DH and my parents will be out of town at the same time in September so I've already called MIL to see if she'll come stay with us. The thought of being totally alone during the witching hour makes me very nervous. I know I'm supposed to put on my big girl panties and deal, but I don't want to. I like having help.
Even now, at 38 weeks, I hate mentioning that I'll be going out on maternity leave soon when I'm dealing with people outside my own group at work. It feels like TMI to tell them about maternity leave. I know they need to know I will be out at some unpredictable timeframe, but I hate actually labelling it maternity leave.
I had a full on hard sob last night before i saw emma. I felt very anxious and overwhelmed all of a sudden. I lost about a full bottle of pumped milk earlier because I spilled it, FI kept asking me what time she'd be released(even though they've been doing the teachings it's never been set in stone she'd be released), FI parents have been calling daily to ask for updates and to ask when emmas coming home, emma failed her car seat test and I needed to buy a new one before midnight so she could get tested again, FI parents have said over and over again how much they want to see emma as soon as she comes home...i finally broke down and called FI at work and told him if people don't stop asking I'm going to end up going into ppd and i told him he needed to call his parents and tell them the daily calls needed to stop as it puts to much anxiety on me.
I didn't picture my labor and delivery and post partum expirience to be like this. I just feel overwhelmed like there's so much to be done all the time. I'm a slave to the pump...every 3 hours i have to be home to pump and i can hardly sleep at night because I have to do so much. I'm disappointed in myself.
@lookame3639 you are the picture of grace under fire. Be proud of that! You are standing up for yourself as you look out for your daughter who can't do for herself. That takes a lot of strength and self awareness. You are doing a great job! Your plans all went out the window and you're flying by the seat of your pants and doing wonderfully. Take a little time for you and appreciate all you have already accomplished. You will handle each step...just take them one at a time.
I daydream about bottle feeding instead of breastfeeding. There is no reason to this except that I want to get out of the house and have some me time. However I will not stop bf... I just have to remember we have no breastfeeding issues and the first 6 weeks are hard!
Today is my last day of work but I want to blow it off. I have way too much to do to get ready for the new girl next week because I want things to go at least semi-smoothly for her.
I am also sort of annoyed because I know no one at work is going to do anything special for me for my last day. I don't really want the attention, but I am annoyed because I used to have very good relationships with my coworkers, but for a while that has been going downhill. There is way too much politicking at my work. Now I avoid going into the main office to see people because it stresses me out. In short, it's my own fault they don't care, but it still bugs me.
DH and my parents will be out of town at the same time in September so I've already called MIL to see if she'll come stay with us. The thought of being totally alone during the witching hour makes me very nervous. I know I'm supposed to put on my big girl panties and deal, but I don't want to. I like having help.
I plan on doing the same on evenings when dh has a meeting/is working late. The witching hour lasted from 4-8/9 pm with dd every day for 6-8 weeks. It was torture and I can't imagine doing it alone (and with an older child to get to bed).
*sob* I know. Everyone tells me the 2nd kid is easier and doesn't go through the same dramatics. Please dear Jesus let that be true because hell doesn't even describe it last time. DH even cried once over not being able to get the screaming to stop and he never cries!
DH and my parents will be out of town at the same time in September so I've already called MIL to see if she'll come stay with us. The thought of being totally alone during the witching hour makes me very nervous. I know I'm supposed to put on my big girl panties and deal, but I don't want to. I like having help.
I plan on doing the same on evenings when dh has a meeting/is working late. The witching hour lasted from 4-8/9 pm with dd every day for 6-8 weeks. It was torture and I can't imagine doing it alone (and with an older child to get to bed).
*sob* I know. Everyone tells me the 2nd kid is easier and doesn't go through the same dramatics. Please dear Jesus let that be true because hell doesn't even describe it last time. DH even cried once over not being able to get the screaming to stop and he never cries!
After the way H talked to me early this morning, today I plan on going home and doing absolutely nothing. I had told him I was going to cook and all. I think I'm just going to go home pout and eat fudge rounds and not give a crap. He can do whatever he wants for dinner.
I used to judge people who gave up their pets after their children were born. Now I am ashamed to say that we may turn into those people. Our dog gets more and more unmanageable every day and I can't imagine dealing with him AND a newborn. I feel terrible giving him up but at the same time he drives me to tears every day now and I just can't handle it.
TTC #1 since 2/2013 BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
I used to judge people who gave up their pets after their children were born. Now I am ashamed to say that we may turn into those people. Our dog gets more and more unmanageable every day and I can't imagine dealing with him AND a newborn. I feel terrible giving him up but at the same time he drives me to tears every day now and I just can't handle it.
I'm getting like this with one of my birds. It's not that she's bad but I worry about her noise level and LOS hearing being affected by it.its just so hard because i hand raised her but i spoiled her and now she screams
My FFFC: Not happy that DH is schlepping away from home this weekend for a 3+ hour drive (one way) to try and find some stuff his grandmother has hidden in her hoarders-style home. And, she won't tell him where to even begin LOOKING for these things we desperately need for her. So, I'm pissed off that he's going to have to spend an entire day tearing apart her house to LOOK for this stuff instead of her just TELLING him where to look. I love her, but right now, I want to tell her to stop acting like a selfish brat because she's HURTING him and me with her antics.
On the upside, I FINALLY remembered to order my damn breast pump. I'm hoping that it really IS one that my insurance covers. Because if not, I might just have a meltdown. Insurance REALLY should just let us order these damn things at more than 30 days out from our EDD. Don't they know hormones get WORSE and we start acting CRAZIER the further along we get?!
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DH is playing golf today.
(He took this week off to help with the baby. )
I told him he could go play.
FFFC: I will be using it to my advantage later.
I haven't decided exactly how yet. Maybe a pedicure or shopping.
You are me. I'll suggest BF go do something for himself, only in turn to later than evening, be all like "well since you went and had that day how about I get a pedi tomorrow?" works like a charm! funny thing is i'm pretty sure he is completely clueless as to thats what is going on. men *shrug*
Ohplusandalso; that specialty board "The Bat Signal"...oh my. It's why I'm not getting SQUAT done at work today, and I really REALLY need to be.
But the dray-mahz is just too damn entertaining.
So, I guess my FFFC is that I'm endlessly amused at how women get their panties in a twist over some of the littlest shit on the internetz.
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I wanted to punch DH last night. Mowing the lawn is just one of the tasks of homeownership, and we happen to have a large lawn (takes around 2 hours to mow). So it really needed mowed and DH still hadn't done it, so I decided to do it yesterday after work.
He came home about 6 when I was about to finish up the front and said he was going golfing. He asked me to stop mowing because he could tell I was pretty pooped out already. I said it needs to get done, it looks awful! So he gets mad at me for being "stubborn" and not letting him do it. Well, if that's the case, then you shouldn't be going golfing and should be staying home and DOING IT! It needs done TODAY, not next week!
I finished all the mowing and was inside cleaning when he got home just because I knew it would piss him off that I was still on my feet when I should have been resting.
My EDD is Monday & annoyed my SO is driving 4.5 hours each way tomorrow to go to a race.
Also, I've been using the paper played I bought for post-outside baby use for the past two weeks.
Okay I've seen at least 3-4 ladies including myself say that their DH/SO are going a decent distance away for a pleasure trip this close to our due dates! I'm glad mine isn't the only retarded one! lol they are so weird!
My FFFC: Not happy that DH is schlepping away from home this weekend for a 3+ hour drive (one way) to try and find some stuff his grandmother has hidden in her hoarders-style home. And, she won't tell him where to even begin LOOKING for these things we desperately need for her. So, I'm pissed off that he's going to have to spend an entire day tearing apart her house to LOOK for this stuff instead of her just TELLING him where to look. I love her, but right now, I want to tell her to stop acting like a selfish brat because she's HURTING him and me with her antics.
On the upside, I FINALLY remembered to order my damn breast pump. I'm hoping that it really IS one that my insurance covers. Because if not, I might just have a meltdown. Insurance REALLY should just let us order these damn things at more than 30 days out from our EDD. Don't they know hormones get WORSE and we start acting CRAZIER the further along we get?!
My insurance covers 100% up to a certain $$$ amount for my breast pump, but only if I get it AFTER the baby is born. WTF!
I wanted to punch DH last night. Mowing the lawn is just one of the tasks of homeownership, and we happen to have a large lawn (takes around 2 hours to mow). So it really needed mowed and DH still hadn't done it, so I decided to do it yesterday after work.
He came home about 6 when I was about to finish up the front and said he was going golfing. He asked me to stop mowing because he could tell I was pretty pooped out already. I said it needs to get done, it looks awful! So he gets mad at me for being "stubborn" and not letting him do it. Well, if that's the case, then you shouldn't be going golfing and should be staying home and DOING IT! It needs done TODAY, not next week!
I finished all the mowing and was inside cleaning when he got home just because I knew it would piss him off that I was still on my feet when I should have been resting.
This is me and my DH (though our lawn only takes an hour or so). He likes to throw hissy fits about how I shouldn't be doing it but then I'll tell him I'm going out to mow and he'll say "Okay, be careful" while not moving from the couch. I keep telling him we have to stay on top of it because it'll go a week or two without being mowed once baby comes and we don't know when that will be!
Whenever I want him to do something around the house (which lately I've had to nag him about litter boxes constantly) I make a point of listing off everything I've done that day before I ask him so that I can guilt him into doing it.
TTC #1 since 2/2013 BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
This is me and my DH (though our lawn only takes an hour or so). He likes to throw hissy fits about how I shouldn't be doing it but then I'll tell him I'm going out to mow and he'll say "Okay, be careful" while not moving from the couch. I keep telling him we have to stay on top of it because it'll go a week or two without being mowed once baby comes and we don't know when that will be!
Whenever I want him to do something around the house (which lately I've had to nag him about litter boxes constantly) I make a point of listing off everything I've done that day before I ask him so that I can guilt him into doing it.
Exactly! It's so frustrating...if they don't want us doing it then I see one simple solution.
My DH doesn't realize just how much I do around our house. You know, just all the little things. He doesn't realize how messy he is when he shaves and how annoying it is to wipe up his hair across the entire 6 foot counter. Or how annoying it is when he walks in on the floors I JUST cleaned and drops his dirty work clothes. I do what you do and finally make a list of the things I've done to maybe try and guilt trip into doing something helpful, too.
Insurance REALLY should just let us order these damn things at more than 30 days out from our EDD. Don't they know hormones get WORSE and we start acting CRAZIER the further along we get?!
My insurance covers 100% up to a certain $$$ amount for my breast pump, but only if I get it AFTER the baby is born. WTF!
WTF?!!! Uhmmm...yeah, I'd probably lose my cool over that!!
And yeah, I'm limited to $200....but, it's at least $200 that's not outta MY pocket!!
Now, I've gotta remember to go fill out my STD paperwork. Shit. Does this crap never end?!
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Insurance REALLY should just let us order these damn things at more than 30 days out from our EDD. Don't they know hormones get WORSE and we start acting CRAZIER the further along we get?!
My insurance covers 100% up to a certain $$$ amount for my breast pump, but only if I get it AFTER the baby is born. WTF!
WTF?!!! Uhmmm...yeah, I'd probably lose my cool over that!!
And yeah, I'm limited to $200....but, it's at least $200 that's not outta MY pocket!!
Now, I've gotta remember to go fill out my STD paperwork. Shit. Does this crap never end?!
I'm just grateful my hospital's gift shop is a "preferred provider" for my insurance, so DH will be able to run down there and get it for me once baby is born. They'll have to get the paperwork to me somehow. But still, annoying as hell!
I ate cherry cheesecake for breakfast this morning.
I know I've been bitching a lot on here about work.. but it's getting bad. I *REALLY* wish I could start my maternity leave early. I underestimated how little patience I would have this close to the end, and how much the general stupidity around here would irritate me. BUT DH wants to do "date night" tonight.. so at least I have something to look forward to. He said he'd surprise me.
FFFC- I'm secretly wishing that part of my surprise will include flowers. He hasn't surprised me with flowers in almost a year (since I took over the finances.. and I really miss it).
You're welcome. I seriously have to "promise" myself I'll give myself 15 minutes to read the drama if I'll do 30 minutes of work. I think I have a problem!! LOL
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!) Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!) Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
DH and my parents will be out of town at the same time in September so I've already called MIL to see if she'll come stay with us. The thought of being totally alone during the witching hour makes me very nervous. I know I'm supposed to put on my big girl panties and deal, but I don't want to. I like having help.
I have the same exact situation going on, but my parents, DH and my ILs will be out of town at the same time! I am actually having my BFF from California flying in for the weekend to help me out.
I ate cherry cheesecake for breakfast this morning.
I know I've been bitching a lot on here about work.. but it's getting bad. I *REALLY* wish I could start my maternity leave early. I underestimated how little patience I would have this close to the end, and how much the general stupidity around here would irritate me. BUT DH wants to do "date night" tonight.. so at least I have something to look forward to. He said he'd surprise me.
FFFC- I'm secretly wishing that part of my surprise will include flowers. He hasn't surprised me with flowers in almost a year (since I took over the finances.. and I really miss it).
I am jealous. Let us know how it goes!
The only surprise I get from H is when I walk in our house and it is still a mess "what a surprise, H didn't clean".
If my mom keeps bringing me and the boys hiking this baby is going to be born somewhere on the Appalachian Trail. I mean I love hiking but I can barely get from the couch to the bathroom without getting winded.
I ate cherry cheesecake for breakfast this morning.
I know I've been bitching a lot on here about work.. but it's getting bad. I *REALLY* wish I could start my maternity leave early. I underestimated how little patience I would have this close to the end, and how much the general stupidity around here would irritate me. BUT DH wants to do "date night" tonight.. so at least I have something to look forward to. He said he'd surprise me.
FFFC- I'm secretly wishing that part of my surprise will include flowers. He hasn't surprised me with flowers in almost a year (since I took over the finances.. and I really miss it).
I am jealous. Let us know how it goes!
The only surprise I get from H is when I walk in our house and it is still a mess "what a surprise, H didn't clean".
Lol don't feel too badly. DH also surprises me with this frequently. Yesterday all he did was golf in the morning.. and Iwas super annoyed that when I got home from 8 hours of work and there were dirty dishes on the counter. Seriously?! It would have taken you 10 minutes to unload/load the dishwasher!
**LONG(Only H to talk to really** Okay so, this is my first child & I was not supposed to conceive, I am aware a lot of women are told this & they still do but for years my acidity levels were TOO high & for lack of better terminology would destroy sperm before they reached anywhere. Hence why ex fiancé and I could do nothing in two years, yet in three and a half months my love succeeded & we were safe. Told myself if I were meant to be a mother with a good man I would and my hopes were answered.
Anyway, I'm 23 and the H is 29, he is amazing (pool technician, maitenenace supervisor & volunteer fireman), he is very excited for our first child. I am scared even though everything is going smoothly and the H is very supportive, it is just the closer I get to the due date more and more life issues are popping up and it's stressing me the hell out.
I was pulled out of work due to dangers to baby and myself on June 22, and I've been waiting for my EI to kick in, it is late and the woman I spoke to said it should have been processed and I should have received payment already since it has to be manually looked at due to being medical leave of absence from work, but lady that doesn't help me pay the bills!
I've had two visits to the ER within two months once for bleeding (due to being overworked) and once due to a stomach virus that prevented baby and I from being hydrated so we needed an IV. Need I state that I am ridiculously terrified of medical needles, tried therapy nothing helped, only made my anxiety go up, nurse didn't take me seriously. I didn't watch but I haven't had an IV since I was 9 and was out cold for it going in AND out. It hurt like hell, and I thought okay, stop panicking stop crying she will hook up the bag, you'll sit here till it's finished and go home. WRONG.
Damn nurse MISSED and she said "you're going to hate me" prompting me to whimper and cry harder starting a panic attack, "WHY?" She replies "it didn't work" seriously WHY would you tell me that when I am scared of needles, I look and my hand has a large bubble of blood under the skin, she has to push it and make the blood come out through the puncture ( why not just make a small incision so it's easier? Would have hurt less I'm sure)
I had told her my left arm doesn't take needles well, great Canadian health care yeah right, they don't think you know you're own body same as elsewhere.
I am terribly sorry this is long and I do t I tend anyone to actually read all of this I tend to ramble when I rant and I wasn't kidding when I said I only have the H to talk to, and lately he's been working so damn much he rarely calls or texts because he gets home and may or may not eat then promptly passes out. Non intentional and he does do the work of at least six people, and is paid less than the bartender. BS.
I miss him and his calming influence on both baby and myself and my moms bipolar moodswings aren't helping. Yes you just got married, and I'm SORRY my due date is so close after and that I'm such a "bitch" and piss you off so much. I'm sorry that I'm not cleaning your house completely spotless because I don't know where to put your crap and half is dirty stuff and I just you piss ME off. I can't count how many times I've bawled my eyes out from you during my pregnancy, btw my H HATES you for that. You're supposed to be supportive, yeah you have three grandkids already but I'm your preemie born at 26 weeks who you thought you would lose, who is YOUR shoulder to cry on my entire life and who does everything I can to please you. For once when I tell you I'm worried about getting my house ready for baby or paying bills because EI hasn't gone through, or telling you about my anxiety, PLEASE don't tell me you've had enough of everyone's F-ing negativity, of me "whining" and needing to grow up, um..I'm trying. Seriously though tell me ONE MORE time during one of your spastic freak outs to get the F out of your house or to stay the F away from you, and next day say "sugar was low" or "IM stressed out" I swear I will slap you and you will NOT see me or your grandbaby, you can fly to Alberta and put up with my brother and see those two grandkids instead.
Okay, see? I didn't think not having someone to vent to could do this and I'm so sorry, I just...needed it out. I'm so sorry it's long and I'm crying because it's not bottled now oh gosh I need my hubby.
I've washed the mother trucking load of laundry... FIVE TIMES. Five. 5. Why? Because I'm lazy and don't want to get the clothes out of the dryer, because then they will need to be folded. So I keep restarting the dryer, accidentally forget the wash, and then BAM, it is the next day - and they are kinda stinky. So another cup of soap goes in with another scoop of baking soda, and the washer gets restarted. I'm so over housework.
Also, if my DH doesn't start cleaning up after himself - I might strangle him! How hard is it to THROW your trash away instead of just setting it on the counter for ME to throw away? I'm a SAHM, not a fucking maid. I don't mind keeping the housework up, but I HATE cleaning up after him wherever he goes.
You're welcome. I seriously have to "promise" myself I'll give myself 15 minutes to read the drama if I'll do 30 minutes of work. I think I have a problem!! LOL
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(Guess who's on her 'break'? Oh who the heck am I kidding? I can't focus on writing out instructions for something I find boring to begin with!! ARGH!!! And my work shower is in an hour, so I'm trying to decide if I should eat lunch, or wait for cake...and I kinda wanna do both!)
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I'm kinda bummed that my work didn't throw me a shower. My boss just had her 3rd baby a year ago, and we threw a shower for her. But I didn't get anything for my first baby. My boss did take me out to breakfast last week and gave me a gift and another coworker is taking me to lunch today, but I thought I'd get a shower in the office. I know I shouldn't expect anyone to throw me a shower, but there are 100 people in this company and I support all of them.
We did a photography session this morning for Benjamin's "newborn" pictures (even though he's 5 weeks old). My FFC is that we spent way more for the session then I ever thought I would. But I'm soooo excited to see them!
We did a photography session this morning for Benjamin's "newborn" pictures (even though he's 5 weeks old). My FFC is that we spent way more for the session then I ever thought I would. But I'm soooo excited to see them!
The hospital did a newborn session for emma this morning and I spent more than I should have.
In my opinion these are photos you definitely want. I love looking at old pics of DS!
Re: **FFFC**
I didn't picture my labor and delivery and post partum expirience to be like this. I just feel overwhelmed like there's so much to be done all the time. I'm a slave to the pump...every 3 hours i have to be home to pump and i can hardly sleep at night because I have to do so much. I'm disappointed in myself.
Today is my last day of work but I want to blow it off. I have way too much to do to get ready for the new girl next week because I want things to go at least semi-smoothly for her.
I am also sort of annoyed because I know no one at work is going to do anything special for me for my last day. I don't really want the attention, but I am annoyed because I used to have very good relationships with my coworkers, but for a while that has been going downhill. There is way too much politicking at my work. Now I avoid going into the main office to see people because it stresses me out. In short, it's my own fault they don't care, but it still bugs me.
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So far, the second has been easier for us.
Hang in there!
After the way H talked to me early this morning, today I plan on going home and doing absolutely nothing. I had told him I was going to cook and all. I think I'm just going to go home pout and eat fudge rounds and not give a crap. He can do whatever he wants for dinner.
It's my choice, I can afford to stay home if I want. And you have your choice... But saying it like that makes you sound like a douche.
(He took this week off to help with the baby. )
I told him he could go play.
FFFC: I will be using it to my advantage later.
I haven't decided exactly how yet. Maybe a pedicure or shopping.
BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
On the upside, I FINALLY remembered to order my damn breast pump. I'm hoping that it really IS one that my insurance covers. Because if not, I might just have a meltdown. Insurance REALLY should just let us order these damn things at more than 30 days out from our EDD. Don't they know hormones get WORSE and we start acting CRAZIER the further along we get?!
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Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!)
Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!)
Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
But the dray-mahz is just too damn entertaining.
So, I guess my FFFC is that I'm endlessly amused at how women get their panties in a twist over some of the littlest shit on the internetz.
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Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!)
Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!)
Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
I wanted to punch DH last night. Mowing the lawn is just one of the tasks of homeownership, and we happen to have a large lawn (takes around 2 hours to mow). So it really needed mowed and DH still hadn't done it, so I decided to do it yesterday after work.
He came home about 6 when I was about to finish up the front and said he was going golfing. He asked me to stop mowing because he could tell I was pretty pooped out already. I said it needs to get done, it looks awful! So he gets mad at me for being "stubborn" and not letting him do it. Well, if that's the case, then you shouldn't be going golfing and should be staying home and DOING IT! It needs done TODAY, not next week!
I finished all the mowing and was inside cleaning when he got home just because I knew it would piss him off that I was still on my feet when I should have been resting.
Also, I've been using the paper plates I bought for post-outside baby use for the past two weeks.
Edited because I'm fat fingering typos
My insurance covers 100% up to a certain $$$ amount for my breast pump, but only if I get it AFTER the baby is born. WTF!
BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
Exactly! It's so frustrating...if they don't want us doing it then I see one simple solution.
My DH doesn't realize just how much I do around our house. You know, just all the little things. He doesn't realize how messy he is when he shaves and how annoying it is to wipe up his hair across the entire 6 foot counter. Or how annoying it is when he walks in on the floors I JUST cleaned and drops his dirty work clothes. I do what you do and finally make a list of the things I've done to maybe try and guilt trip into doing something helpful, too.
And yeah, I'm limited to $200....but, it's at least $200 that's not outta MY pocket!!
Now, I've gotta remember to go fill out my STD paperwork. Shit. Does this crap never end?!
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Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!)
Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!)
Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
I ate cherry cheesecake for breakfast this morning.
I know I've been bitching a lot on here about work.. but it's getting bad. I *REALLY* wish I could start my maternity leave early. I underestimated how little patience I would have this close to the end, and how much the general stupidity around here would irritate me. BUT DH wants to do "date night" tonight.. so at least I have something to look forward to. He said he'd surprise me.
FFFC- I'm secretly wishing that part of my surprise will include flowers. He hasn't surprised me with flowers in almost a year (since I took over the finances.. and I really miss it).
You're welcome.
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Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!)
Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!)
Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
I am jealous. Let us know how it goes!
The only surprise I get from H is when I walk in our house and it is still a mess "what a surprise, H didn't clean".
Mom to S-07/22/10 & Q-12/14/11 L-8/23/14
Okay so, this is my first child & I was not supposed to conceive, I am aware a lot of women are told this & they still do but for years my acidity levels were TOO high & for lack of better terminology would destroy sperm before they reached anywhere. Hence why ex fiancé and I could do nothing in two years, yet in three and a half months my love succeeded & we were safe. Told myself if I were meant to be a mother with a good man I would and my hopes were answered.
Anyway, I'm 23 and the H is 29, he is amazing (pool technician, maitenenace supervisor & volunteer fireman), he is very excited for our first child. I am scared even though everything is going smoothly and the H is very supportive, it is just the closer I get to the due date more and more life issues are popping up and it's stressing me the hell out.
I was pulled out of work due to dangers to baby and myself on June 22, and I've been waiting for my EI to kick in, it is late and the woman I spoke to said it should have been processed and I should have received payment already since it has to be manually looked at due to being medical leave of absence from work, but lady that doesn't help me pay the bills!
I've had two visits to the ER within two months once for bleeding (due to being overworked) and once due to a stomach virus that prevented baby and I from being hydrated so we needed an IV. Need I state that I am ridiculously terrified of medical needles, tried therapy nothing helped, only made my anxiety go up, nurse didn't take me seriously. I didn't watch but I haven't had an IV since I was 9 and was out cold for it going in AND out. It hurt like hell, and I thought okay, stop panicking stop crying she will hook up the bag, you'll sit here till it's finished and go home. WRONG.
Damn nurse MISSED and she said "you're going to hate me" prompting me to whimper and cry harder starting a panic attack, "WHY?" She replies "it didn't work" seriously WHY would you tell me that when I am scared of needles, I look and my hand has a large bubble of blood under the skin, she has to push it and make the blood come out through the puncture ( why not just make a small incision so it's easier? Would have hurt less I'm sure)
I had told her my left arm doesn't take needles well, great Canadian health care yeah right, they don't think you know you're own body same as elsewhere.
I am terribly sorry this is long and I do t I tend anyone to actually read all of this I tend to ramble when I rant and I wasn't kidding when I said I only have the H to talk to, and lately he's been working so damn much he rarely calls or texts because he gets home and may or may not eat then promptly passes out. Non intentional and he does do the work of at least six people, and is paid less than the bartender. BS.
I miss him and his calming influence on both baby and myself and my moms bipolar moodswings aren't helping. Yes you just got married, and I'm SORRY my due date is so close after and that I'm such a "bitch" and piss you off so much. I'm sorry that I'm not cleaning your house completely spotless because I don't know where to put your crap and half is dirty stuff and I just you piss ME off. I can't count how many times I've bawled my eyes out from you during my pregnancy, btw my H HATES you for that. You're supposed to be supportive, yeah you have three grandkids already but I'm your preemie born at 26 weeks who you thought you would lose, who is YOUR shoulder to cry on my entire life and who does everything I can to please you. For once when I tell you I'm worried about getting my house ready for baby or paying bills because EI hasn't gone through, or telling you about my anxiety, PLEASE don't tell me you've had enough of everyone's F-ing negativity, of me "whining" and needing to grow up, um..I'm trying. Seriously though tell me ONE MORE time during one of your spastic freak outs to get the F out of your house or to stay the F away from you, and next day say "sugar was low" or "IM stressed out" I swear I will slap you and you will NOT see me or your grandbaby, you can fly to Alberta and put up with my brother and see those two grandkids instead.
Okay, see? I didn't think not having someone to vent to could do this and I'm so sorry, I just...needed it out. I'm so sorry it's long and I'm crying because it's not bottled now oh gosh I need my hubby.
Also, if my DH doesn't start cleaning up after himself - I might strangle him! How hard is it to THROW your trash away instead of just setting it on the counter for ME to throw away? I'm a SAHM, not a fucking maid. I don't mind keeping the housework up, but I HATE cleaning up after him wherever he goes.
(Guess who's on her 'break'? Oh who the heck am I kidding? I can't focus on writing out instructions for something I find boring to begin with!! ARGH!!! And my work shower is in an hour, so I'm trying to decide if I should eat lunch, or wait for cake...and I kinda wanna do both!)
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Proud Mother to 16 year old Austin (MCJROTC Sgt., Trumpet playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Air Force Pilot!)
Proud Stepmother to 12 year old Josh (Baseball playing, Saxophone playing "Band Nerd" and hopeful Doctor!)
Proud Mother to baby Kaylee (Stuffed toy playing, Adorable smiling baby and hopeful Rodeo Princess!)
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In my opinion these are photos you definitely want. I love looking at old pics of DS!