TTC After a Loss

Transfer Cancelled *Updated with details*

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edited January 2014 in TTC After a Loss
Enough said. I didn't think my spirit could be crushed into any more pieces than it already had been.

I just don't know where to go from here.

Edited: Sorry, I just could barely breathe when I got the call from my DH and didn't give details.

So to recap, we had 16 eggs, 14 mature, only 7 fertilized with ICSI. No idea why such
poor percentage as we had 100% fertilize during IVF#1. I would like to blame it on the embryologist error rather than my eggs (just because my genetic disorder obviously doesn't prevent them from fertilizing since they did so well with IVF #1) but who knows. As of Monday on Day 3,
all 7 were growing and dividing (just like last time). As of today, 3 arrested sometime after they checked them on Monday and the final 4 were lagging behind and
weren't ready to test today, so therefore transfer was cancelled. The embryologist told us that, by the looks of
things, all 4 are unhealthy and she expects them to arrest by tomorrow
morning.

I am starting to believe that my body just didn't create any healthy eggs. I'd like to think it has, but I don't have forever to keep trying, nor the money to keep trying. Someone REALLY needs to invent ute goggles. It would save me a lot of time and trouble. Our WTF appt is Feb 17th so we will be talking to our RE about next steps. He'll try again, if we want to, I'm sure, but I just don't know if I can keep putting myself through this sense of failure. Embryo adoption is also on the table, but I don't know what that entails.

This just sucks.

Thank you all for the support. It means the world to me.

TTC since April 2012

BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013

BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013

6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)

IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab

IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!

FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN

Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus

IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos



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Re: Transfer Cancelled *Updated with details*

  • I'm so, so sorry love.

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    IVF/ICSI #2 (Antagonist) - Feb 2014 - 23R, 11M, 10F, 1 penguin (3BB) - Another Normal!

    FET #1 - March 26, BFN

    FET #2- Beta #1 (9dp5dt) -332, Beta #2 (11dp5dt) -1027, EDD 1/30/2015, Missed M/C, D&C 6/19/14

    IVF/ICSI #3 (Lupron Down Reg) - Oct 2014 - 38R, 28M, 27F, 20 frozen on day 5, 16 normal penguins!!

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  • I'm SO sorry...how disappointing... (( hugs))

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    4th IUI (clomid + ovidrel) 3/10/14...BFN
    home ICI (unmedicated) 4/4/14...BFN
    home ICI (unmedicated) 5/2 & 5/3...BFN
    5th & 6th IUI (clomid + ovidrel) 5/28 & 5/29...BFN
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    TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor 
    August 2012 through June 2013:  6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
    7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
    8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
    3/15/14 IVF #1:  Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN. 
    Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
    6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN   
    8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy

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  • Oh no..... I am so very sorry :(.  (((((((hugshugshugs)))))))))
    Began trying for a baby January 2012
    BFP 4.25.2013  EDD 1.3.2014  MMC 6.3.2013  D&C 6.19.2013
    BFP 11.3.2013  CP 11.6.2013
    BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014 
  •  I'm so so sorry! ((hugs)) lots of them!
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    BFP Oct. 15, 2013 , EDD June 22, 2014 (Two days before DH's birthday).  
    HB found @ 6wks, NMC @ 8wks LO stopped developing.
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  • I am so sorry (((hugs)))

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  • I'm so sad for you.  ((hugs))   very sorry this happened

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    Dx PCOS and Septate Uterus
    Septum Resection - 2/6/14
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    March 2014:   first medicated cycle + iui
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  • I am soo sorry! ((Hugs))
    Me- 27 w/PCOS     DH - 28
    TTC since December 2012 
    BFP 6/29/2013 - EDD 3/16/14 - MMC 9/5/2013
    Diagnosed with PCOS and taking metformin 750 mg  twice a day
    April 2014 -  - 1st ICI Cycle - BFP 5/15/14 EDD: 1/20/15
    A/S 8-22-14 - Its a BOY!!
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  • I'm so very sorry ((((hugehugs))))


         

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    June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
    Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014

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  • My heart aches for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
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    DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13
    BFP #2: 12/20/2013  EDD 9/1/14, missed m/c @ 7weeks, D&E
    BFP #3: 5/26/2014 EDD 2/7/15, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E- DX Trisomy22
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  • Oh no. I'm so sorry. (((Hugs)))
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    BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

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  • Oh I'm so very sorry to hear this. Big hugs to you and your husband.
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  • I know there's no magically thing I can say to make it better, but I want you to know I'm thinking of you and that I'm just so sorry for you.  T&Ps for you.  Please Please Please take care of yourself during this time.

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    Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
    Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
    BFP#1 9/27/2013  /  EDD 6/4/14  /  MC 10/17/2013
    BFP#2 3/4/14  /  EDD 11/13/14  /  CP
    BFP#3 6/7/14  / EDD 2/16/15  /  CP
    BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15  /  CP
    Current  Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
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  • Many hugs.
    TW loss mentioned 

    **BFP#1 9/5/12   EDD 5/15/13  changed to 5/25/13 after u/s,  missed mc 10/19/12.  D and C 10/22/12** 
     **BFP#2 9/12/13  EDD 5/16/14 changed to 5/27/14 after u/s, hb 126 on 10/11/13, miscarriage on 10/24.13**
    ~RPL testing results from 12/6/13 show everything normal except elevated prolactin. Blood work is now in the normal range. All AL welcome!
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    BFP 4 10/28/19 EDD 7/6/20
  • So sorry to hear this

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    5 IUIs = BFN

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