you're in the right physical, emotional, and financial position before even considering it.
I just want to caution you to wait before making major life decisions under such duress. My therapist told me this after my own loss and it was good advice. I initially said I never wanted to ttc again, I wanted to quit my job, etc, etc. I'm so glad I just went with the flow until I felt a bit more like myself again.
Whatever you decide to do, I wish you the very best of luck. Hugs!
I'm not jumping anyone's gun. I just typed quickly and I can read over it for edit.
No one is putting you down. In your initial post, you described this as an accident and that now you know you want a baby. All we have to go on is what you write - which sounded like you were not TTC before.
To the highlighted. No, you absolutely have no clue what you're getting yourself into. I had this same conversation with another young lady not too long ago. Let me tell you a little story. I was married at 17. I had my first child at 18 and my next at 21. I then drug my innocent babies through a nasty divorce because my husband and I grew up a little and we were both VERY different people than we were when we got married at 17.
At 19 years old you are barely a glimmer of the woman you will eventually become. Even IF you are financially secure and have no worries in the world about how you are going to provide for this baby that you are trying to bring into this world there is SO much more to being a mom than just providing food, clothes and shelter. You make sacrifices you never imagined. I didn't raise my kids. I grew up WITH them. They were always cared for, but I was not emotionally or mentally prepared for all of the things that came with being a mom.
You deciding that YOU want a baby right now is quite possibly the most selfish thing ever. Your child deserves to have a mother who knows how to be a mother. Your child deserves to have a mom who knows who she is and has confidence in her decisions. Your child does NOT deserve to be brought into this world because you want a baby to play with or because all of your friends are having babies. If you want a toy to play with go buy a doll at Toys R us and dress that up.
I am not saying these things to be mean. I was in your shoes at one time in my life. My first baby was NOT an accident. I wanted a baby and I refused to listen to anyone who told me that having one was a bad idea. Please at least take into consideration what I am telling you.
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You got advice, nobody put you down.
I had my first at 19 and it was hard ! It seems like a red flag to me that you want to have kids with someone who doesn't get to see the child that they have already. The excuse for that seems like crap too in my opinion, but whatever.
Good luck with whatever you decide to do, but if you were my friend or family member I would tell you to wait a little while and really think about "what you are getting into".
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Gah, I hope this is MUD
Also, OP, you talk like Ducky from The Land Before Time. You do.
Coming from a 19 year old will horrible grammar.8->
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Your first 6 or so cycles could be very long and very weird. Your body is still healing and most likely has some hormonal flux going on post MC. Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss.
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Your brain doesn't finish maturing until age 25. The impulse control portions of your brain are still quick to fire and your decision making processes are not that of an adult. In many ways you are a highly functioning child. That's not meant as an insult either. Its scientific, developmental fact. In addition to the emotional blow of a miscarriage you also have your biology working against you. Its not wise or mature to make this decision after all you've been through.
If you still want to TTC-- wait a year. You can save money and work through all the issues that have been thrust on you in a short period of time. One year of saving money and working out the practical aspects of having a baby. Its not a long time and it will fly by.
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I could be wrong here but I was on a BMB with a woman who liked to stir the pot. She knows I lost twins. Hmmmmm... CMK?
OP- I'm very sorry for your loss. It's true that there is no way to know you were carrying twins without an u/s BEFORE your natural m/c to confirm. Betas vary tremendously. I'm sure you felt awful but it was very lucky that you didn't need a D&C. For me, it was terrible and painful. By fa the worst of my losses physically. I'm amazed you didn't go straight to the ER that night before. Or the morning when you woke up.
It's also AMAZING if you were pregnant with twins and didn't turn a home test at 5 weeks. Even at 10 weeks, you could have the hook effect but you'd likely see a faint line.
Please take it from another loss mama that it takes time to heal. More than just physical time but emotional. Please consider therapy before jumping into TTC again, especially because at 19, you have the luxury of taking all the time you need to heal.
@nlwz123 If one has a loss with a - blood type, Rhogam is administered immediately (as best as I know, I'm +.)
I had a natural miscarriage at 7 weeks and was told "Your body knew what it was doing and passed everything. Your uterus looks as though it had never been been pregnant."
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I don't understand either.... I think what happened is she now realizes that she completely misunderstood the 2 sacs thing and probably just doesn't want to say because of embarrassment or what-not.
I completely get where you're coming from, but having been through this before… I can tell you that placenta can be about the same size as the fetus at that time period. And there is no telling how many pieces of placenta could come out. It would be very hard to tell especially not knowing when the miscarriage actually occurred.