Im 32w and lately im so damn depressed
im gonna talk to my dr about it at my next appt bc its really starting to get bad. I dont want to see anyone or do anything anymore. Im on bedrest so I cant do much anyway, but even when I get a chance to leave the house, I dont want to. Im bitchy all the time now and I cant help it. My fibromyalgia is starting to act up really bad lately and the pain alone is making me a complete grump. My boyfriend grooms and trains horses for a living and therefore hes always sore and in pain and I try to rub his back for him and be sympathetic but as soon as I say im hurting, he has to mention how much worse his is... He works all day and I dont do shit... Blah blah blah... Duh! Im on bedrest! What am I supposed to do?! Even asking him to rub my back is like pulling teeth. He doesnt seem to care or understand how much pain im in on a daily basis and how depressed I am bc of it. The only time he really notices is when im completely silent all day long and by the end of the day hes asking whats wrong. What do you think?! Before I got pregnant, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, and depression along with pre-existing fibromyalgia. I went from taking 5 different meds a day to taking only my Lovenox for a PE I had in Feb. This is the first time ive ever been off of all of my meds and up until my thrid trimester, I had been fine but now, I just cant deal. Idk what to do. I have to be strong for my daughter (shes almost 7) and make her know that mommy is ok but at the same time I just want to cry and scream. Any advice? Like I said, im going to talk to my dr about all of this at my next appt but I wanted to hear from personal experiance also. Thank you ladies.