I was coughing so hard that I couldn't catch my breath and then my nose started bleeding from all the pressure of coughing. All of this happened in the operating room at work. Plus everytime I cough I get this excrutiating pain in my vagina, groin, lower back, and upper legs.
I read an article about a youtube video of a father singing to his 24 weeker. I'm not going to post a link but if you google it, serious trigger warning in terms of premies/complications.
Because I've been awake since 3 a.m. (I couldn't fall back asleep so I just got up) and now I am crashing and burning hard and fast ... and I still have to work another five hours. And THIS:
Today I had a meltdown at the dr's office. I was up all night because of this stupid headache! I've had it since Monday and it gets so bad my eyes and teeth hurt. So I started crying explaining to my midwife how bad it was but she prescribed me something a little stronger than Tylenol to see if that helped and I was happy because she actually sat and talked with me for more than 5 mins. Which is how it usually went with my old ob. Liking my midwife so far
Today I had a meltdown at the dr's office. I was up all night because of this stupid headache! I've had it since Monday and it gets so bad my eyes and teeth hurt. So I started crying explaining to my midwife how bad it was but she prescribed me something a little stronger than Tylenol to see if that helped and I was happy because she actually sat and talked with me for more than 5 mins. Which is how it usually went with my old ob. Liking my midwife so far
Sorry about the headache, but I'm glad your MW sat and listened to you.
UPDATE - My boss said I can work from home tomorrow. I had to really plead my case because he's really not a fan of working from home, but I told him what I plan on doing and that I can easily do it on my couch and be more comfortable. He knows I was in the hospital earlier this week so he realized there's no reason to say no.
I'm so freaking relieved.
Also, they didnt have mint chocolate chip ice cream (bastards!) so I got cookies and cream. It's pretty good, just really sweet.
Today I cried because I got SO angry at DD for ignoring me whenever I talked to her. Then I realized that she has a double ear infection and probably genuinely can't hear me. Epic mommy fail. That kid gets extra loves when she wakes up from her nap.
Today I cried because I asked my doctor a ton of questions about hospital policies regarding my baby and found out that they only "allow" 15 minutes of skin to skin contact before the baby is taken to an incubator in the nursery out of my sight. I felt very powerless hearing that statement and cried all the way back to work thinking that I was being treated like a child. I called a friend who recently had a baby here and she told me that she told the nurse "no" when she came to take the baby and the nurse acted annoyed but that was it, the baby was left in the room until it had nursed. Hearing that made me feel better but to think that now I have to prepare myself to be a difficult patient on top of everything else that will be going on is overwhelming.
Today I cried because my puppy pooped on the carpet. She never tells me when she has to go outside. We just bought our house in May and had our carpets professionally cleaned. I feel like it was such a waste of money because she poops and pees everywhere. I'm feeling like I'll never get the house clean enough for the baby. I'm so irrationally angry with her for my destroying carpets I feel like at 5 months she should be potty trained by now..
Today I cried because my puppy pooped on the carpet. She never tells me when she has to go outside. We just bought our house in May and had our carpets professionally cleaned. I feel like it was such a waste of money because she poops and pees everywhere. I'm feeling like I'll never get the house clean enough for the baby. I'm so irrationally angry with her for my destroying carpets I feel like at 5 months she should be potty trained by now..
The easiest way to potty train a puppy is to constantly take them outside regardless of them showing you signs that they need to go. If they eat, they go out. If they drink, they go out. If they play, they go out. If they wake up from sleeping, outside they go. And when you take them out at those times you stay out there until they go even if it means standing out in the snow in the middle of the night for fifteen minutes. I promise you they will get the message. Consistency is the only thing they understand. I have successfully house trained both of my dogs in less than two weeks by doing that. NEver let them out of your sight and always take them out after they do anything.
I cried because already tired and feeling sick today and go to pick my niece up from school and stand in freezing cold to find out she didn't go to school. No one thought to tell the person who picks her up everyday.
I scheduled the date for my c-section, and as I excitedly wrote it on my calendar, I started crying because I started thinking about how DD and I won't have as much "mommy & daughter" time, just the two of us. See? I'm tearing up now as I type this! I know we will all adjust, but it has been just me and her for 7 years! (
I cried because I went to the dr. And she said the baby is healthy but he's been breech (Frank breech, head up bum down) for the last 2.5 months (whenever she's seen us) and he's running out of room to turn. She "hopes" he'll turn but thinks he's comfortable where he is and I'll have to get a c-section. I really really want to give birth vaginally. Cried. Then made the worst mistake ever and googled breech babies and cried more because of course it's all the horror stories and 1 sentence about how FTM uterus might be too tight for the baby to turn.
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I cried today because, yet again, I am behind at work and feel so tired and brainless and overwhelmed and can't catch up. I know I will, just lack the energy and brainpower to be optimistic.
My solution is (yet again) pumpkin pie and netflix (like that helps anything!)
I've been having issues with my husband lately, but he doesn't know because I've bottled all my feelings up and put on a smile, thinking I may be able to ignore them. Well tonight he set me over the edge. I was prepared for battle. I finally was able to purge My feelings to him. It skimmed the surface of bigger issues, but I feel much better.
I cried because I went to the dr. And she said the baby is healthy but he's been breech (Frank breech, head up bum down) for the last 2.5 months (whenever she's seen us) and he's running out of room to turn. She "hopes" he'll turn but thinks he's comfortable where he is and I'll have to get a c-section. I really really want to give birth vaginally. Cried. Then made the worst mistake ever and googled breech babies and cried more because of course it's all the horror stories and 1 sentence about how FTM uterus might be too tight for the baby to turn.
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I felt the same when I was pregnant with DD, who was also breech. I really wanted to deliver vaginally, and was so sad that I couldn't. As far as getting the baby to turn, my doc said that in his experience, he had turned babies, then the babies ended up turning back and the moms still needed a c-section anyway. Plus, he said its a painful procedure to turn the baby. Ultimately, my baby was fine...I was scared about hip problems when she was first born, because that's a common problem....and for the first week, she slept in her bassinet with her legs straight up in the air! But, she was and is still perfectly healthy. Try not to worry...everything will be fine!
@saiven sadly I don't. We're in thailand and it took me awhile just to find a doctor who was good with vaginal birth. Thai women all get c sections. Doctors really push for it here because they can schedule them, it is impossible to find an OBGYN after 5pm on a Friday. They don't turn the baby they go the "easy" route and do a C section. I think my doctor feels bad but I don't think she's ever turned a baby just because now that doctors have been pushing it for so long women here all think natural birth will hurt too much and don't want to do it. There are no epidurals, you either do completely natural or c section. ---sorry this was so long--
@LaBellaVida and @littlefoote I am right there with you both. I cried last night confronting my husband about an issue that has been on my mind for quite some time. I have a habit of just shutting down and closing up, he is opinionated and goes into defense mode very easily. It felt good to finally talk about it and make sure we're on the same page, but it can be so frustrating getting to that point sometimes.
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@raveness glad to hear you got a chance to talk! Sounds like there are a couple of us that need to learn to stop waiting until it hits that point. I know I get to the point that I am so angry at my husband that I can hardly think straight. Lol, not the best way to go about things. Especially because my H is so outspoken that, unintentionally, he can shut out what I am trying to say until I get to that super angry point. I have to learn to speak up BEFORE it gets to that point. It's exhausting!
It just gets mind-numbing for me after a while. I am a non-confrontational person, he was raised by lawyers and was on the debate team in HS. I feel like I have to plan out what, when, and how I'm going to approach certain subjects, which feels like more of an ordeal than conversation itself.
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I had to poke my finger for the first time today at the nutritionist's office to measure my blood sugar. I think it took me 3 minutes to build up the nerve. And my finger hurts I think this will be the worst part about GD... I was one of those kids at the Dr's office that hid under chairs when it was time to get my finger poked. Guess I'll be getting over that real quick.
I suddenly feel better to hear you ladies talk about the crying. I thought it was just me who spontaneously sobbed. I cried for about 15 mins yesterday while relaxing on the couch, had no reason to cry, I was just happy to be there and excited about the baby :0)
Today I cried because while browsing Facebook someone I consider to be one of my best friends posted a video about best friends along with a very long personal statement about best friends for life best people she's ever known and tagged everyone in our friend group but me. I swear I'm not a teenager and in hindsight it doesn't matter if she didn't feel I was her best friend but yeah sobbed like a baby for an hour feeling so unwanted.
@saiven sadly I don't. We're in thailand and it took me awhile just to find a doctor who was good with vaginal birth. Thai women all get c sections. Doctors really push for it here because they can schedule them, it is impossible to find an OBGYN after 5pm on a Friday. They don't turn the baby they go the "easy" route and do a C section. I think my doctor feels bad but I don't think she's ever turned a baby just because now that doctors have been pushing it for so long women here all think natural birth will hurt too much and don't want to do it. There are no epidurals, you either do completely natural or c section. ---sorry this was so long--
@MrsNoopoom, sawatdee ka! My H and I lived in Thailand for 2 years. Are you near Bangkok? My friend had two babies at Bumrungrad Hospital and was pretty happy with her experience. She had vaginal births. I hope you can get the kind of birth experience you want.
Today I cried because I got rear ended on my way home from work. My car is fine and the baby and I are alright besides a bit of a sore back. But it was not a good start to the weekend.
Today I cried because I got rear ended on my way home from work. My car is fine and the baby and I are alright besides a bit of a sore back. But it was not a good start to the weekend.
Oh no! Im sorry to hear that this happened. But I'm glad you and baby are ok.
Today I cried because I found out my sister (my only sibling), her husband and daughter and my parents are going to see Wicked on Sunday without me my kids and H. I understand that we should be able to do separate things but they have been all secretive about it. I would never leave my sister and her family out for something like this even if it was just to ask if they want to go or let them know that we are planning on going. They also all went to Disney the summer before last and kept it a big secret for a long time. The hard part is trying to think of how I should feel about it. Are they just trying to spare my feelings by not telling us since we really can't afford to spend 300 dollars for the 4 of us for something like this? Or is it a matter of them not wanting us there? I have a very hard time being excluded from things because I am a super inclusive person. We have a really good relationship with my parents and sister but sometimes I feel like the lesser sister. Wow! Needed to get that one out. Guess it's time to dust myself off and stop feeling sorry for myself.
Re: Today I cried because...
I was coughing so hard that I couldn't catch my breath and then my nose started bleeding from all the pressure of coughing. All of this happened in the operating room at work. Plus everytime I cough I get this excrutiating pain in my vagina, groin, lower back, and upper legs.
I'll skip the Mint part and just have a chocolate shake with you
Seems like the perfect remedy.
That is why I avoid all tear jerker things.Sorry about the headache, but I'm glad your MW sat and listened to you.
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I've been having issues with my husband lately, but he doesn't know because I've bottled all my feelings up and put on a smile, thinking I may be able to ignore them. Well tonight he set me over the edge. I was prepared for battle. I finally was able to purge My feelings to him. It skimmed the surface of bigger issues, but I feel much better.