I don't have a confession any better than wanting to go back to bed or mainlining some Starbucks.
DS is teething big time (his big molars I think) and woke up an hour ago throwing up and burning up bad. I got him in the bathroom to clean off, cool off, and was trying to get some tylenol in him when he threw up everywhere.... including on the cat. Hunting down a pink puke covered cat at 1am might be one of the most ridiculous mom moments I've had to date.
ETA: To prevent actual flaming, I am calling his pedi in the morning to make sure this is just teething vs something else.
I'm in the hosptial and even with all the worries about the new respitory virus I can't stand the thought of not seeing my baby for two weeks and have had my fiance bring her to visit me. To be fair though, I'm in a privet room right by the elevators so it's not like shes being walked through a mile of hospital before seeing me. Also I'm on the cardiac ward (even though I'm a pulmonary patient) so less likely that there is a bunch of germs. At least thats what I tell myself to feel better.
I just said this in the MOTN thread, but I was secretly pleased that baby boy was screaming his head off this morning for DH. DH has been fabulous, but just hasn't understood my frustration with Samuel screaming constantly.
@conradraging no flames from me. I've yelled and felt horrible and you are a rockstar for doing it alone! And @kmbk27 LO is 6 weeks old, and I still don't feel like I have a handle on things.
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Watching three kids under two everyday makes me want to drink a beer, everytime I open my fridge I have to tell myself it would not be appropriate to have alcohol on my breath when this little girls mom picks her up.
I'm in the hosptial and even with all the worries about the new respitory virus I can't stand the thought of not seeing my baby for two weeks and have had my fiance bring her to visit me. To be fair though, I'm in a privet room right by the elevators so it's not like shes being walked through a mile of hospital before seeing me. Also I'm on the cardiac ward (even though I'm a pulmonary patient) so less likely that there is a bunch of germs. At least thats what I tell myself to feel better.
ugh the respiratory virus has to be scary for both of you. Hope all is well with you though!
Update: DS went down to sleep as I was bumping earlier and woke up a little bit ago running and yelling and feeling great. It's been long enough since I gave him tylenol that I'm hoping he's feeling better on his own. It's not even 7am yet, so I'm still waiting to call the pedi.
Also, I am kind of bitter that I had to do her whole first month by myself.
I've said this before but you are one strong mom! I'm sure I would have gone BSC already if I was in your shoes. You deserve all the hugs, tacos, icecream, you name it! I've also yelled when LO was crying and broke down crying. So you are not alone there.
I woke up DH to take LO at 3:30 this morning. He keeps pushing me to leave her with him or his parents and I'm just not ready. So I secretly got some major satisfaction that she took a screaming fit for him and he now knows what I deal with daily while he's working. He also woke me up at every feeding to help him get stuff ready. So he is not ready to be alone with her.
I know most people can't stand the thought of leaving their nb with anyone right now.. but I had to go run an errand at the town an hour away the other day. I left LO with hubby and was gone for 4 hours. It was the most freeing 4 hours I've had in a while. I love my little girl, but momma needed some alone time.
#1: SO never wakes up in the MOTN. He sleeps right threw the screaming. Sometimes, I exaggerate how bad the night was so he will help more with DD1 in the morning.
#2: I miss pregnancy so much I read birth stories in my free time. Then, I get irrationally jealous of those ladies. I feel like LO has grown up so much in the last month, and she isn't as new and squishy as their babies.
I also screamed at the baby last night after 2 solid hours of him screaming. I then sobbed and called DH to tell him that he can't leave me alone with the baby until I have a better handle on things. I also asked him to bring me the biggest frosty they make and proceeded to eat the whole thing while crying and holding my now sleeping baby.
When I was pregnant I felt like I was constantly dropping food on my bump. Well, sorry ds but just because your out of my stomach doesn't mean I am going to quit dropping food on you. It just seems like by the time I get to eat ds is going through his hold me now fit, and gets a good majority of lunch dropped on him. Sorry buddy!
I feel really guilty about wanting to return to work early. I feel like it will help my PPD, but I feel like I'm supposed to be enjoying this maternity leave... And I'm not really enjoying it right now. Cue the tears.
Flame away: I cried yesterday because my SIL had her baby, after telling us the whole pregnancy it would be a c section and get dr wanted to deliver at 37 weeks, etc, etc, . She was able to deliver vaginally after going into labor in her own at 39 weeks. I cried because in my crazy, exhausted, hormonal mind, she got the birth story I was supposed to have. Hearing her talk about how amazing having the hour of skin to skin and starting breastfeeding just made me so insanely jealous! Anyways, I didn't feel right sharing that feelings with anyone else, so im telling you guys!
I felt better when i realized my baby boy is cuter and sweeter!
I feel really guilty about wanting to return to work early. I feel like it will help my PPD, but I feel like I'm supposed to be enjoying this maternity leave... And I'm not really enjoying it right now. Cue the tears.
Hugs girl! Don't feel guilty about wanting to go back to work. If I still had a job I would want to go back too! Remember what's good for your sanity is also good for baby. And if that means a "break" by going back to work, then that's what's best for everybody! Stay strong mama! I declare this a guilt free zone.
I feel really guilty about wanting to return to work early. I feel like it will help my PPD, but I feel like I'm supposed to be enjoying this maternity leave... And I'm not really enjoying it right now. Cue the tears.
((hugs)) Lala. Don't feel guilty. Getting back out in the world of adults can be a really freeing feeling. I remember how much going back to work after DS made me feel like ME again. Don't feel guilty at all for wanting that.
I feel really guilty about wanting to return to work early. I feel like it will help my PPD, but I feel like I'm supposed to be enjoying this maternity leave... And I'm not really enjoying it right now. Cue the tears.
I am with you on this 100%. I still have 7 weeks of maternity leave but I am not enjoying it. Lots of hugs!!
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I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I thought I'd have more instinct/intuition about what to do when... about all the baby challenges. I think I have more questions about how to take care of a baby than I ever thought I would. And I think it's because it's my baby and I want to do it right/to the best of my ability, rather than it being someone else's baby and just doing what they want/following their preferences. I never had these questions while babysitting.
I miss certain things about being pregnant and am looking forward to doing it again (in a few years) but at the same time I don't think I'll have another baby as cute and sweet tempered and I almost want to "quit while I'm ahead".
My mom offered to babysit while DH and I go on a date tonight. I'm totally freaking out on the inside even though I completely trust my mom and we're only going to dinner at a restaurant that's maybe 7 minutes away from our house. I know rationally, my baby will be fine and she'll probably sleep the whole time, but I feel a bit anxious being away from her.
Baby kept waking up overnight and I was more exhausted than normal and didn't have the patience to rock and soothe him so I fed him again just an hour after he ate so he would go back to sleep... Then felt guilty two hours later as he spit it all back up. I'm an idiot
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Baby kept waking up overnight and I was more exhausted than normal and didn't have the patience to rock and soothe him so I fed him again just an hour after he ate so he would go back to sleep... Then felt guilty two hours later as he spit it all back up. I'm an idiot
I'm guilty of this too sometimes. You're not an idiot. You're human. A tired human. He'll be ok.
I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I thought I'd have more instinct/intuition about what to do when... about all the baby challenges. I think I have more questions about how to take care of a baby than I ever thought I would. And I think it's because it's my baby and I want to do it right/to the best of my ability, rather than it being someone else's baby and just doing what they want/following their preferences. I never had these questions while babysitting.
I miss certain things about being pregnant and am looking forward to doing it again (in a few years) but at the same time I don't think I'll have another baby as cute and sweet tempered and I almost want to "quit while I'm ahead".
My mom offered to babysit while DH and I go on a date tonight. I'm totally freaking out on the inside even though I completely trust my mom and we're only going to dinner at a restaurant that's maybe 7 minutes away from our house. I know rationally, my baby will be fine and she'll probably sleep the whole time, but I feel a bit anxious being away from her.
I feel the exact same way. I miss being pregnant and can't wait to do it again. But LO is such a good baby I'm worried there's no way we will get this lucky twice.
My husband is pressuring me to leave LO to go out because today's our anniversary. He, of course, wants to leave her with his parents and I'm just not ready. But I would probably do it if we were leaving LO with my parents. I know she would be fine with either set of grandparents and I'm being crazy.
Edited because I didn't know there's a difference between quote and reply.
I pretended to be trying on nursing shirts at Macy's just so I can use their fitting room to nurse the baby. I've been in here for over 20 minutes.
I'm only out right now because we're out of diapers and I had to go allllll the way to Target to get the brand that fit the baby. Hubbs decided to take an early shift at work despite me telling him "I need you home in the morning and we need diapers" somehow that translated into "I'd love it if you could get off work early".... NOT the same thing.
I gave a woman in Target what must have been a serious death stare after she asked me why on earth I had my 1-month old out shopping. She smiled and backed away.
I've spent way too much time trying to figure out what two of the songs on the swing are. They haunt me (because I play it so often) and I can't place them. I'm not sure if they're just random melodies or if they're well known lullabies like the other songs. I still don't know what the songs are.
I may get flamed for this but I don't think it is my job to entertain my husband's family on my own. They're coming today (surprise, it was supposed to be tomorrow) and he wants to go to a rugby game 1.5 hours away tomorrow and expects me to entertain them. Umm... no.
I refuse to entertain mine, period. Lol. Especially FIL. he's too out there for my tastes.
Perhaps more of an UO, but I hate puppy stores. We are at potbelly today and the windows looked right into the puppy store next door and I teared up several times looking in there. I hate that they are all alone in those cages, standing on wire for weeks, smelling their own urine and poop. I guess it's better than the puppy mills they all came from, but that's another issue all together. All this to say that I hate you if you've ever bought a puppy from one of those stores.
(I also teared up the other day talking about the circus with DH and the poor animals...I have issues)
Perhaps more of an UO, but I hate puppy stores. We are at potbelly today and the windows looked right into the puppy store next door and I teared up several times looking in there. I hate that they are all alone in those cages, standing on wire for weeks, smelling their own urine and poop. I guess it's better than the puppy mills they all came from, but that's another issue all together. All this to say that I hate you if you've ever bought a puppy from one of those stores.
(I also teared up the other day talking about the circus with DH and the poor animals...I have issues)
Re: Friday is for Flaming Things
DS is teething big time (his big molars I think) and woke up an hour ago throwing up and burning up bad. I got him in the bathroom to clean off, cool off, and was trying to get some tylenol in him when he threw up everywhere.... including on the cat. Hunting down a pink puke covered cat at 1am might be one of the most ridiculous mom moments I've had to date.
ETA: To prevent actual flaming, I am calling his pedi in the morning to make sure this is just teething vs something else.
FFFC: DS turned a month on the 4th and I'm still not sure I know what I'm doing. At this point I just hope it doesn't show.
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Update: DS went down to sleep as I was bumping earlier and woke up a little bit ago running and yelling and feeling great. It's been long enough since I gave him tylenol that I'm hoping he's feeling better on his own. It's not even 7am yet, so I'm still waiting to call the pedi.
I've said this before but you are one strong mom! I'm sure I would have gone BSC already if I was in your shoes. You deserve all the hugs, tacos, icecream, you name it! I've also yelled when LO was crying and broke down crying. So you are not alone there.
#2: I miss pregnancy so much I read birth stories in my free time. Then, I get irrationally jealous of those ladies. I feel like LO has grown up so much in the last month, and she isn't as new and squishy as their babies.
^^^ September Signature: TV series I plan on binge watching with my newborn I do what I want. ^^^
It just seems like by the time I get to eat ds is going through his hold me now fit, and gets a good majority of lunch dropped on him. Sorry buddy!
I felt better when i realized my baby boy is cuter and sweeter!
I miss certain things about being pregnant and am looking forward to doing it again (in a few years) but at the same time I don't think I'll have another baby as cute and sweet tempered and I almost want to "quit while I'm ahead".
My mom offered to babysit while DH and I go on a date tonight. I'm totally freaking out on the inside even though I completely trust my mom and we're only going to dinner at a restaurant that's maybe 7 minutes away from our house. I know rationally, my baby will be fine and she'll probably sleep the whole time, but I feel a bit anxious being away from her.
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I feel the exact same way. I miss being pregnant and can't wait to do it again. But LO is such a good baby I'm worried there's no way we will get this lucky twice.
My husband is pressuring me to leave LO to go out because today's our anniversary. He, of course, wants to leave her with his parents and I'm just not ready. But I would probably do it if we were leaving LO with my parents. I know she would be fine with either set of grandparents and I'm being crazy.
Edited because I didn't know there's a difference between quote and reply.
I'm only out right now because we're out of diapers and I had to go allllll the way to Target to get the brand that fit the baby. Hubbs decided to take an early shift at work despite me telling him "I need you home in the morning and we need diapers" somehow that translated into "I'd love it if you could get off work early".... NOT the same thing.
I gave a woman in Target what must have been a serious death stare after she asked me why on earth I had my 1-month old out shopping. She smiled and backed away.
(I also teared up the other day talking about the circus with DH and the poor animals...I have issues)