Seriously i will be repeating what everyone else is saying here but its so good to see this group of people who have had a loss and are now trying tobstay positive through their next experience. Thats very brave.
I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I conceived immediately after i got married so we couldnot even go on our honey moon got to know about it 2 days before our flight. So it was kinda difficult. But then within a few weeks came the first spot of blood we got worried and dr put me on bed rest for 10 days no work nothing. Then i started working again everything seemed normal then at 4th month i spotted again i went in to dr and only then came to know that i am carrying twins. US revealed placenta previa for both the babies. We were so happy i left work again and started staying home on complete bed rest. Leaving bed for only washroom n for eating. Then one day gush of blood and a day after a huge clot passed i got hospitalised. When nothing elae happened they released me.Came home only to start bleeding like crazy at home had to be rushed to hospital at night again. Had another huge bleeding episode at hospital. Stayed in hospital for a month while my water broke in between and another bleeding episode. The doctor was so pathetic she took me off all medicines and said let nature take its course anyways they finally decided after i got infection and fever that they have to operate and cant wait any longer. While i was on bed rest to the extent that i was taking bed pan.
Got c section and due to infection my placenta stuck and lost so much blood that i was given 18 pints of blood and they were considering removing my uterus but thank God bleeding stopped once they removed the remaining piece of placenta. during delivery we found out that mybuterus is bicornuate hence it didnot expand to accomodate both of them. Even after delivery i was on bed rest of another month. sadly my twins delivered at 26 weeks survived for a week only. They were both boys. We were devastated.
But you know life goes on and now after 2 years i am pregnant again exactly during the same dates as last time. I have resigned from work due to the request of my DH and am now staying at home. He thinks i need to rest. I am praying and hoping that it wont be the same this time. Lets hope that it will be a happy experience for all of us here and may we be blessed for which we have suffered so much.
I'll echo what many other ladies have said: I'm glad that we can support each other through this process!
Our story: DH and I have been together for 11 years (since we were 18) and we just celebrated our 5 year anniversary last week. I am a teacher, and we planned early on that when we decided to get pregnant, it would need to be in the late summer, so that we could have baby in early summer of the following year. So...we decided to start trying last summer. Unfortunately, I went to the ER on my birthday of last year (July) and found out that I had a tumor on one of my ribs. So...baby had to be put off. I had the tumor (and my rib) removed in September, and the tumor was (luckily) benign. Doctor gave us the okay to start trying in November, and we got pregnant on our first try. We were ELATED! We told family on Christmas (at 8 weeks) and they were all ecstatic. I started spotting that night (Merry Christmas, huh?). Two days later, spotting had increased and I went in for an ultrasound. We saw baby and heard a beautiful heartbeat. The doctor said the source of the bleed was a tear at the implantation site, and it was a 50/50 chance that it would repair itself. After a week of bleeding, another ultrasound confirmed that the heartbeat was gone, and I miscarried naturally at 9 weeks. Devastated does not describe the feeling. The worst part for me was how badly DH took it. It's never fun to see your big, strong husband in tears. We waited a few months to start trying, and after our second try, got our BFP on May 5th! Symptoms are WAY worse this time around, and my outlook is much more positive. Here's to a healthy and happy 9 months! Good luck, ladies!!
@cyanope - I hear you on the DH thing. I've seen DH cry three times in the 12 years we've been together, and when we lost our baby was one of them. In many ways I sometimes feel like he took it harder than I did. He wasn't even sure he wanted to try for baby #2 - which makes this pregnancy all the more nerve wracking for me. If we were to lose this one, I'm not sure I could talk him into trying again.
I am 6w6d. This is my 4th pregnancy 2nd child. I had 2 losses last year. I am trying to be optimistic about this one. My first appt is tomorrow. GTKY: OCD, happy, shy
I am 6w6d. This is my 4th pregnancy 2nd child. I had 2 losses last year. I am trying to be optimistic about this one. My first appt is tomorrow. GTKY: OCD, happy, shy
Seems like every appointment is nerve wracking. Good luck tomorrow! We'll be thinking of you.
Very happy there are others in the same boat as us and we are able to be support for one another. Before I start I want to say THANK YOU!!! and I will be thinking of you ALL constantly.... Happy Positive thoughts to you all!!
Our Story: My previous marriage TTC for 2 years. shortly after the divorce I met my SO. I was on the path to "jump start" my reproductive system at the end of my marriage (PCOS). So when that time came I discussed it with SO and we decided to see what will happen. "If it's meant to be, then it is meant to be". Well I guess it was indeed meant to be and resulted in our DS Nov '10.
I had my IUD fall out in Sep '12... later learned it was due to a fibroid I have always had, but it decided to have rapid growth. Received right before Christmas with a natural mc on New Years '13. Decided to have a myomectomy to remove the fibroid. Due to the size they did a laparotomy with a lateral incision in Jun '14. My OBGYN recommended waiting a year to allow for proper healing prior TTC. So after getting the OK in Feb '15 to TTC we got our BFP May 11, 2015.
Now, here is where I get worried. SO and I decided to go with the "if it happens" plan and see where it goes. So I know when we had sex bc we were't active often. So, that's April 28th. I have always had irregular cycles (PCOS). We had our first US on Tues the 2nd. US tech said it seems to be around 4-5 wks, all we saw was a GS. I haven't had crazy spotting or cramps. My OB always checks blood work for HCG levels. I kinda had a mini panic attack with my OB appt right after the US. Just bc to me, it doesn't add up date wise. OB said that sperm can live in there for about a week. So I may just have ovulated later and be way early. But to alleviate my worries, she scheduled a follow up US for a week later (Tues Jun 9) and did blood work again. Saying that she will call right away with my results. So I get a call at work on Fri from one of the nurses with my results on my blood work. She said that based on my HCG levels, that they should have seen more progress on my US, but to keep my appt and see. However, she is not very hopeful. So, I left work.... cried all the way home.
So, here I am with no spotting or cramps... good HCG levels and progesterone... not as much progress on prior US... and not so hopeful nurse. Trying to stay positive and patient... playing the waiting game.
GTKY: (PS. I am not very good at talking about myself, so I cheated and asked SO.. haha) Loving, Loyal, and Honest (that one was mine)
Ugh, @bananers! A crying husband tears at your insides like nothing else. That and his comment: "The worst part is, that I already felt like a dad. And dad's are supposed to protect their children. There was nothing I could do, but I still feel like I failed somehow." That one ripped me apart. FX for healthy pregnancies for us, because I also don't think I could handle seeing him like that again!
Had my appointment today. Just did blood work and met the dr. Have ultrasound Wednesday to date the pregnancy. I'm super nervous about this because this when the previous pregnancies went downhill. I literally started miscarrying right before my ultrasound last time. I will keep you guys updated :-)
Have my first ultrasound tomorrow afternoon. I'll be just shy of 7 weeks, which the last one didn't make it to. If you could send some good juju my way, I'd really appreciate it! Very nervous!
Ok girls, we decided tonight that we're going to go ahead and tell our parents and siblings this Wednesday since we have our first appt/us next Wednesday at 8wks. Deciding that just made this very real and very terrifying. I've only ever even made it to the first appt once and it was when they didn't find a heartbeat, so I was already nervous about next week, but now that we've decided on a day to tell our families (we were already planning to at least tell them before the appt in case something went wrong again) I'm completely panicking. I don't know how we would handle another loss and my heart is breaking just thinking about it. But I almost feel like there is no way it will go well because it never has. If any of you are praying women, would you mind sending prayers up for my little bean? I just need to know that this baby is surrounded by as many prayers as possible right now. Sorry for the vent, just needed to get it out there. Praying for all of you precious ladies everyday!
Married 6/1/13
BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
I am both glad and sad so see so many in the same boat. And its amazing how many of us August '15 bmb members are on here! Hey guys!
Its mostly in my siggy, but I have been married for 4 years we've been together for 9. We decided to start trying after we bought and got settled into our house. We had a our first BFP last June, but I started bleeding on Father's Day, which was two days later. All signs point to a chemical pregnancy. We didn't have another until December. In January, I had my first appointment, everything was showing smaller (about 5 weeks) and my blood work levels were lower than they should have been at 8 weeks. They thought I may have just mis-dated, but my cycles are clockwork. I could almost make a calendar by them. I came back a week later and everything started going south and a miscarriage was imminent. I opted to do a D&C the next day. It was diagnosed a blighted ovum.
Tomorrow will be my 8 week mark and I have an appointment on Wednesday. I'm really hoping for my rainbow baby. We really don't know if we'll try again if this one doesn't hang in there.
3 word that describe me: friendly, bookworm, nerd
Married March 19, 2011
TTC off and on 04/14
BFP 06/13/14 MC 06/15/14
BFP 12/14/14
1st Appt 01/13/2015 M/C 1/19/15 D&C 1/20/15
BFP 5/13/15
1st Appt 06/10/2015 Peanut has HB 150 A/S 09/02/15 It's a Girl!! Low placenta, but everything else great!
Went to the doctor on nov. 16. 2014 for my 8 week appointment . Only found the sack, yolk sac, and ,fetal pole. No baby. Should have been 8 weeks sac only measured at 6weeks. Doctor believed may have ovulated later so we rescheduled for two weeks to see if there was a change. Sac was growing but no baby. Scheduled d&c procedure because body did not recognize the baby was not there. Now I'm 7 weeks 2 days first appointment on 6.10. Had to go the emergency room last Tuesday because of spotting doctor said everything looked well though baby was measuring 6 w 4 days with a 120 heart rate. Still nervous about appointment since 6 weeks was the furthest my body got to last time. But me and the dh are praying together as much as possible we are ready for our first little bee.
My story is not the same as "our story". My loss is from a different relationship than my current one.
When I was 21 - I was in a committed relationship (i.e. we lived together, first love and all that jazz) with a guy. We had been together for two years. I knew I was pregnant as soon as my period didn't start. I had all of the early pregnancy symptoms but held off testing until about 6 wks. After I got the positive test is was about three days later that I started to bleed. I went in to be seen and blood work confirmed decreasing levels. They also confirmed with an ultrasound - The poor tech did NOT see me coming. I asked a million questions. At 21 I didn't know a lot about my body, cycle or even miscarriage rates. There was no heartbeat and the baby had stopped developing at 5 weeks...meaning that the chances of there ever being a heartbeat at all were zero. (this fact was a very very small comfort) I was able to naturally miscarry over the next week.
All of these words don't really encompass everything I was feeling. All of these words don't really express how NOT supportive my partner at the time was. I was completely alone in my grief and physical pain. So, when I see other stories and women saying "no one knows, unless they've been there" or "you feel this loss longer than most would expect" - I completely get it. True, I've never had to undergo a D&C and you who have are all very strong and brave for making it through that. So strong and brave for not letting that break you. It's a loss that you think about forever. It's haunting this pregnancy for me.
This is only my second pregnancy. I'm 25 and the four years have given me a lot of time to discover what I want and find what I need, especially in a partner. I have a great partner, he is the love of my life and my rock. He doesn't understand my anxiety because he didn't live it with me. If *god forbid* something did happen, I know that I could lean on him and I wouldn't have to grieve alone this time.
When I went in for my first ultrasound this time I was so scared. The tech could tell and asked me why I was nervous. I was honest and said the last time I had one - it wasn't good. She told me that when she did the initial belly swipe before deciding on the internal that there was a heartbeat. She said "I saw the heartbeat, there's a heartbeat." I asked her if she was serious...it's a crazy thing to think about. Something inside of me has it's own heartbeat.
Thank you for making this board. I don't even know if I qualify for this...because it's been four years and no trying in between. But I'm glad that I could share this with you and I'm also glad to see everyone else's posts. It's surprisingly therapeutic. I hope all of us have a happy and healthy nine months ahead.
@KaraEpp16 .....of course you "qualify". When I was waiting in the hospital for my d&c a very sweet nurse told me her story. She had a stillbirth at 28 weeks. I said, "oh my God. That's so much worse." She quickly responded that it's not and to never believe that. A woman is mom as soon as she sees that second line and whether it's at 4 weeks or 14 it hurts to your core. It doesn't matter how long ago it was, how far along, or how it happened. It happened and will always be there. So glad you have faith in your partner this time around! H&H 9 to us all
After an ultrasound Friday that showed blood moving down my cervix, but not being able to find a cause my high risk doc put me on bed rest. I went back to work today and still had some spotting so i went to my regular ob. He prescribed me Prometrium and did another ultrasound. Nugget is still looking good, hr 186 and the tech seems to think i'm either having spotting from a pocket of blood (that she could not find.. lol what?) or my cyst is leaking? And apparently the cyst is growing.... which i don't even know what to think about that. Either way, i'm still pregnant today. I'm still pregnant today. I'm still pregnant today....
Tomorrow is the day we found out we lost the baby last time (9+3). Didn't think I'd be so nervous, thought I'd take it in stride, but I'm sad, and a little scared. I've been spotting throughout, but it stopped, started again today. I know it's all going to be ok, but being in the moment is always so tough.
@Heron422 thinking positive thoughts and sending them your way. Loss milestones are tough but we just have to keep thinking positive for the little beans inside us now! Easier said than done, I know. Mine is coming up on Monday. I'm right there with ya.
So here is my update.
I had my US today.. no more sac. Some misc pockets of fluid though. My OB is concerned of possible molar pregnancy. D&C scheduled for Thursday. I pretty much prepared myself of a non viable pregnancy, so I accepted it (kinda). But then she said when they biopsy the pregnancy tissue, if it does come back as a molar pregnancy then I would have to wait a year to TTC. She left to get paperwork. .. and I looked at my fiancé and said "my heart just broke". I just had to wait a year due to my myomectomy. Now possibly another year?! My fiance says at least it's not a "never". Which is true... just not what I wanted to hear... (adding to the list, I guess).
Well, I guess this is a tiny farewell to you all. I hope all goes more positive for you guys then it did this time around for us.
I'm so sorry @babyrowelo. It's wonderful that your fiance is trying to remain so positive. I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope you get everything you want from your future.
First time checking in with you ladies. My husband and I found out we were pregnant last July. Very much a surprise but as soon as we found out I was attached and excited. I spotted the whole time and lost a lot of tissue, but ignored these signs. I just kept telling myself it's normal and nothing would ever happen to us (naive I know, but nobody in our family had ever had a loss). A month later we had an ultrasound and there was no fetal pole. We should've been 11 weeks but there was nothing. We had a blighted ovum. It was very hard on both of us and I ended up taking a stress leave from work for two weeks. We waited a couple of months to try again and it took us 6 long, stressful months to conceive. We are now 9 weeks and I'm trying to stay positive. Bloodwork has come back normal and I'm just waiting to get the call for my early ultrasound. Terrified for a similar experience but our doctor seemed confident. I've had a really stressful two days with fighting with my husband (to the point where he almost called it quits), so I think the emotions from last time are taking a toll on us. We've stopped fighting and I'm trying to keep my stress levels down for baby, so hopefully two days of stress doesn't cause any harm. I feel like it's so fragile and I know I'm over thinking/worrying. But knowing how pregnancy can end has made me a little more guarded this time around. Sorry for the long story LOL.
Hey guys! I got to see my very first peanut with a heartbeat! I also found out I'm about 5 days ahead of where I thought I was! I'm so excited.
Married March 19, 2011
TTC off and on 04/14
BFP 06/13/14 MC 06/15/14
BFP 12/14/14
1st Appt 01/13/2015 M/C 1/19/15 D&C 1/20/15
BFP 5/13/15
1st Appt 06/10/2015 Peanut has HB 150 A/S 09/02/15 It's a Girl!! Low placenta, but everything else great!
Re: PGAL Check-In?
Seriously i will be repeating what everyone else is saying here but its so good to see this group of people who have had a loss and are now trying tobstay positive through their next experience. Thats very brave.
I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I conceived immediately after i got married so we couldnot even go on our honey moon got to know about it 2 days before our flight. So it was kinda difficult. But then within a few weeks came the first spot of blood we got worried and dr put me on bed rest for 10 days no work nothing. Then i started working again everything seemed normal then at 4th month i spotted again i went in to dr and only then came to know that i am carrying twins. US revealed placenta previa for both the babies. We were so happy i left work again and started staying home on complete bed rest. Leaving bed for only washroom n for eating. Then one day gush of blood and a day after a huge clot passed i got hospitalised. When nothing elae happened they released me.Came home only to start bleeding like crazy at home had to be rushed to hospital at night again. Had another huge bleeding episode at hospital. Stayed in hospital for a month while my water broke in between and another bleeding episode. The doctor was so pathetic she took me off all medicines and said let nature take its course anyways they finally decided after i got infection and fever that they have to operate and cant wait any longer. While i was on bed rest to the extent that i was taking bed pan.
Got c section and due to infection my placenta stuck and lost so much blood that i was given 18 pints of blood and they were considering removing my uterus but thank God bleeding stopped once they removed the remaining piece of placenta. during delivery we found out that mybuterus is bicornuate hence it didnot expand to accomodate both of them. Even after delivery i was on bed rest of another month. sadly my twins delivered at 26 weeks survived for a week only. They were both boys. We were devastated.
But you know life goes on and now after 2 years i am pregnant again exactly during the same dates as last time. I have resigned from work due to the request of my DH and am now staying at home. He thinks i need to rest. I am praying and hoping that it wont be the same this time. Lets hope that it will be a happy experience for all of us here and may we be blessed for which we have suffered so much.
Our story:
DH and I have been together for 11 years (since we were 18) and we just celebrated our 5 year anniversary last week. I am a teacher, and we planned early on that when we decided to get pregnant, it would need to be in the late summer, so that we could have baby in early summer of the following year. So...we decided to start trying last summer. Unfortunately, I went to the ER on my birthday of last year (July) and found out that I had a tumor on one of my ribs. So...baby had to be put off. I had the tumor (and my rib) removed in September, and the tumor was (luckily) benign. Doctor gave us the okay to start trying in November, and we got pregnant on our first try. We were ELATED! We told family on Christmas (at 8 weeks) and they were all ecstatic. I started spotting that night (Merry Christmas, huh?). Two days later, spotting had increased and I went in for an ultrasound. We saw baby and heard a beautiful heartbeat. The doctor said the source of the bleed was a tear at the implantation site, and it was a 50/50 chance that it would repair itself. After a week of bleeding, another ultrasound confirmed that the heartbeat was gone, and I miscarried naturally at 9 weeks. Devastated does not describe the feeling. The worst part for me was how badly DH took it. It's never fun to see your big, strong husband in tears. We waited a few months to start trying, and after our second try, got our BFP on May 5th! Symptoms are WAY worse this time around, and my outlook is much more positive. Here's to a healthy and happy 9 months! Good luck, ladies!!
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
GTKY: OCD, happy, shy
DD 12/20/99, DS 12/14/12, M/C 9/2014, M/C 1/2015
Its mostly in my siggy, but I have been married for 4 years we've been together for 9. We decided to start trying after we bought and got settled into our house. We had a our first BFP last June, but I started bleeding on Father's Day, which was two days later. All signs point to a chemical pregnancy. We didn't have another until December. In January, I had my first appointment, everything was showing smaller (about 5 weeks) and my blood work levels were lower than they should have been at 8 weeks. They thought I may have just mis-dated, but my cycles are clockwork. I could almost make a calendar by them. I came back a week later and everything started going south and a miscarriage was imminent. I opted to do a D&C the next day. It was diagnosed a blighted ovum.
Tomorrow will be my 8 week mark and I have an appointment on Wednesday. I'm really hoping for my rainbow baby. We really don't know if we'll try again if this one doesn't hang in there.
3 word that describe me: friendly, bookworm, nerd
TTC off and on 04/14
BFP 06/13/14 MC 06/15/14
BFP 12/14/14
1st Appt 01/13/2015
M/C 1/19/15 D&C 1/20/15
BFP 5/13/15
1st Appt 06/10/2015 Peanut has HB 150
A/S 09/02/15 It's a Girl!! Low placenta, but everything else great!
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
DD 12/20/99, DS 12/14/12, M/C 9/2014, M/C 1/2015
When I was 21 - I was in a committed relationship (i.e. we lived together, first love and all that jazz) with a guy. We had been together for two years. I knew I was pregnant as soon as my period didn't start. I had all of the early pregnancy symptoms but held off testing until about 6 wks. After I got the positive test is was about three days later that I started to bleed. I went in to be seen and blood work confirmed decreasing levels. They also confirmed with an ultrasound - The poor tech did NOT see me coming. I asked a million questions. At 21 I didn't know a lot about my body, cycle or even miscarriage rates. There was no heartbeat and the baby had stopped developing at 5 weeks...meaning that the chances of there ever being a heartbeat at all were zero. (this fact was a very very small comfort) I was able to naturally miscarry over the next week.
All of these words don't really encompass everything I was feeling. All of these words don't really express how NOT supportive my partner at the time was. I was completely alone in my grief and physical pain. So, when I see other stories and women saying "no one knows, unless they've been there" or "you feel this loss longer than most would expect" - I completely get it. True, I've never had to undergo a D&C and you who have are all very strong and brave for making it through that. So strong and brave for not letting that break you. It's a loss that you think about forever. It's haunting this pregnancy for me.
This is only my second pregnancy. I'm 25 and the four years have given me a lot of time to discover what I want and find what I need, especially in a partner. I have a great partner, he is the love of my life and my rock. He doesn't understand my anxiety because he didn't live it with me. If *god forbid* something did happen, I know that I could lean on him and I wouldn't have to grieve alone this time.
When I went in for my first ultrasound this time I was so scared. The tech could tell and asked me why I was nervous. I was honest and said the last time I had one - it wasn't good. She told me that when she did the initial belly swipe before deciding on the internal that there was a heartbeat. She said "I saw the heartbeat, there's a heartbeat." I asked her if she was serious...it's a crazy thing to think about. Something inside of me has it's own heartbeat.
Thank you for making this board. I don't even know if I qualify for this...because it's been four years and no trying in between. But I'm glad that I could share this with you and I'm also glad to see everyone else's posts. It's surprisingly therapeutic. I hope all of us have a happy and healthy nine months ahead.
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
GTKY: spontaneous, social and easygoing.
DD 12/20/99, DS 12/14/12, M/C 9/2014, M/C 1/2015
TTC off and on 04/14
BFP 06/13/14 MC 06/15/14
BFP 12/14/14
1st Appt 01/13/2015
M/C 1/19/15 D&C 1/20/15
BFP 5/13/15
1st Appt 06/10/2015 Peanut has HB 150
A/S 09/02/15 It's a Girl!! Low placenta, but everything else great!