TTC a Rainbow Sibling Check-In BFP WARNING

MoreThanSparrows08 · April 2014

** There is a BFP warning for this check-in **
Welcome to the TTC a Rainbow Sibling check-in. This check-in is a for TTCAL-ers with living children to talk about the issues about TTCAL while you have a living child. Living children and pictures of living children are welcome here, however if your pictured child is an infant (< a year old), please do place a warning at the beginning of your post to alert ladies who are having a hard day. You do not have to be active on the PAL board in order to be a member of this check-in, however, if you plan on posting on the main board please post an intro there.

All are welcome to join us! Please give us an intro with the following information if you wish: name(s)/age(s) of your child(ren), EDD(s) and where you are in your TTC journey.

If you get a BFP please send rmpar29 and morethansparrows08 a private PM so we can add you to our graduates list.No special hugs this week:

Current Member List:
almostamissus - Kennedy: 8, EDDs: 7/19/2014, 8/28/2014
anglndsguse44 - Connor : 2, EDD: 9/3/14
anitaflora - DS: 4, EDDs: ?
bootsorhearts - Isaac: 3 months, EDDs: 10/6/12, 10/29/13
dpalczer - Ryker : 5, EDD: 9/5/2014
ellebelle2384 - Sophia: 2, EDDs: 10/21/11, 10/13/14
Frenchteachermama - DD1: 5.5, DD2: almost 3, EDD: 3/30/2014
graceanne927 - Harper: 2
karebear57 - DD1: 13, DD2: 11, DD3: 10, EDD: ?
kj808 - DS (J) : 6, DD (K) : 3, EDDs: 6/24/2010, 9/17/2013, 10/21/2013, 8/25/2014
KJsbabe - Lexi: 20 months, EDDs: 1/27/11, 7/7/11
mara005 - Fynn: 4, EDDs: 11/4/2013, 8/27/2014
mikeANDjen448 - Emma: 10M, EDDs: ?
Missa_g - Twin boys: 2, EDDs: 9/10/2011, 8/8/2014
Mom2anAngel2 - Liam: 1, EDD: ?
morethansparrows08 - Micah: 7, Elijah: 5, EDD: 8/3/14
mrsjessicamitchell - Ben: 1, EDD: ?
Neary2011 - Kendall Rose: 15M, EDDs: 4/18/2014, 9/18/2014
Noeliav - Amelia: 15M, EDD: 8/23/2014
pinksandbermuda - DD: 2, EDD: ?
PittPurple - DD: 16M, EDDs: 4/16/2012, 12/19/2012
polevaultRN - Timothy: 2, EDD: 10/1/2014
rmpar29 - Dawson and Devin: 2.5, EDD: 6/26/2013
sergeantb44 - Noah : 11, Owen : 9, Natalie : 7, EDD: 8/4/2014
Shell041783 - Delany: 15 months, EDD: ?
stephy1221 - DD:3, EDD: 10/6/2014
srcr2011 - Caleb: 3, EDDs: 11/21/2010, 5/2/2014, 6/11/2014
sunnydaysarehere - DD: 2.5, EDDs: 7/16/2013, 1/25/2014, 6/19/2014 and 10/18/2014
TMaggie0424 - DD: 1, EDD: 4/26/2010
trizzie - Hudson: 5; Harper: 3, EDDs:9/1/2010, 11/28/2013, 1/28/2014, 8/16/2014

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Congratulations to @SharkFarts & @fallfeveron their BFPs. To congratulate them, please check PgAL or send a private PM.

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@anglndsguse44 - Did AF show up? How are you feeling?
@bootsorhearts - Any sign of AF yet? How are you doing on food and exercise?
@ellebelle2384 - How are you doing this week?
@Frenchteachermama - How are you feeling? Any testing plans? Have a good time in LA!
@graceanne927 - Any sign of O yet? Did you decided to pick up a BBT or OPK?
@kj808 - How are you doing? I see a couple BFNs,

but they're a little early... any plans to test again?
@KJsbabe - Were you able to speak to your doc about the bloodword? Any sign of O?
@Missa_g - How are you this week? Is this cycle going better than the last one?
@Mom2anAngel2 - Were you able to confirm O last week? Any testing plans?
@mrsjessicamitchell - How are you doing? Is the clot in your leg shrinking with the aspirin and hot compress? How are you and DH doing? Those deep discussions are so hard emotionally, but they're well worth it in the end. Many ((hugs)) for you.
@Neary2011 - How are you this week? Were you and DH able to talk about your relationship?
@Noeliav - Your chart is looking pretty good! Any testing plans?
@pinksandbermuda - Were you able to confirm? Any plans to test?
@PittPurple - How are you feeling this week? Did you have a good time with your mom?
@polevaultRN - Glad to hear you finally got AF again. How are you doing?
@rmpar29 - How are you doing this week?
@sergeantb44 - Do you think you've O'd yet? How are you feeling?
@Shell041783 - How are you feeling about the dotted CH's?
@stephy1221 - How are you feeling this week? How did you appointment go?
@sunnydaysarehere - How are you feeling? Did you get a new BBT?
@TMaggie0424 - Have you heard back from the ENT? How are you this week?
@srcr2011, @trizziw, @almostamissus, @anitaflora, @dpalczer, @karebear57, @mara005, @mikeANDjen448 - we missed you ladies last week and would love to hear how you are.

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QOTW: Do you have any Easter traditions? Anything you did as a child that you carried over to your children?

MoreThanSparrows08 · April 2014

I was given solid crosshairs this morning - yay! Our timing was "good", so I'm staying positive for this cycle. I think I've finally decided on the font for my memorial tattoo; now I just need to find the time to get it done.

I have a question, though. My boys are 7 and 5, and I haven't told them about our loss, but the tattoo I want is going to be in a location where they will be able to see it, and as curious as they are, I know they'll ask about it. I'm unsure how to handle this. I don't know that they're old enough to comprehend the loss, so I'm unsure what to tell them. I'm not worried about talking to grown-ups about it if/when they ask; I just don't know what to say to the boys.

QOTW: We do a lot of egg hunting - first my family out in the country, then DH's family by the river, followed by an early dinner and a lot of hanging out. We always make sure we tell the boys about the reason for Easter. My mom's birthday falls on the Saturday before Easter this year, so we'll be doing her birthday along with Easter stuff on Sunday.

Mom2anAngel2 · April 2014

Update on me-- I was not able to confirm O last week, but I do believe that I did based on mid-LP labs. My progesterone was a 15.8 which is very high for me. I struggle to get my progesterone to a 15 throughout the entire first trimester. This is why u usually ended up on progesterone suppositories until I was 36 weeks pregnant with DS. I hope it is a sign that my body is doing something right!

QOTW-- The only tradition we have is having an Easter egg hunt after church. This year we will be at my parents. My mom has plastic Easter eggs that are the size of basketballs (no exaggeration) that she hides for the little ones, and normal ones that she hides for the older kids. Hopefully all of the snow will be gone so that the hunt can be outdoors.

Mom2anAngel2 · April 2014

@MoreThanSparrows08‌ -- Yay for crosshairs and good timing! Hopefully this is your month. As for the tattoo,I think it is okay to keep it simple. We plan on talking with DS when he is old enough to ask questions. I don't have a tattoo, but we visit the cemetery every week after church. We plan on telling him that he had a brother that went to heaven. As for our second loss, we will only have a stone under the tree that we planted in memory of our first DS, so I don't think he would ask questions until he is much older.

Frenchteachermama · April 2014

Morning Ladies!

@MoreThanSparrows08 Yay for CHs!! I think I might make up a story about the tatoo until they are a little older, but that's just what I would do.

@Mom2AnAngel2 That's great news about your progesterone!!

AFM: I tested out my trigger at 7dpo, I'm 9dpo today. I decided to bring a hpt to LA with me because at Passover seders you are "supposed" to drink a lot of wine and I will be 14dpo at the seder. I decided to test the day before on Sunday. We're going to Disneyland that day and I have the girls signed up for the "bippity boppity boutique" AND lunch with the princesses and seeing my 6 and 3 year old go crazy over seeing their favorite princesses will probably ease the pain of the BFN! The hard part is going to be my SIL is just 6 weeks pregnant and DH's 7month pregnant cousin will be at the seder too...I'm going to need the wine!

QOTW: We celebrate both Passover and Easter....since my girls are technically Jewish we just have a big egg hunt and eat a ton of chocolate!

Missa_g · April 2014

Hi everyone! Today is CD 9 and I'm still lightly bleeding so I think it's safe to say this will be another screwy cycle. I started OPKs yesterday and it was practically stark white negative.

QOTW: Just Easter egg hunts. I'm excited for it this year!

@MoreThanSparrows08‌ That's a tough question. I think at 5 and 7 you could simply tell them it's for loved ones you have lost if you don't want to go into detail with them. If they question further you will have to decide how much you want them to know. I have decided to talk about our losses with our boys, but it's obviously a very personal choice. I hope you can figure out something that makes you comfortable while still satisfying their curiosity.

rmpar29 · April 2014

Hey ladies! Thanks @morethansparrows08 for the check-in this week. YAY for CHs and I'm glad you had good timing. FX for you!!! I agree that it's a little young for them to understand about your loss. What are you planning on getting?

@rmpar29 - How are you doing this week?

This has been a whirlwind week! I went in for baseline testing last Friday and started meds. Went to my monitoring appointment on Monday and already had 4 measurable follies on the right. Went back yesterday and two are almost mature. Did my trigger last night and IUI this morning. My E2 levels were MUCH better this month, so Gonal-F + Menopur is what works for me. DH's SA was awesome, so now we wait. Just crazy how much happened in a week! I'm feeling incredibly optimistic, more than I should, but what can you do?

QOTW - My mom used to hide our Easter baskets and then we got clues in Easter eggs to help us find them. I think we might start with just a couple steps this year with the boys, but we will see.

@Mom2AnAngel2 - YAY for good progesterone levels! I hope that your TWW goes quickly!
@Frenchteachermama - I'm glad that you are taking a HPT with you and I hope that you are pleasantly surprised. Have an awesome time and I hope that you have a reason not to drink at the seder.
@Missa_g - I'm sorry that the signs are pointing to another wonky cycle. I hope your body gets it's act together soon!

Frenchteachermama · April 2014

@Melissa_g I'm sorry your cycle is wonky!!

@rmpar29 Yay for being optimistic! I hope this one is the cycle that works for you!! I hope I have a reason not to drink too...

MJM3108 · April 2014

@MoreThanSparrows08- Yay for crosshairs!

@Mom2AnAngel2- Great news about your Prosgesterone!

@Frenchteachermama- I will keep my FX for you, but no matter what, I hope you have a blast at Disney with your girls!

@Missa_g- ((((Hugs)))) to you, my dear. Funky cycles really suck!

@mrsjessicamitchell - How are you doing? Is the clot in your leg shrinking with the aspirin and hot compress? How are you and DH doing? Those deep discussions are so hard emotionally, but they're well worth it in the end. Many ((hugs)) for you.

I followed up with my dr yesterday and got good news- the clot is gone! YAY! Who knew aspirin and hot compresses could do so much so fast? Apparently it was a tiny clot, so I guess not that much to break up....

DH and I are doing alright. We are talking and working through stuff, but he still hasn't gotten himself back in therapy, which has me super annoyed. He has till Tuesday to call someone and make an appt and if he doesn't I'm doing it for him.

I'm CD10 today, and still not temping, but I am checking CM and will be using OPKs in the next few days. My replacement batteries did nothing for my BBT (it's like 5 or 6 years old) so I am going to get a new one before the end of this cycle. Technically, we're NTNP this cycle, but we'd actually have to be having sex in order to be doing anything so there's that..... 8-|

QOTW- We don't have any real traditions other than church. I will be singing at our church's Good Friday service and on Easter Sunday, so we'll definitely be at church. We'll do a family dinner that afternoon, either at our house, or my dad's. This Saturday, we are taking B to the Easter Egg hunt at our church, and I'd like to try and get pics of him w/ the Easter Bunny at some point.

MoreThanSparrows08 · April 2014

@Mom2anAngel2 I'm glad your progesterone is up! FX for you!!!

@Frenchteachermama I've got my FX for you, too! Have fun with your girls!

@Missa_g Sorry about your wonky cycles

Hopefully they'll regulate soon!

@rmpar29 Wow, you've been very busy!!! I'm so glad the new meds are doing their job! FX for you!!

@shell041783 I have to agree with you - the temp shift is pretty convincing. I don't have any advice on the OPK front, but I'm saying optimistic and crossing my fingers for you!

rmpar29 · April 2014

@shell041783 - Yes, FF will not give you solid CH's if don't get a +OPK or any other O indicators. I agree that if you were only temping once a day (especially if it was FMU). I think FF got your O date right.

@mrsjessicamitchell - I'm glad to hear that things are a bit easier for you, and that your clot is gone! I'm sorry that thus far DH hasn't made a therapy appointment. I hope that he does that soon so you can move on. Good luck finding a new BBT.

Thanks for the luck ladies! I hope that we get great news in 2 weeks.

Mom2anAngel2 · April 2014

@Frenchteachermama‌ - Sorry you have to deal with all of the extra stresses. It sounds like you will be having a lot of fun with your girls though. I too think I am going to test on Saturday. I hate testing early, but I want to know that I am free to enjoy myself at a wedding that night. A few drinks definitely helps.

@Missa_g‌ - I am so sorry that this is looking like another screwy cycle. I really hope you cycles starts getting their act together for you!

@rmpar29‌ - that is definitely a whirlwind of a week. Sending many good vibes your way that you IUI is successful.

@shell041783‌ - YAY for good timing. I also believe that I missed my surge this month. It makes me so frustrated because I then start thinking about "what if I didn't O." Ugh! I hope your timing was dead on!

@mrsjessicamitchell‌ - I am glad to hear the clot is gone, that is so scary! I continue to pray for you and your H. I hope he makes the right decision and calls a counselor.

srcr2011 · April 2014

Good morning. Sorry I missed last week. Nothing new to add my my TTC/TTA journey. I did have a breakdown last night while in the car with my son and DH. I turn 30 on Sunday. While we were driving home, I was just thinking that my 20s are almost over. What have I accomplished?? The 2 things I am most grateful for are DS and DH (and of course my family, but you know what I mean). I would never change that, but I also felt like I haven't 'started' my life yet. I always imagined I would have 2 kids by 30 (maybe 3) and having a job I love and all I have are 1 living child and 3 losses and a job I HATE. I don't want my losses to overpower the joy I have with DS and DH. They are everything to me, but I guess I was looking at the glass half empty last night. DH saw me crying and I told him I'm going to be 30!?!? He looked at me and said "please don't freak out about it". It's not the age, I feel good, I (think) I look great. I just feel like a big ol loser or failure. My kids are going to be about 4 years apart (if I do get pregnant soon) and that's a big gap for me. It's just not what I imagined. **I need to stop this rant now, because I feel myself going "there" and my eyes are starting to get teary**

On a better(?) note, my mom called me this AM and told me there is a job opening up. It's 4/10s with every Friday off. 6:30ish-5 and a lab tech. They want someone external, someone with an Associate's degree, someone with experience...and I fit all the qualifications, except I'm a nurse. I worked in a lab drawing blood and started several IVs for the nurses that couldn't (bad, I know) while in nursing school. As a nurse, I always did my own pt's drawns. I was the one they called when no one else could get the vein. Only thing, is now I'm a nurse. I don't know if they want a nurse as a lab tech. I would also make much more money than I do now (as a school nurse).

I think I need to start a blog, sorry this was long...

@morethansparrows08 Yay for the cross hairs! That's good news! What is your tattoo design/phrase, if you don't mind me asking.

@frenchteachermama I have been thinking about you! I have my FX that this is your month!! I also hope you have a reason not to drink at the seder. It sounds like you will have a wonderful time is Disneyland. I'm excited for your little girls!

@rmpar29 I'm glad you are optimistic! I hope it all works out for you!!!

@Mom2AnAngel2 I hope the ttw goes by fast!!!!

QOTD: Get an Easter outfit! With pretty new Easter dress and a hat! I already got DS his Easter suit. Now that he is older, I also want to get him a huge stuffed Easter bunny, put it outside on the steps and have him open the front door after the knock. (My parents did this for my sister and I, it's a small idea, but I remember it like it was yesterday.)

MoreThanSparrows08 · April 2014

@mrsjessicamitchell ((hugs)) Hopefully DH calls a counselor today. So glad the clot is gone!

@srcr2011 I'm sorry you had a rough evening yesterday. I know what you mean about not wanting your kids spaced so far apart. At this point, my boys will be 8 and 6 years older than our next baby (if we get PG in the next 4 months or so). I never wanted my kids to be that far apart, and it breaks my heart, but I have to force myself to look at the positives - they will be much better helpers, and will be able to remember their sibling as an infant. Also, since DH was the oldest of 4, 7 years older than his first sibling, it made him a really great dad right from the get-go, so I'm hoping the same will be true for our boys. ((hugs))

For all those asking about my tattoo, it's going to be 2 small stars and the words "Tu me manques" which is French for You are missing from me. It's going on my collarbone. Once I get it, I'll share photos

Frenchteachermama · April 2014

@srcr2011 First I'm sending you a million ((hugs)). Second, I think you've found yourself back in the funk you talked about a while back before we were on PAL. Remember when we all discussed being in our dark periods rather than in the light? I've been there many times on this journey and relied upon my friends and TB ladies who helped me go back to the light. I think you have every right to be upset and looking at the glass as half empty, but I think it would make you feel better to go back to the light and start looking things as the glass half full....My mother has always given me the best advice and that is to try to change small things that you know you can change to try to make your life easier/happier.

Hating your job makes things absolutely unbearable and I say definitely look into switching if you can. Even though my sister is crazy, she is a HS nurse and hates her job too. And the pay is horrible...but benefits are great. If your job makes you that miserable I would look into switching!!

You are not a loser, everyone gets down in the dumps but it never feels good to stay there for long!! I'm NOT going to say things like, "at least you have one child, you have a nice husband..." because you know that already. You want your rainbow. You want to be happy.

I didn't love the book but I liked parts of it, it's called "The Happiness Project". She brought up some really good ideas about how to make an already pretty happy life happier.

I'm here to talk more if you want!!!!

srcr2011 · April 2014

Frenchteachermama said:

@srcr2011 First I'm sending you a million ((hugs)). Second, I think you've found yourself back in the funk you talked about a while back before we were on PAL. Remember when we all discussed being in our dark periods rather than in the light? I've been there many times on this journey and relied upon my friends and TB ladies who helped me go back to the light. I think you have every right to be upset and looking at the glass as half empty, but I think it would make you feel better to go back to the light and start looking things as the glass half full....My mother has always given me the best advice and that is to try to change small things that you know you can change to try to make your life easier/happier.

Hating your job makes things absolutely unbearable and I say definitely look into switching if you can. Even though my sister is crazy, she is a HS nurse and hates her job too. And the pay is horrible...but benefits are great. If your job makes you that miserable I would look into switching!!

You are not a loser, everyone gets down in the dumps but it never feels good to stay there for long!! I'm NOT going to say things like, "at least you have one child, you have a nice husband..." because you know that already. You want your rainbow. You want to be happy.

I didn't love the book but I liked parts of it, it's called "The Happiness Project". She brought up some really good ideas about how to make an already pretty happy life happier.

I'm here to talk more if you want!!!!

Than you for you kind words! You are one of the sweetest girls here!!!! You're so right! I need to look and think positive. I need to get a hold of this funk before I drags me further down. Thank you so much! Love ya!

KJsbabe · April 2014

Hi ladies! I had an u/s to check my follies on Tuesday (cd14). I had two on the left measuring 12.8 and 13.9, and one on the right measuring 12.9. I had another u/s today (cd16) and the ones on the left have stayed the same, but the one on the right has gown to 15. I'm projected to O Sunday/Monday (cd19/20).... Which is when I thought I would anyway. So, it's nice to have conformation that I do halfway know what's going on with my body and that my chart doesn't lie

We're supposed to DTD Saturday and Sunday. DH's SA is tomorrow, or else we'd porbably be doing it then, too. Then, I have b/w on the 21st (cd27, 7dpo) to check progesterone. If AF shows, I'm supposed to call to schedule my SIS. QOTW: As a kid I always looked forward to the Easter egg hunt at my grandma's. Last year DD was to little to do one, but this year I'm really excited to set one up for her. I think she's going to love it!

graceanne927 · April 2014

Hi Ladies! Happy "almost" weekend

@MoreThanSparrows08 ‌Well .... I have not started temping or the OPK's but basing on this week's CM I feel my body is def back on track. We've been doing EOD sex since CD10 and currently on on CD16-and I'm just staying positive that the O has happened. If I get a BFN this cycle I will def. do the OPK & temping for the next one. Doing my best just to stay hopeful.

@kj808 - Wishing you lots of good luck this cycle! Your lo is a few months younger than my dd

It's such a fun age

@srcr2011 It's ok to have a pity party sometimes. The key is to not wallow in that for too long. If you don't like something - you are smart enough and resourceful enough to change it! If you don't like your job; start looking for a new one! Let what makes you unhappy motivate you to make changes where you can. Also, don't forget to look at EVERYTHING you do have and have been blessed with. 30 is so young; you are at a great age. Take everything that you've learned well in your 20's and move confidently into your 30's knowing you're a stronger & more capable person. Here's hoping you have a better week ahead & that you have fun turning the 3-0!!

@mrsjessicamitchell - So glad to hear the clot is gone! I will be praying for you & your DH...hope he follows through w/ therapy and that it will help to bring you both closer to each other. Hugs!

@MoreThanSparrows08 - I'm not sure what cross hairs mean but I get from your post it's a good thing - so hoping this is the cycle for you to get that bfp!!! I've been toying w the idea of a tattoo also. I don't have any but my dh has 4 and wants to get more. I would contemplate a small one that had a significant meaning to me, after my loss, it's been crossing my mind even more. I think I would do birds in flight and the number of birds to reflect the # of children that I have including my loss. So I prob would wait for my rainbow baby and then do it. To answer your question though, I think I would wait until your boys are older to fully grasp the meaning behind the tattoo. I know at that age they'll be full of questions so be prepared to tell them something...maybe something that doesn't make it a complete lie. What it represents to you w/o going in detail too much.

QOTW: We're doing 3 different egg hunts w/ DD this year...last year she loved playing w/ the pastel eggs but this year she'll def be more into the game of it. I'm really looking forward to it. Our family tradition of Easter is attending church ( which is my favorite church service for the whole year) and having a yummy home made supper at home...probably roasted chicken + mashed potatoes + corn + salad + corn bread and a fruity trifle of some sort. YUM! We are getting DD her first toddler bike as her Easter gift this year so we'll probably spend time letting her ride that esp if it's a pretty day - which I hope it will be!

@Frenchteachermama Have a great time at Disney! We took DD last year and of course she was just over 1 so it was fun for us to kind have her at the places we wanted her to experience. We'll prob go again when she's 4 and I know at that age she'll be dictating to us where & what to do - but it's such a fun time for the whole family. Have loads of fun! I'll be praying that you'll have to skip the wine this trip also!

@rmpar29 - I'm feeling optimistic for you also!!! Looking good!

@Mom2anAngel2 - hope you get that bfp this cycle!

Have a great weekend girls! xoxo

Neary2011 · April 2014

@MoreThanSparrows08‌, how are you doing, I hope that you are doing well, I am feeling pretty low this week, just tired of waiting. My Husband and I talked but I feel as though we didn't get anywhere, we take one step forward and then 5 steps back, it sucks. We still haven't been romantically involved yet and we got the all clear from my OB March 18th, I am almost feel like he doesn't want to be anymore with me, at least not until we can try again in May and that is realllllly killing me.

QOTW: Do you have any Easter traditions? When I was a child we colored eggs every year to eat with Easter Dinner. Last Easter was K's first time coloring eggs and we will be doing that again this year.

KJsbabe · April 2014

@MoreThanSparrows08‌ Yay for solid CH and good timing! @Mom2anAngel2‌ Yay for high progesterone! FX for you! @Frenchteachermama‌ Disneyland sounds like it will be so much fun! Totes jealous! @Missa_g‌ I hope this cycle goes better for you. I start my OPKs on cd13ish and they're always super white that early, too. @shell041783 Sorry about the dotted CH. I agree, it does look like you O. FX for a long LP! @mrsjessicamitchell That's great news that your clot is gone! @rmpar29 Sounds like everything is going great! I hope everything continues to fall in place for you. @srcr2011 ((Big Hugs)) I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. I think if the job opening is something your interested in, you should go for it. I mean the worst they can tell you is no. @graceanne927 That Easter dinner sounds sooo good! I'm suddenly super hungry now

We were thinking of getting DD a tricycle for Easter.

Mom2anAngel2 · April 2014

@srcr2011 -- big ((HUGS)) I am sorry that you are struggling. I too feel that my life is not what I imagined. I try to focus on the positive, but sometimes you just can't keep your mind from wondering.

@KJsbabe - Good luck this weekend! It is so nice to see that all of the "work" we do to track our cycles actually works, isn't it.

@graceanne927 - Glad to hear that your body is getting back on track! The EOD plan sounds great. hopefully this will work for you.

@Neary2011 - ((HUGS)) I am sorry that you are struggling. We all go through lows. You are definitely not alone.

ellebelle2384 · April 2014

I'm on CD7 and still bleeding (@Missa_g we can go drink some wine together

). Timing might not be great this cycle with ILs staying with us but we will try to do what we can next week. I've been in a very negative place lately but I am trying to make myself look at the blessings in my life, rather than focus on the dark parts.

QOTW: We always celebrate Easter with my family so we'll go out to their house next weekend. We do waffles before church and find Easter baskets and then after church come home and have a big ham lunch and my mom's sister's family will come over. Pretty much the same thing every Easter for the last 20 years. It's so comforting!

kj808 · April 2014

Hi lovelies! Hope everyone had a great day. Almost the weekend! Yay!!

@kj808 - How are you doing? I see a couple BFNs, but they're a little early... any plans to test again?

I'm happy about my chart. I feel like we did all that we could do. And yes the BFNs are a bummer definitely. I plan not to test again until at least Saturday as long as AF doesn't show. There's a bunch of crazy things going on with my body, having a ton of symptoms, but the BFNs throw me off. Hopefully it really is just too early to tell. The wait is killing me though!

QOTW: We have an Easter party at our church, and we do Easter baskets for the kids delivered by the Easter bunny. This year we might do our own little egg hunt at home. My parents did that for me growing up and it was always fun.

MJM3108 · April 2014

Thanks, ladies! I am really glad it's gone, too. I really broke down with DH last night and told him how disappointed I am that he hasn't done anything to get back into therapy yet, and I finally had the courage to tell him I'm not happy. Not happy in our marriage, and basically not happy in general. It was harder than I thought it would be to say those words. (I generally don't have any problems telling him/ people in general how I feel.) I am going to get myself into therapy, too, because I know I need it. He promised me he would call and make an appt Monday. We'll see if that happens or not....

srcr2011 · April 2014

I wanted to give you ladies big (((HUGS))). Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on and let me vent. I'm so glad I have you all. Thank you so much for your kind words and for validating my feelings. I feeling better and the light bulb turned on...Last night was CD1 (that explains a lot).

Ever since the D&C in Nov, my periods have not been the same. They are regular (give or take a day or 2) but I can't predict when it will start the way I have for the last 17 years. I was expecting AF to arrived the 12th or 13th and MUCH to my surprise, she showed up unannounced yesterday evening! Go figure.

Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart!!! I feel much better today.

KJsbabe · April 2014

@Neary2011‌ ((hugs)) I hope things get better between you and your H.

@ellebelle2384‌ I hope you're able to work around the ILs next week. ((Hugs))

@kj808‌ Sorry about the BFNs. I hope your symptoms are a good sign for things to come

@TMaggie0424‌ I hope the biopsy goes well and comes back clean. Sorry about the long cycle. I hope this one is normal.

NoeliaV · April 2014

:: waves ::

Hello, all!

Apologies for being late. I was away from the computer all day yesterday. It's the busy time at work, so fun time is super-limited. :P

I'm trying to pretend my chart doesn't exist, but at the same time, trying to convince DH that I can test early, lol. With DD, I didn't test until 14dpo, and with our m/c cycle, I didn't test until he convinced me that I was for-sure-without-a-doubt late. This one, though, I just want to know one way or another as soon as humanly possible.

QOTW:

We'll do my family tradition of the Easter baskets being hidden by the Easter bunny. I don't think DH's family did much, other than escape to the beach for Easter weekend.

longcat07 · April 2014

hi everyone. once this loss resolves my partner and i plan to jump right back into TTC again. i'm not sure i can do personals just yet since i'm so new, but i'll do my best going forward. i have one child who i'll call "rabbie" here (it IS one of his nicknames, after all), and his 4th birthday was a couple weeks ago. my angel baby's EDD was 12/7/2014. we've been TTC #2 since the new year, so it's still early on.

as for easter, we usually do an egg hunt at home, and easter baskets. DS's basket is usually small toys, books, maybe some summer items like sunglasses or sandals, and a sucker or two, with all the other candy hidden in the easter eggs. the easter bunny realizes that my partner and i let DS find all his eggs though, and kindly leaves some high-quality chocolate items in our basket.

mara005 · April 2014

Hello, sorry I've been MIA. I left last Thursday for a conference in Tampa, FL.

AFM: I'm on CD4 and still crying about AF's arrival (no 2014 baby here). I don't know how much longer I want to TTC before I give up, accept DS may be an only child and just NTNP. I have always said I would do anything to have another, but I'm just so down. I keep thinking about how my last pregnancy could have been a perfectly healthy baby but it was just in the Fing wrong spot! It's not fair.

Sorry I'm a downer.

QOTW: We don't do much for Easter, maybe if we had family around we might, but we don't so we keep it low key. DS has said he doesn't want to see the Easter Bunny, blah.

NoeliaV · April 2014

@mara005

I'm sorry about CD4. I'm sure I'll be in a similar place if this cycle isn't successful re: the 2014 baby

>:D<

stephy1221 · April 2014

morethansparrows08 thanks for the check in. My week was good. The appointment went well. The pathology report didn't hold much info but that was what I expected. Physically all looks good and my period started today so it feels like there is a certain finality now.

I hope this is your cycle! i haven't any advice on how to talk to the kids about loss. I suspected things weren't right before it was confirmed so I never told DD about this pregnancy.

@mrsjessicamitchell‌ I hope DH makes the call and that things get better.

TMaggie0424 Hoping for good results for you and Yay! to Cabo

srcr2011 I am sorry 30 is bringing up such strong emotions. Hope it gets better soon.

QOTW: We decorate eggs, do an indoor easter egg hunt that leads to the easter basket. My Dad always hid the baskets really well so as she gets older we will do the same but right now we keep it pretty obvious.

srcr2011 · April 2014

@mara005 Oh, I'm sorry about CD4. (((HUGS))) to you. I know how sucky that feeling is!

ellebelle2384 · April 2014

@mara005 - Lots of hugs! I hate that feeling. I was so down when AF showed up last week since it meant no 2014 baby for us as well so I totally understand. Sending lots of love your way!

kj808 · April 2014

@mara005 @ellebelle2384 Hugs girls! I'm now on CD1

Yep, AF decided to show after my very promising chart and boatload of symptoms. I'm also disappointed that I won't have a 2014 baby. FX that we are blessed with new year babies!

kj808 · April 2014

Sorry I didn't get to everyone yesterday! I'm pretty bummed today because AF decided to rear her incredibly ugly head. On to the next cycle I guess.

@morethansparrows08 yay for CHs! Hop this is your cycle. If you ever want to PIP your tattoo, I wanna see! I want to get a memorial tattoo too.

@mom2anangel2 yay for a good progesterone #, FX you O'd this cycle!

@frenchteachermama GL with testing and i'm so jealous you're going to Disneyland! We absolutely love that place! The last time we went there was exactly a year ago today and we're definitely ready to go back.

@missa_g Screwy cycles suck, i'm sorry ((hugs))

@rmpar29 Sounds promising! GL!!

@shell041783 temp shift is really good! FX for you this cycle!

@mrsjessicamitchell Glad your clot is gone. Hope your DH makes it to an appt, you don't need any added stress!

@srcr2011 ((hugs)) sweetie. We all have times like those. I know what you mean about the age gap. I never imagined having such a big gap between any of my kids.

@KJsbabe It really is nice when our charts help clear things up for us, isn't it? GL this weekend!

@graceanne927 Sounds like you have a good plan. GL this cycle!

@Neary2011 I'm so sorry you're not making progress with your husband. So many ((hugs)) for you.

@ellebelle2384 ((hugs)) GL this cycle.

@TMaggie0424 GL with your biopsy. I hope it turns out to be nothing!

@NoeliaV I know what you mean about wanting to know ASAP. Your chart looks promising though!

@longcat07 Welcome to the checkin. These ladies are wonderful!

@stephy1221 Glad your appointment went well!

KJsbabe · April 2014

@NoeliaV‌ I have to say your chart looks pretty good! GL holding out to test, you have more will power that I do! @kj808 Sorry about cd1

@mara005‌ ((hugs)) I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. @stephy1221 Sorry you didn't get a very definitive answer. I'm glad you're able to move on to a fresh cycle. @longcat07‌ Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss.

BootsOrHearts · April 2014

Hello ladies! I am a terrible bumpie, I'm behind on sooo many posts this week and I haven't even got a BPF pic out yet!?

No AF yet, just chillin' this week. Wanted to try some sexy time again but now DH has a back cold so there's none of that!

Good luck to everyone in the 2ww this week! I enjoy reading all your updates and I have my fingers crossed for you!

sergeantb44 · April 2014

Hi Ladies!!

I am working nights tonight so I saved responding until now so I would have something positive to do.

It sounds like this month may have many positive vibes for many of us. My body decided to wait until I cam home from being away for the Army. I got CH this am putting me at 4DPO since it is officially Saturday.

I feel like we had pretty good timing with O-2, O-1, and O..We will see though I am feeling crazy optomistic as well as many of the other ladies.

I am sorry I do not remember each of your names but here goes-

I love the idea of the tatoo in another language.. We did not tell the kids either specifically because of Natalie who is 7. There was just not going to be an easy way to explain it.

@srcr2011 What state are you a nurse in? I am also a nurse and for those experienced there are still many positions available out there. I needed to have a pity party last week, sometimes it happens. I also just turned 30 on the 10th and very much feel you pain. I have no biological children and often times my SO just does not understand. Keep your head up and take it one day at a time.

Fingers crossed for all you ladies in waiting, positive thoughts going your way. Have a great weekend.

QOTW: We will be going to church with SOs family (after I work Night Shift) and then coloring eggs. We always hid Easter Baskets at my house growing up. I may try and leave work a bit early so I can hide theirs.

rmpar29 · April 2014

Hey ladies! Sorry that I've been MIA. My lil Devin got sick at daycare on Thurs, so I had to leave work early (after getting in late) to get the boys. He was fine all afternoon, so it must've just been a quick bug. Then Friday, my daycare lady was sick, so I had three days with my boys. It was wonderful but I really didn't want to come back to work today! At least it's only 4 days and then I get another 3-day weekend...YAY!

@srcr2011 - I remember going through a similar breakdown when I turned 30. Don't be so hard on yourself and remember that it is just a number. Good luck with the job and I'm sure they'd prefer to have someone over-qualified than under-qualified! Huge ((((HUGS))) and Happy Belated Birthday!

@KJsbabe - I'm glad that your body is being cooperative. How was DH's SA?

@graceanne927 - FX for you!

@Neary2011 - Have you expressed those concerns to your DH? DH's are weird and are usually thinking something totally different than we think they are. Maybe some joint counseling to get out those emotions would help? Huge (((((HUGS))))) lady!

@ellebelle2384 - I'm sorry that you are struggling. It's always good to focus on the positive things and count your blessings. Hold your lil girl extra tight and give her tons of kisses. That usually helps my mood a bit. I hope that you start feeling more optimistic soon!

@kj808 - I'm sorry to see that AF showed up. Any new plan for this cycle?

@TMaggie0424 - I'm so sorry about the node on your neck. I hope that you get some results soon! Cabo...I'm jealous! I hope that DH goes along with your plan!

@mrsjessicamitchell - I'm so sorry that DH is not being proactive but I hope that your honesty helps to get him into counseling. I agree that counseling might help you as well and I hope that you are able to get in soon. Many (((((HUGS))))) lady!

@NoeliaV - I'm sorry to see that temp drop. I hope that it goes back up tomorrow. I know what you mean about struggling not to test early. I'm counting down the days this cycle!

@longcat07 - Welcome to the check-in! I'm sorry for your loss, but I hope that you will be cleared to TTC soon!

@mara005 - Oh honey, I'm so sorry that you are struggling. I forget, are you working with an RE? Maybe it's time to? I know what you mean about giving up TTC. DH and I had that same discussion last weekend and I think this will be our last medicated cycle. I'm in the same boat so feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk or vent. Much love!

@stephy1221 - Are you cleared to TTC? I'm glad that the Pathology report was normal.

@BootsorHearts - I hope DH is feeling better soon!

@sergeantb44 - I'm so glad that your body cooperated and it sounds like you had excellent timing. FX!

Frenchteachermama · April 2014

Morning ladies! Just wanted to update you all that AF arrived unexpectedly yesterday

. I'm feeling ok. My anxiety is always so high at the end of the 2WW that getting my period was at least a relief from that. My last cycle was just so completely strange (53 days, 2 Os and 22 days of progesterone suppositories! I'm ready to move forward and try the IUI next cycle. We don't get back until CD 5 so hopefully that won't be too late to start the meds.

Here is a picture of my girls meeting Ariel at the lunch with the princesses. I actually teared up a little....

NoeliaV · April 2014

Good morning, everyone.

Yes, @rmpar29. A big, fat temp drop. I know that it's not over until AF shows, but it's hard to feel optimistic with that. :-w DH and I agreed to test tomorrow if no AF.

I'm sorry your boy was sick, but glad he's better. My DD was sick nearly all of last week. DH and I were splitting workdays to care for her, since it's my busy time and he has an OOT work trip coming up shortly.

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