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UPDATE**. Freaking Out... Cue extreme anxiety.

knicolettiknicoletti member
edited April 2014 in October 2014 Moms
Okay, today is the day. I finally have my big OB appointment after graduating from my RE and a bunch of scheduling complications. I'm freaking out. Hard core. I didn't sleep at all last night and am lying in bed going back and forth between dreaming about how amazing this appointment will be and how horrible it could turn out.

I'm so nervous I have lost this baby, too. He has measured small from the beginning, we can't find him with the Doppler and I'm just a worrier.

I haven't gone to the doctor's alone since 2009 ( when the doc pulled me in his office to tell me I would probably never have children) and my husb informed me last night he can't go with me. I starting crying. Balling.
I'm so scared. Please send a little extra positive energy my way.


End pitty party rant.


UPDATE***
Super long day and finally slowing down. My OB apt was at 9:45 and I did not get home until well after 2:00.
I will try and make a very long story short. So, pardon me if I type in fragments.
By the time I get to the doc (thankfully my BF met me) I have already cried 3 times from anxiety. Lots if questions, I explain my emotions/worries and he searches around FOR.EV.ER and cannot find a hb. Rationally, I know it is early but I am not thinking rationally. I start crying. He's does a physical exam and proceeds to explain to me just how retroverted my ute is. He sees how worried I still am and sticks all of his nurses on finding me an u/s tech with openings. Get an apt and drive across town. My hubs is able to meet me. Wait for and hour and a half past apt to see tech. Start the scan and the tech isn't saying a word. I ask and she explains why she can't give me updates...
Woah, this is getting long.
Cut to the chase already!
Blah blah blah my hubs snuck a peek and the babe had a hb of 161 and is only measuring 2 days behind now instead of 5. Arms and legs waving around. So happy.

Thank you for all of your positive thoughts!

Last menstral cycle 9/09 Initial diagnosis PCOS (11/09) Provera (x2), P4 injection. Final Diagnosis POF (2/10) 
Donor ER 8/27/10 -- ET 9/1/10 Beta 9/10/10=BFP! May 6th 2011 - Our sweet little bear was born!
FET #2 July 3, 2014 - BFP!
M/C @ 9 weeks

FET #3 November 8, 2013 - BFN
FET #4 February 12, 2014
POAS (I cheated) BFP!

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