Pregnant after a Loss

2nd beta results; hope to see you all again soon.

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edited April 2014 in Pregnant after a Loss
Hi ladies,

Levels rose from 41.9 to 59.9. Not a viable pregnancy. I'm stopping meds and have to have another blood draw Friday so they can follow the levels down.

Need to make an appointment to see what next steps are.

I'm not sure how I'm feeling yet since I literally just got the news. All I can say is that I'm not surprised. I don't think I've processed the sad and angry parts yet.

But really, that's not all I can say at all.

I have absolutely no way to convey how much your support and thoughts and prayers have meant to me during this short stay. You are such a wonderfully supportive group and I was so lucky to be part of it for just a few days. I'm sorry I won't be part of this board right now, but I will be cheering you all on, lurking and replying when I'm ready!

And also, to any TTCAL lurkers... I am so embarrassed that on my intro post here a few days ago I didn't call out how supportive you all have been to me during the very darkest times I have faced. While I know I said thank you on my announcement post on the TTCAL board, I also should have expressed the gratitude I have for all of you on my intro post here. I deeply regret I didn't when you have been so very good to me. I hope you will accept my apology and that I can come back.

Lots and lots of love to all of the loss ladies at all stages. I honestly don't know where I'd be without you.

And I wish all of you on PGAL a very, very happy and healthy nine months ahead!

Edited for clarification.

dream 1 CAME TRUE 2.13.2010


 <dream 2> 12.2011


 2.10.12 : 4 weeks


6.17.12 : 10 weeks


10.10.12 : 4 weeks, 6 days


12.13.12 : 9 weeks, 1 day


4.6.13 : 4 weeks, 4 days


10.27.13 : 5 weeks, 6 days


4.2.14 (IVF #1) : 4 weeks, 1 day


6.19.14 : IVF #2 Negative


 </dream 2>


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Re: 2nd beta results; hope to see you all again soon.

  • I'm so sorry to see this. :-(

    I went through something almost identical with my first round of IVF. My first beta was 14 and they did double for a week and a half then they started to go down. I know its heartbreaking after all the money and pain and time you spend to get to that point.

    Don't give up hope. Huge, huge HUGS
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    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • I'm so sorry.

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    Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
    Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
    Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!

  • I am so sorry @anitaflora‌, squishy ((hugs)). I know you will be back soon and in the interim I know the TTCAL ladies will take very good care of you.
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  • Oh anita, I am so very sorry.


                                                         
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    I'm so terribly sorry, my friend. ((HUGS)).
  • I'm so sorry. Hugs!!!!!!
  • I am so sorry.... My heart is breaking for you. I hope you are back soon but I know, until then, that the TTCAL ladies will hold you close and be there for you. So many hugs.

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    Married my awesome guy on 12/27/08

    DD Lucy Rae born on 11/16/2010

    Loss #1: November 29, 2012 at 8w1d

    Loss #2: June 9, 2013 at 13w (Amelia Grace)

    BFP #4: We are having a BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Peter Matthew was born on July 16, 2014!!! Welcome to our family!

     

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  • Oh Anita, I'm so sorry.  =((  I've been thinking about you all day waiting for an update.  As always I will be keeping you in my T&P's and hope to see you back here soon, to stay for good.  Many, many ((hugs)) my friend.  xooxoxox
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    BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.

    BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.

    BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section

  • I am so sorry ((hugs))

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    BFP#2 8/1/13 MC 8/31/13
    BFP#3 11/2/13 EDD 7/15/14 Stick baby Stick
    1st u/s 11/26/13 at 7w, measuring right on track and a heartbeat of 139bpm
    NT Scan 1/6/14 at 12w 6d, normal healthy squirmy baby measuring right on track heartbeat of 147bpm
    1st 2nd tri Scan 2/3/14 at 16w 6d, very healthy baby BOY!
    A/S 3/4/14 still a very healthy BOY, measuring right on track!
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  • I'm so sorry, Anita.  Lots of ((hugs)).


    BFP #1 ended in MMC. Discovered Oct 2005 @10w5d, baby stopped growing around 6w. D&C.
    BFP#2 Nov 2005. Baby's heart stopped @ 8w3d. D&C Jan 2006. Trisomy 18
    BFP#3 Nov 2006. My "miracle baby" DD born 7/25/07
    BFP #4 11/6/12. EDD 7/16/13~my birthday! No sac found @ 5w1d, betas not increasing. Natural m/c started 11/20/12.

    BFP#5 11/9/13.  EDD 7/21/14  Our beautiful rainbow born on his due date!!

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    I am so sorry, love. I wish I had the words to take your hurt away. So many ((Hugs)). You are in my T&P's. 
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    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
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  • I am so sorry Anita. I really hate that you are going through this. ((Hugs))

    married my best friend 10/04/08, TTC since July 2012
    BFP#1 Thanksgiving 11/22/12, mo-mo twins(one sac), traditional EDD 7/27/13, EDD due to risk 6/15/13
    mmc Angel 2/7/13 @ 15w3d, mmc Aubrey 2/13/13 @ 16w2d, D&E 2/16/13

    BFP#2 9/21/13, EDD 6/2/14, DD born 5/17/14 

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  • I'm so sorry.

    BFP#1 4/17/2013 EDD 12/25/2013, MC 5/17/2013 8 weeks 3 days D&C 5/18/2013

    BFP#2 1/20/2014 EDD 9/28/2014, Baby Evie born on 9/23/2014 at 8:50pm.  6 lbs 15 oz!

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  • I am so so sorry. I hope you are back here in no time!

    Off BC, NTNP since June 2011

    Started acupuncture/herbs July 2012 

    First BFP 9-8-2012,EDD 5-15-2013, heartbeat of 175 at 8w2d, mmc discovered on 10-26-12 (11w6d) Cytotec on 10/26/12

    8/23/13 DX with non-IR PCOS

    Second BFP 9.12.13, EDD 5.29.14, heartbeat of 114 at 6w1d, mmc discovered on 10-18-13, D&C on 10/23/13 (baby girl/Trisomy 10) 

    Third BFP (surprise at Beta draw after d&c) on 1/10/14 (15dpo), EDD 9.20.14 Please be our RAINBOW!

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    so, so sad to read this.  I'm so sorry Anita.

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    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

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  • huge huge ((hugs)) I am so very very sorry to hear this!


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    BFP#3 - 6-2013 - edd 2-21-14 -mmc discovered by u/s @ 9 wks - D&C
    BFP #4 - 3-10-14 - edd 11-19-14 - natural miscarriage 4-10-14
    BFP #5 - 8-24-14 - edd 5-5-15 - Please be our RAINBOW!!! <3
    U/S 9-30 - baby measuring right on track, heart rate of 155bpm
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  • I absolutely HATE this, Anita!!  I'm SO incredibly sorry!!  You do NOT deserve this and I so badly wanted this to work for you!!  Be kind to yourself and make sure you let us know if you need anything.  I'm so sorry.  (((hugs)))
    BFP #1 October 2008 | m/c Thanksgiving weekend | November 2008 | 7 weeks 2 days
    BFP #2 February 2009 | m/c March 2009 | 4 weeks 3 days
    Testing on mom and dad for possible reasons all came back normal.
    BFP #3 8/4/2009 | DD born 3/28/10 @ 38 weeks
    BFP #4 5/13/11 | m/c 6/15/11 | 8 weeks 6 days
    BFP #5 2/13/13 | CP 2/19/13 | 4 weeks 
    BFP #6 3/21/14 | Heard the HB on 4/16 | m/c 4/21/14 | 9 weeks
    Testing results all returned normal and baby was a GIRL.
    More testing on mom and dad for other issues all returned normal results.
    BFP #7 10/15 | DS born 6/4/16 @ 36 weeks 
    BFP #8 9/28/17 AHHH!!!  |  EDD 6/6/18

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  • Oh no! Not what I was hoping your post would be! Huge hugs to and take care of yourself. I hope you will be back here very soon!

    BFP#1 9/7/11 EDD 7/23/11 mc @21 weeks caused severe bladder obstruction on 3/14/12
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    BFP #2 9/9/12 EDD 7/19/13 started to mc @ 8w1d on 12/7/12 ended up with d&c 12/18/12, stopped developing @5w5ds

    Unexplained IF
    BFP#3 3/3/14 After 1st iui and clomid cycle
    beta 1: 137 beta 2: 268
    Beta 3:1248
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  • I am so sorry! I hate that you are going thru this. Keep your head up. ((Hugs))
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    I'm 29 and DH is 32 we have a MFI (low count) 
    IVF #1 starting in August. ER 9/5/13 23 eggs we are fertilizing 15. 9 frozen
    ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
    7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
    Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
    Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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    FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN
    FET #2 - 3/3/14 - 5AB Blast -- Beta #1 3/12 - 152 -- Beta #2 3/14 - 358
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    FET #3 06/09/16 - 5AB Blast - Beta #1 6/18- 245 -- Beta #2 06/20 - 600
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this. Love and Light to you and your family during this tough time.
  • I am so sorry you are going through this.  T&Ps.
    Married 8/4/12
    BFP #1 EDD 12/5/13, MMC
    BFP #2 EDD 4/27/14- Our rainbow arrived 5/1/14!
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  • I am so very sorry Anita. ((hugs)) and my T&P with you.

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    I'm so sorry to hear this. Big. Squishy. Hugs. to you.

    (((((anitaflora)))))

    BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!

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  • NO Anita....I hate this so much. I'm so, so sorry, friend. This breaks my heart a million times over. Sending you all the ((HUGS)) and love that I have.
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    BFP # 1 - 12/19/09 EDD 08/27/10 - D&C 1/26/10 @ 9w5d

    BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11

    BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d

    BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13

     

    BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14 

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    Oh, Anita - I'm so sorry to hear this.  Take care of yourself!

    Me 35 / DH 36
    TTC since 09/2009
    Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
    Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
    BFP#1 9/27/2013  /  EDD 6/4/14  /  MC 10/17/2013
    BFP#2 3/4/14  /  EDD 11/13/14  /  CP
    BFP#3 6/7/14  / EDD 2/16/15  /  CP
    BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15  /  CP
    Current  Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
    RXs: Metformin, Levothyroxin, Baby Aspirin, CoQ10, Vitamin D, Folic Acid, Pre-natal. Progesterone post O.

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  • oh anita my heart is breaking reading this.  i'm so sorry  ((hugs))

    BFP 7/16/13, EDD 3/27/14 - blighted ovum  - D&C 8/26/13
    Dx PCOS and Septate Uterus
    Septum Resection - 2/6/14
    brand new cuterus
    March 2014:   first medicated cycle + iui
    = BFP!
    Baby Drgn born December 3, 2014

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  • I'm so sorry. ((hugs))
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    BFP #1: EDD 4/16/13~~blighted ovum w/ 2 gestational sacs~~Loss on 9/18/12
    BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
    9/13, 10/13, 1/14: letrozole + trigger + TI = All BFNs
    3/14: IUI#1 letrozole/Bravelle/Menopur + trigger = BFN
    BFP #3: EDD 1/27/15 Please be our rainbow! ...Team Green


  • I am so sorry.
  • (((((Anita)))))))) I'm so sorry.



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    Started TTC Feb 2013, BFP #1 3/4/13 EDD 11/10/13. MMC 4/9/13 D&C 4/22/13.
    BFP #2 7/17/13, EDD 3/29/14 ended in a CP on 7/22/13.
    BFP#3 8/19/13 EDD 5/3/14 Nerdling was born 4/29/14, welcome little one!
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  • I'm so sorry. 

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    bfp#4 3/19/2014 edd 12/1/2014 please let this be the one!

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  • I am so sorry, Anita. ((Hugs))
  • Crappity crap crap crap!

    I don't have words beyond that. Saying I'm sorry to hear this or that it isn't fair this keeps happening to you...it just isn't nearly enough. Big HUGE mongo hugs as you navigate the physical and emotional aspects of this loss.

    BFP#2 2.5.11 (EDD 10.15.11) DS born 9.28.11

    BFP#4 8.27.13 (EDD 5.6.14) DD born 4.23.14

     

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  • So very sorry to hear this. Sending big hugs your way.
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    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • I'm so sorry sweetie.  You're in my thoughts as you sort through all of these thoughts.  (((anita)))

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  • I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.

    TTC since October 2012

    BFP#1 1/11/13, EDD 9/19/13, M/C at 9wk6dy 

    BFP#2 11/12/13, DS born 7/28/14!

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  • ::lurking::  I am so so sorry to see this.  Big ((hugs)).
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    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
  • I am so sorry. {{{hugs}}}

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  • I'm so sorry, Anita. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.


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    BFP #2: 1/9/14 | EDD: 9/21/14  

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    I'm so incredibly sorry my love.
    PCOS & ute crew member
    BFP #1: 10/24/2012  EDD 7/3/13, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E 
    DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13
    BFP #2: 12/20/2013  EDD 9/1/14, missed m/c @ 7weeks, D&E
    BFP #3: 5/26/2014 EDD 2/7/15, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E- DX Trisomy22
    RPL, Karyotyping, and SHG: All Normal
    BFP #4: 9/6/14 EDD 5/16/15 Praying for our RAINBOW!
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