Most of you know what was going on, but I feel like I should get out the full sorry here.
Last Saturday my dog started to drink a crazy amount of water and have accidents in the house. We took her to the vet who stated it was kidney disease and she could make it 2 months to 4 years on a special diet.
5 days later she just didn't want to eat the other food but you could tell she was starving and she started to get lethargic and not want to play, although still excited to go for walks.
We took her back to the vet who felt something wasn't adding up with her tests (we did a bunch of tests because although they diagnosed kidney disease they felt her symptoms just weren't right) and they sent us first to an internist and then a neurologist because they felt she had severe neck pain due to yelping and her left pupil was unreactive to light.
The neurologist said it was either encephalitis, meningitis, or a brain tumor. They wouldn't know without an MRI which for dogs costs 4000. We knew we also didn't want to put her through brain surgery or chemo or radiation so decided to treat it as if it was the inflammation (meningitis or encephalitis) and see how she responded.
The next day we were very hopeful because she got up without accidents and ate her breakfast. But an hour later she started having nystagmus (eye fluttering) and couldn't stand. We decided after a few hours to see if it improved or not and then make a decision. The hardest part was when I was up on the second floor with LO and indie was downstairs I heard her whining like she does when she outside trying to be let in. She was trying to get up and find us as DH ran a quick errand up the block and she kept just falling over. That was the toughest moment of the whole ordeal and I knew it was time.
This morning there was no improvement so I said my goodbyes and DH took her in. He is just as a mess as me and has to do the hardest part.
I've already packed up most of her things, I know it's bad to do out of sight out of mind, but I think the memories will be enough.
Thank you for everyone who sent their thoughts and prayers.

Re: RIP: my fur baby (long)
TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/10/2012 U/S #1 6w4d - heartbeat EDD 8/1/13
1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
Baby L Born 1.21.14 Induction due to ICP
BFP 11.8.12 * EDD 7.17.13 * MC 12.20.12
BFP #2 (5/18/13) due 1/26/14. Grow baby grow!
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TTC Since 8/2011
BFP #1 5/13/12 * EDD 1/24/13 * MC at 7 wks 4 days on 6/11/12
BFP #2 5/13/13 * Current EDD 1/23/14
Baby N born 2/8/14
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DS1 born 08.02.11
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Fell in love: Dec 2005 // Married: Feb 9, 2013
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