I'm at a horrible stage in my pregnancy where I'm experiencing Nightmares almost every night.
Back story: My first pregnancy was a breeze. But during labor my daughter's heart rate dropped so off to have an Emergency C Section we went. Longbstory short, I FELT THE ENTIRE THING. Not just pressure and pulling, EVERYTHING. I felt the blade touch me and then cut across my tummy. Worst experience of my life. For so long I was so scared to have another child because of the possibility of having another Csection.
Low and Behold, we are 5 weeks from our scheduled csection with baby #2. I've been pretty calm this entire time. Up until about a week ago. The nightmares are horrible. I wake up sweating and crying and almost peeing the bed. I feel ridiculous but all I can imagine is going thru another horrible csection.
Luckily I'm not going to the same hospital. Everyone I know who has been to this hospital says nothing but positive things. Yet that doesnt calm me.
I try not to think about it v during the day hoping that maybe it will help the nightmares cease but no luck. I'm freaking out.
Re: Nightmares
Keep talking to your doctor until you feel confident in your plan. Then find a way, through self-guided relaxation, with your partner, doctor, or maybe even a session or two with a counselor. Let yourself acknowledge and feel the emotions, and then focus on moving past them.
Good luck. I think you're really brave for getting this far again, and I have no doubts you can get yourself ready for this.
@amark11 I just started the same book, I think.