I have been in a minor panic attack for like a day or 2. Somebody posted (I think in this thread) about losses on the March board and I seriously cannot even imagine.
I know my depression makes me more prone to dwell on the negatives. I just can't get the thought out of my head and its damn near debilitating. After everything in this pregnancy I just don't know if I could handle anything happening. I sadly have been avoiding certain threads that I know have super bad news or contain certain fears of mine that i know i would dwell on because I know my mental health can't take it.
Apparently the emotional aspects of pregnancy started super strong in the last week or so and this is playing in that. I think I need a vacation.
Sorry, i went all super Debbie Downer.
*hugs* I know what you mean.. I started looking around at boards +/- 3 months of February and got super freaked at all of the losses too, and I've had to just stay away from the boards. It sounds like it may have affected you more deeply.. but try to remember that while yes, loss is a potentiality, the overwhelming probability is that you and your LO are both going to come out on the other end okay. I hope you start to feel better soon
My daughter is two today. TWO. How did that happen?!
Also, I went home sick yesterday and I should have just stayed home today. I do not feel better, but I don't want to be that person who leaves halfway through the day two days in a row.
My daughter is two today. TWO. How did that happen?!
Also, I went home sick yesterday and I should have just stayed home today. I do not feel better, but I don't want to be that person who leaves halfway through the day two days in a row.
Off to find Crossfire! Thanks @Zarkarella ! 50 shades did wonders for us, so this should be good.
My two BFFs and I have a smutty book club. Basically we read these trashy sex novels and then get together for dinner and drinks (well, they drink) and talk about the books and how feasible some of it is. It's fun. I have a couple other series if you are interested... but Crossfire is a lot like 50 shades with the romance/over the top relationship aspect.
Off to find Crossfire! Thanks @Zarkarella ! 50 shades did wonders for us, so this should be good.
My two BFFs and I have a smutty book club. Basically we read these trashy sex novels and then get together for dinner and drinks (well, they drink) and talk about the books and how feasible some of it is. It's fun. I have a couple other series if you are interested... but Crossfire is a lot like 50 shades with the romance/over the top relationship aspect.
What are they? I read the 50 shades series twice when I was pregnant with DS and I'm looking for some new smut to read this time.
Off to find Crossfire! Thanks @Zarkarella ! 50 shades did wonders for us, so this should be good.
My two BFFs and I have a smutty book club. Basically we read these trashy sex novels and then get together for dinner and drinks (well, they drink) and talk about the books and how feasible some of it is. It's fun. I have a couple other series if you are interested... but Crossfire is a lot like 50 shades with the romance/over the top relationship aspect.
What are they? I read the 50 shades series twice when I was pregnant with DS and I'm looking for some new smut to read this time.
RIght now I am reading the "Masters of Shadowlands" series. It is about a BDSM club, so it is a little more heavy than the other two. But, still fun. Then, after that one I am going to start the "Rescue Me" Series and then possibly the "This Man" series.
You know what I just realized? Being a STM with a 6 year old who is doing pretty well in life, people leave me the hell alone with the advice. No more opinions forced on me, etc. It's a really nice change of pace from my first pregnancy. It's like they realized that I didn't kill my first and he is doing okay, MAYBE just MAYBE I know what I am doing. So, FTM's, keep your head up and try and ignore all the opinions being shoved at you and do your research and what feels right. I remember how demeaning and discouraging some of it could be. But seriously, you got this.
It's 40 degrees here today, and it's not even 10am. If we didnt have 3+ feet of snow on the pool patio I'd be laying out in my bikini in this heat wave.
I just walked in to the workroom and the vending machine man has been in and out restocking things. He happened to be out at the moment, but had left the door wide open. It was like heaven. All of the hugely disgusting sticky buns and Reese's cups you could ask for. I obviously didn't steal anything because that's not my style, but ah...it was beautiful.
June Siggy Challenge: Dad Fails
Married 7.28.2012 DD born 7.27.2014 BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
Last night I really wanted to punch DH in the face. Outside of the random cravings I haven't had much of an appetite. We forgot to take something out of the freezer for dinner before work so when we got home he asked what I wanted and I told him I'd be fone with soup and that he had a frozen pizza in the freezer he had bought and never eaten. Apparently that didn't suffice for him and he spent the next hour asking me what I wanted to do for dinner. So we ended up ordering because he wouldn't shut up and I spent the rest of the night feeling like crap because the food didn't agree with me and my reflux and nausea problems
I have a dilemma. I was so excited to go out and get Taco Bell when they opened (now down to 15 minutes), but my supervisor just stopped by and asked me if I ate yet and I said yes. Which is true, I've been eating since I got here. She wanted to have lunch. I do not want to have lunch with her, so I lied. I just want to sit at my desk, Bump, and enjoy my food. Now how do possibly go out to get food and come back and eat it? She has a window to the parking lot where my car is parked front and center and there is a window in my office that she can see in if she walks by.
Off to find Crossfire! Thanks @Zarkarella ! 50 shades did wonders for us, so this should be good.
My two BFFs and I have a smutty book club. Basically we read these trashy sex novels and then get together for dinner and drinks (well, they drink) and talk about the books and how feasible some of it is. It's fun. I have a couple other series if you are interested... but Crossfire is a lot like 50 shades with the romance/over the top relationship aspect.
@zarkarella - who is the author on the Crossfire series you are talking about? I found two series that look to be a possibility of what you are describing. On second thought, maybe I should just read all six….
Off to find Crossfire! Thanks @Zarkarella ! 50 shades did wonders for us, so this should be good.
My two BFFs and I have a smutty book club. Basically we read these trashy sex novels and then get together for dinner and drinks (well, they drink) and talk about the books and how feasible some of it is. It's fun. I have a couple other series if you are interested... but Crossfire is a lot like 50 shades with the romance/over the top relationship aspect.
@zarkarella - who is the author on the Crossfire series you are talking about? I found two series that look to be a possibility of what you are describing. On second thought, maybe I should just read all six….
Sylvia Day. There are two more books coming, so if you prefer instant gratification, you might want to put them on the back burner. But, there was no big cliff hanger at the end of three so I don't mind waiting.
My appointment was just schedule with the a perinatologist for March 7th for a high resolution ultrasound to check the fluid in my baby boy's kidneys. I know it is not an uncommon or high risk complication, but I am still so nervous that they are going to tell me it's gotten worse or something. And I have a whole two weeks to be nervous about it. :-S
((hugs)) hope the time passes quickly and you get good news in two weeks.
I've been told repeatedly that because of gastric bypass, my insides may shift more to the "sides" than up to crush my lungs as v2 continues to grow. I'm terrified that this means I'm not going to get a real bump front to back, but from side to side. Also, I know this is ridiculous... I hope.
@ marathonmom823 I'm effin' sick of winter. It was -16F this morning, again. I just want it to be in the 30's!
My IL's are coming on Friday to spend the weekend, which will be nice. Unfortunately we can't use them for babysitting purposes so DH and I can go out for dinner bc FIL is a heavy drinker and MIL won't drive. I can't risk having something happen to DS and them not being able to take him to the ER. (I know- paranoid).
I'm wildly jealous of those of you who have a TJ's close by. I really want to try that cookie butter, but I'm pretty sure I'd have to drive at least 3hrs...
You can get it on amazon. I had to do this once when my one and only tj was out. I was obsessed. Don't judge me. ☺️
Ya know what's really annoying? When people ask how far along I am and then follow it with "ohhhh you've still a loooonnngggg way to go" thank you. Thank you very much as if I didn't know that. You're encouragement, especially on a day where I don't feel good at all is really appreciated.
@mrscurlygurl Please do not let me keep you from bitching about GD. It's really nice to know that i am not alone in the difficulties. It sucks regardless.
@2ag I'm sorry. I didn't want to call you out or make you feel bad. That totally was not my intent.
I think a big part of it all is that at my first high risk appt, my doc told me i was at "an increased risk of spontaneous fetal demise." Which i get why i need to be informed of the fact that i have a higher chance of really bad complications, but i really don't think that was the best thing to say or the best way to say it to a FTM at like 13 weeks, just when i had started to breath a little easier. Also because of the anterior placenta i still can't feel anything and it's just adding to all my paranoia.
My a/s is one week from today and i'm seriously hoping it will help to calm me a bit. I think i'm one of the few people who will actually be less anxious and filled with worry once the kid is actually born.
I should probably save this for tomorrow, but whatever. I am so over teaching little kids. The novelty of singing "The Wheels on the Bus" with 30 five-year-olds has completely worn off. Our kindergarten classes are huge, and consequently the kids haven't learned how to act in kindergarten. So it's more like trying to wrangle PK kids. 30 of them. And the first graders aren't much better either. My time as a K-5 general music teacher may be coming to an end. I just don't have the patience for baby nonsense anymore.
I have a dilemma. I was so excited to go out and get Taco Bell when they opened (now down to 15 minutes), but my supervisor just stopped by and asked me if I ate yet and I said yes. Which is true, I've been eating since I got here. She wanted to have lunch. I do not want to have lunch with her, so I lied. I just want to sit at my desk, Bump, and enjoy my food. Now how do possibly go out to get food and come back and eat it? She has a window to the parking lot where my car is parked front and center and there is a window in my office that she can see in if she walks by.
Who said pregnant girls can't have two lunches in one day?
What do you think it feels like for baby when I sneeze? I had a sneezing fit today and I wonder if she's in there thinking "cut that shit out mom!" or if she can even feel it at all.
BFP #1: 3/23/13, EDD: 11/22/13, MC: 4/2/13
Convinced it was a boy and missing him every day!
BFP #2: 10/25/13, EDD: 7/3/14, Grow baby Grow! Anabelle Rose born 6/6/14
I look forward to this baby getting hiccups. Too cute.
Me too! DD had them all the time and I have a video of her hicupping and it being recorded on the contraction monitor at one point when I was in preterm labor! So sweet! She still gets them all the time.
What do you think it feels like for baby when I sneeze? I had a sneezing fit today and I wonder if she's in there thinking "cut that shit out mom!" or if she can even feel it at all.
Great now I can't help thinking what it must feel like for the baby when I have an orgasm.... Though that thought might just make it never happen again X(
I should probably save this for tomorrow, but whatever. I am so over teaching little kids. The novelty of singing "The Wheels on the Bus" with 30 five-year-olds has completely worn off. Our kindergarten classes are huge, and consequently the kids haven't learned how to act in kindergarten. So it's more like trying to wrangle PK kids. 30 of them. And the first graders aren't much better either. My time as a K-5 general music teacher may be coming to an end. I just don't have the patience for baby nonsense anymore.
I cannot believe you have that many kids in a kindergarten class!! That is nuts! My son has 17 kids in his.
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*hugs* I know what you mean.. I started looking around at boards +/- 3 months of February and got super freaked at all of the losses too, and I've had to just stay away from the boards. It sounds like it may have affected you more deeply.. but try to remember that while yes, loss is a potentiality, the overwhelming probability is that you and your LO are both going to come out on the other end okay. I hope you start to feel better soon
Also, I went home sick yesterday and I should have just stayed home today. I do not feel better, but I don't want to be that person who leaves halfway through the day two days in a row.
DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
@zarkarella - who is the author on the Crossfire series you are talking about? I found two series that look to be a possibility of what you are describing. On second thought, maybe I should just read all six….
I'm effin' sick of winter. It was -16F this morning, again. I just want it to be in the 30's!
My IL's are coming on Friday to spend the weekend, which will be nice. Unfortunately we can't use them for babysitting purposes so DH and I can go out for dinner bc FIL is a heavy drinker and MIL won't drive. I can't risk having something happen to DS and them not being able to take him to the ER. (I know- paranoid).
I'm wildly jealous of those of you who have a TJ's close by. I really want to try that cookie butter, but I'm pretty sure I'd have to drive at least 3hrs...
You can get it on amazon. I had to do this once when my one and only tj was out. I was obsessed. Don't judge me. ☺️
Ps. I didn't mean to reply to anyone's post with this just add another. Idk what I'm doing.
DD 1 10/2012
CP 9/2013
DD 2 6/2014
CP 3/2016
BFP 12/8/2016
Me too! DD had them all the time and I have a video of her hicupping and it being recorded on the contraction monitor at one point when I was in preterm labor! So sweet! She still gets them all the time.
Hehe kiddos are already driving us nuts!