I'm back and come carrying an apology
sunflwra
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Hi ladies-
Sadly, I'm back here again. Our sweet girl was due on Thanksgiving and after having a hard time finding her heartbeat last night and this morning, my doctor confirmed that we'd lost her. I'm 15 weeks along and checking in to the hospital tomorrow for another induction and delivery. Since this is my second 2nd tri loss, we'll be doing chromosomal testing on both my husband and I to see where any underlying issues may be in addition to all of the usual blood tests, etc. I had such fears during this pregnancy but once we got the all clear with the Panorama and were about to start our growth scans, I was finally starting to allow myself to get excited and now this.
My apology start with this. You ladies were so wonderful to me during such a terrible time but once I started TTC, I had a hard time being here. One of the saddest things about this board is that you realize just how often these horrible things happen and as I was trying to look forward, it was really hard to be here and see all of that. So I sincerely apologize for not participating and providing as much support as I could have as we were TTC and when I was PG. I hope you ladies can forgive me and that you don't mind me lurking and chiming in here and there again. I look forward to catching up.
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Re: I'm back and come carrying an apology
Don't ever apologize for not being active here. Though I've only begun TTCAL again, I can appreciate how you'd prefer to focus on positivity.
Married August 20th, 2005 to the love of my life.
1st BFP August 6th, 2010. Missed MC discovered at 13 weeks.
2nd BFP January 5th, 2011. Beautiful Harper born September 28th, 2011.
3rd BFP March 15th, 2013. Treated with methotrexate for ectopic pg at 7 weeks.
4th BFP August 2nd, 2013. Sweet Micah born sleeping at 21 weeks with full T13. 5th BFP July 1st, 2014. Praying for a healthy, full term rainbow!
I am so so sorry for the loss of you sweet baby and that you are going through this again.
I hope you get some answers from testing- but wish that you weren't in this situation to begin with.
Sending so many thoughts of love, comfort and healing to you and the beautiful soul gone too soon.
(Fwiw, I completely relate to your wanting to look forward and not being as present on here. I'm guilty of it as well.)
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
NTNP 2009-2012 TTC since 2012:
Jack has handpicked his sibling up there
My blog about IF and loss ... Kate's IF Blog
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
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You don't owe us an apology. TTCAL and PgAL are hard enough as it is; sometimes, this board can just become too overwhelming. I totally get it (i think most of us do). I am so, so sorry to see you back here, but we are still here for you. Sending lots of love and hugs.
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
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I'm so sorry for your losses. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Don't ever feel bad for not being as active. That is the great thing about this board, when some aren't able to be active, others are and vice versa. At some points in our grief journey we are not able to offer the support to others, but there others who can. And when the others can't, you can.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
TTC since 10/2010
IUIs # 1-5 = BFFN
IVF # 1(July 2012) = BFN
IVF # 2 (November 2012) = BFP (MIssed MC D&C @ 8w3d on 1/10/13)
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38
Married 5/2010
January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks
February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus
February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks
My chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/42fd32