Today was my second trip to the doctor to check up on 3 month baby. No heart beat was found..and we don't know why? My little one has passed and I know God has his reasons for everything. I don't want to blame myself or him, he has his plans for me.. Even if we don't like them that's what he gives us. Maybe this is a chance for me to grow. I did in the process and I will even more now. Slowly trying to take it in but I feel as if I'm in a nightmare and can't wake up. My heart is broken and I don't know if it'll ever heal. This isn't goodbye to my precious angel but I know I'll see him/her again. Thank you for the advice you wonderful mothers have given me I will take them on and goodluck to you all I wish you all a healthy wonderful pregnancy. I want more than anything to feel that morning sickness again so even though it's a pain, it's a good pain. Cherish every moment and I hope to be back here later on in life. Xoxo  
                 
                
Re: Not goodbye ..
TTC #1 May 2014
BFP 7/4/14 ~ EDD 3/17/15
My Chart
Surprise! Baby #2 EDD 7/28/17
MC: 2/19/14
~~~~For SuzyQ and all our loss moms~~~~
Met: 02.2007 / Engaged: 11.21.2009 / Married: 07.09.2010
EDD: 03.02.2015 / Scheduled Delivery Date: 02.25.2015
Me (40) DH (45); Started dating 2-24-12, Married 5-13-13
BFP 3-16-13..EDD 11-17-13.. MMC 4-16-13 Confirmed/D&C 4-23-13...
BFP #4 6-22-14 EDD 3-6-15 FX for our LO
M'15 January Animals Being Jerks Challenge