I like Selena Gomez. Don't judge. This comes from a total hard/alternative rock girl.
Also we just got back last night from havin to go to a funeral back in my home town and Gerald's boss texted him asking why he wasn't at work. He had already taken today off because we weren't supposed to come back until sat. I made him stay home because it was already approved and they won't give him the day back so he would work without his day being reimbursed. He now can't go back to sleep and has made coffee and sitting in the living room while me and DS are snuggled in bed. I wish I never had woken him up to check his text. I should have, which is something I never do obviously, and texted his boss back myself so we could all still be warm and in bed.
Next time, I will. And won't feel one ounce of guilt for it. Stupid boss. U cray?!
1) I used to love the hospital where I'll be delivering, but now I am having a lot of stress and anxiety about going there. And it makes me so sad that I'm feeling that way.
2) I've decided that I don't want any visitors aside from my immediate family. The one exception that I'll have to make is my MIL. I know it will upset people, but I don't care. My experience at the hospital this week was full of stress and anxiety, and having to entertain visitors will make it worse.
3) I was handling everything pretty well, but I feel like I'm thisclose to a breakdown. I'm trying to pull it together because I don't want stress to affect the baby. But I'm really struggling.
4) Even though it was really nice to have my husband there with me at the hospital, I prefer my mother most of the time. She's just better at dealing with that kind of stuff.
I'm a bit pissed at my MIL & SIL who told me that I "need to bring a robe to the hospital" if I'm going to breastfeed, because H's cousin didn't and she just "whipped out her boob in front of everyone" Part of me wants to whip my boobs out just to make them uncomfortable...I mean seriously, she was just learning how to BF, give her a freaking break or leave the room!
Part of me is wanting to stay pregnant forever so that I don't have to go to the gym and worry about what I look like. I think I'm most worried about never loosing the pregnancy weight (and weight I needed to loose before getting pregnant.)
I heard the Mariah Carey "All I want for Christmas" song today on my way to work and it make me super happy....but I still have no desire to decorate or shop for Christmas.
Missing Our July Sparkler BFP#1-11/12/12, MMC 1/16/13-baby stopped growing @ 9wks, found out at 13wks, D&E 1/25/13 BFP#2-4/23/13 EDD-01/02/14 baby BOY born 12/31/13 Michael Cameron
Um. You totally stole my FFFC. I sleep with one too - and sometimes I catch DH snuggling with it.
MH has his own that he sleeps with, lol. He didn't at home, but he does on deployment. It's a penguin, actually, and it has dog tags that I had made that say "Little Wingman" because of a really funny story from when he was stationed in Hawaii.
I have no working knowledge of geography or history. My husband asked if I could name the presidents in order, and I got stuck on #3. I needed a ridiculous number of hints.
We really need to go to the grocery store, but I don't feel like it. Will probably spend the day laying on the sofa trying to breath and eating cereal as it is practically the only food in the house right now.
My moms friend gave my 2yo nephew 5 dollars yesterday and I put it in my pocket and realized I forgot to put it in his piggy bank so now Ill probably just spend it at Tim hortons.
I lose sleep at night and have a pit in my stomach during the day thinking about my MIL being at my house making it a complete mess and taking care of my son the way I wouldn't and not wiping him down completely after he eats only to get crap all over my furniture. This is all while I'm at the hospital for three days after birth. I can't wait til I'm home and they are gone. My mom is staying as a buffer and basically a housekeeper. I'm so annoyed thinking about it. Yes, I'm controlling about the way my house is run and I'm anal about the cleanliness. My MIL is the complete opposite of me. I wish I was in the hospital over night. She can F up my house too much in a small amount if time. My doc prob won't clear me to clean my house as soon as I get home.
I think I have no idea what Braxton hicks feel like. Went grocery shopping last night and waddled around walmart like a geriatric penguin. I had alternating spurts of pain in my back and my belly being uncomfortably tight but didn't think they were bh in the moment.
I know everyone says "you'll know" when the contractions are real but I'm really worried I won't.
PCOS diagnosed secondary infertility
BFP #1 (letrozole 2.5mg + ovidrel) February 2016, MMC April 2016 @ 7 weeks
One more confession.....I had an u/s on wednesday and got a 3D pic of our LO. I'm kinda freaked out because he/she has super chubby cheek and as horrible as it sounds, the more I look at it, the more I'm thinking "Oh good lord I hope this kid is cute when it comes out"
Even H was like "woah" when we saw the picture...and I said "please don't say that our baby is ugly!" which of course he didn't
Missing Our July Sparkler BFP#1-11/12/12, MMC 1/16/13-baby stopped growing @ 9wks, found out at 13wks, D&E 1/25/13 BFP#2-4/23/13 EDD-01/02/14 baby BOY born 12/31/13 Michael Cameron
I told DH there's a law that installed car seats have to be inspected or we couldn't bring the baby home in it because I know he wouldn't read the directions for the car seat otherwise
Yesterday, I was the only person here from 7:30 AM until 5:30 PM. Neither of these broads showed up for work. Whatever.
Now, one of them wants to come in this morning and start bossing me around and barking commands, copping an attitude with me about stuff the other broad hasn't done yet.
I'm out at 12:00 today, and they can suck it.
partial molar pregnancy : bfp 6.28.10, d/c 8.17.10, 7 rounds methotrexate, cleared 7.1.11 alexander patrick : bfp 1.16.12, born 9.20.12 @ 39w1d, 7 lbs./11 oz./22 in. scarlett irene elizabeth : bfp 5.24.13, born 2.3.14 @ 41w2d, 7 lbs./13 oz./19 in.
I so selfish, I don't want anyone to hold DS but me. Like I even get jealous when H holds him. I don't want my mom or MIL to hold him this weekend but we promised them they could.
Mine definitely sounds like an AW, but I never have FFFCs and I thought of it after reading yet another post about how little sex some of TB mommas are having these days:
I am still having sex just as often as ever and for the most part it is just as awesome (a bit less lingerie involved but we are even still doing missionary a bit). I am pretty sure I will be going strong till my due date!
My heart really goes out to those ladies on pelvic rest or who have medical issues going on though.
@benjaminsmommy16 -- it really is a fantastic hospital. My city and this particular hospital were listed as top 10 in the country for places to have a baby. I think that my specific case just got lost in the cracks. I was on the post partum side room-wise, but my care was supposed to be managed by L&D residents -- they were physically far away from me and I think they didn't like to walk all the way to see me. Crappy excuse, though.
I cried last night when DH got called into work because we had a fun afternoon planned after my OB appt. today and I made the mistake of getting excited about it. Then he texts me this morning and says they had to shut down his unit again so I probably won't see him for another two days after today when he has to take a mandatory day off. I'm so thankful for the money, but I don't remember the last time we did something fun together, let alone got to go out of town.
I am terrified of this new baby and how it will change the dynamic of our family. I'm terrified of labor, and keep thinking I won't be able to do it; that I'll just give up and tell them to do another c/s even though in my heart that is not what I want at all.
WooHoo, I'm just putting all my insecurities out there, huh? Sorry if this is whiny, these things have been on my mind a lot.
My FIL gave us a 200 dollar gift card to home depot, paid for our electrician and worked on our house all day without telling us to help get the baby room ready and I should feel bad he is doing all that, but I can't help but be super excited that I don't have to worry so much about the money or time. Of course we have said huge thank yous and it's not necessary, but secretly I am hoping he finishes the addition today because it will be such a huge weight lifted.
Married 12/17/2011 K born 8/31/12 C born 1/11/14 BFP #3 Nov 2014: D&C January 2015 BFP #4 Sept 2016: Due May 31 2017
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7
I have a conference today that I do not want to go to. I have to sneak out and go to my dr appointment. I am hoping that they are running behind and I have to miss more of the conference then I should
Thought I'd sass it up a little and admit, to a message board of strangers haha, that DH is the only person I've ever been with. So I'm definitely not a hussie but sometimes wonder if I should've sowed more oats in college (DH is my high school sweetheart so that's really not feasible but still can't hurt to wonder).
ME (34) Secondary/unexplained IF, DH(35) MFI w/varicocele repair DS conceived NTNP; born 1/8/14 TTC 5/15 TI w/Clomid 12/16, 1/17, 2/17 OB ordered SA 2/17 and referred to RE for MFI - Low Count/Motility DH Varicocele repair 6/17. 9/17 SA: count improved TI w/Letrozole 9/17, 10/17 IUI#1 11/17 BFN IUI#2 Christmas day Canceled due to low count/poor sample IVF#1 w/ICSI: 3/18 BCP, Lupron down reg, Follistim 300IU, LDHCG 10units, Lupron 5units, Ovidrel trigger on 3/18. ER 3/21 8 retrieved, 5 mature, 3 smaller no fertilization w/IVF. 3/5 fertilized w/ICSI. Day 5 Fresh transfer scheduled 3/26 or day3 on Saturday if any arrest.
I so selfish, I don't want anyone to hold DS but me. Like I even get jealous when H holds him. I don't want my mom or MIL to hold him this weekend but we promised them they could.
I think this is normal for a lot of NICU moms. I felt the same way and have read that other moms do too.
Not just NICU moms. I couldn't stand other people holding DS1 when he was born, and he was 10 days late. It got a little tiny bit better with my other kids, but not really. And, I just didn't want to put them down, even for me to sleep.
@peanutmuse are you at the hospital with the really high level NICU?
@PreDempsey -- No, I'm supposed to to deliver at Highland. I'll have to go to Strong if the baby comes in the next 8 days because they automatically send women there when they go into labor before 34 weeks. But my OB doesn't have privileges at Strong, so I'm hoping that I don't need to do that. I prefer my hospital even with my issues this week. I really think that they do well for "normal" situations -- but it's rare for pregnant women to require surgery and even more rare for them to develop the pseudomonas infection, so I think that they didn't quite know what to do with me.
Of course, if the baby needs the NICU, they will transfer him to Strong anyway. Which is good, but I certainly hope that's not necessary.
Re: *******FFFC*********
Baby Chugging born 12.28.13
induction due to HELLP
Also we just got back last night from havin to go to a funeral back in my home town and Gerald's boss texted him asking why he wasn't at work. He had already taken today off because we weren't supposed to come back until sat. I made him stay home because it was already approved and they won't give him the day back so he would work without his day being reimbursed. He now can't go back to sleep and has made coffee and sitting in the living room while me and DS are snuggled in bed. I wish I never had woken him up to check his text. I should have, which is something I never do obviously, and texted his boss back myself so we could all still be warm and in bed.
Next time, I will. And won't feel one ounce of guilt for it. Stupid boss. U cray?!
In my defense, hemorrhoid treatment causes a lot of slime, and I happened to run out of pads. I bought some more yesterday.
Baby Chugging born 12.28.13
induction due to HELLP
1) I used to love the hospital where I'll be delivering, but now I am having a lot of stress and anxiety about going there. And it makes me so sad that I'm feeling that way.
2) I've decided that I don't want any visitors aside from my immediate family. The one exception that I'll have to make is my MIL. I know it will upset people, but I don't care. My experience at the hospital this week was full of stress and anxiety, and having to entertain visitors will make it worse.
3) I was handling everything pretty well, but I feel like I'm thisclose to a breakdown. I'm trying to pull it together because I don't want stress to affect the baby. But I'm really struggling.
4) Even though it was really nice to have my husband there with me at the hospital, I prefer my mother most of the time. She's just better at dealing with that kind of stuff.
Reminds me of another fffc. I think MH is going to be terrible in L&D. My exH was amazing.
Baby Chugging born 12.28.13
induction due to HELLP
Part of me is wanting to stay pregnant forever so that I don't have to go to the gym and worry about what I look like. I think I'm most worried about never loosing the pregnancy weight (and weight I needed to loose before getting pregnant.)
I heard the Mariah Carey "All I want for Christmas" song today on my way to work and it make me super happy....but I still have no desire to decorate or shop for Christmas.
Missing Our July Sparkler
BFP#1-11/12/12, MMC 1/16/13-baby stopped growing @ 9wks, found out at 13wks, D&E 1/25/13
BFP#2-4/23/13 EDD-01/02/14 baby BOY born 12/31/13 Michael Cameron
J14's January Signature Challenge: Favorite Post-Delivery Indulgence
MH has his own that he sleeps with, lol. He didn't at home, but he does on deployment. It's a penguin, actually, and it has dog tags that I had made that say "Little Wingman" because of a really funny story from when he was stationed in Hawaii.
I couldn't quit laughing when I discovered it son I had to entrust my (also high) friend to cut me loose.
Baby Chugging born 12.28.13
induction due to HELLP
My moms friend gave my 2yo nephew 5 dollars yesterday and I put it in my pocket and realized I forgot to put it in his piggy bank so now Ill probably just spend it at Tim hortons.
I'm so annoyed thinking about it. Yes, I'm controlling about the way my house is run and I'm anal about the cleanliness. My MIL is the complete opposite of me.
I wish I was in the hospital over night. She can F up my house too much in a small amount if time. My doc prob won't clear me to clean my house as soon as I get home.
I know everyone says "you'll know" when the contractions are real but I'm really worried I won't.
PCOS diagnosed secondary infertility
BFP #1 (letrozole 2.5mg + ovidrel) February 2016, MMC April 2016 @ 7 weeks
BFP #2 (letrozole 5mg + ovidrel) July 2016, Beta #1 359, Beta #2 745, Beta #3 11484
EDD April 9th, 2017
Even H was like "woah" when we saw the picture...and I said "please don't say that our baby is ugly!" which of course he didn't
Missing Our July Sparkler
BFP#1-11/12/12, MMC 1/16/13-baby stopped growing @ 9wks, found out at 13wks, D&E 1/25/13
BFP#2-4/23/13 EDD-01/02/14 baby BOY born 12/31/13 Michael Cameron
J14's January Signature Challenge: Favorite Post-Delivery Indulgence
Yesterday, I was the only person here from 7:30 AM until 5:30 PM. Neither of these broads showed up for work. Whatever.
Now, one of them wants to come in this morning and start bossing me around and barking commands, copping an attitude with me about stuff the other broad hasn't done yet.
I'm out at 12:00 today, and they can suck it.
partial molar pregnancy : bfp 6.28.10, d/c 8.17.10, 7 rounds methotrexate, cleared 7.1.11
alexander patrick : bfp 1.16.12, born 9.20.12 @ 39w1d, 7 lbs./11 oz./22 in.
scarlett irene elizabeth : bfp 5.24.13, born 2.3.14 @ 41w2d, 7 lbs./13 oz./19 in.
PCOS diagnosed secondary infertility
BFP #1 (letrozole 2.5mg + ovidrel) February 2016, MMC April 2016 @ 7 weeks
BFP #2 (letrozole 5mg + ovidrel) July 2016, Beta #1 359, Beta #2 745, Beta #3 11484
EDD April 9th, 2017
It's so nice to get things done at home by myself.
I am terrified of this new baby and how it will change the dynamic of our family. I'm terrified of labor, and keep thinking I won't be able to do it; that I'll just give up and tell them to do another c/s even though in my heart that is not what I want at all.
WooHoo, I'm just putting all my insecurities out there, huh? Sorry if this is whiny, these things have been on my mind a lot.
DS1 born 11/3/06 * DS2 born 3/29/08 * DD born 3/15/11
Scarlett Mae born 1/14/14 Our family is now complete!
K born 8/31/12
C born 1/11/14
BFP #3 Nov 2014: D&C January 2015
BFP #4 Sept 2016: Due May 31 2017
Haha, just teasing you. I saw your message. I'm guessing you removed it by now, because I don't see it?
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DS conceived NTNP; born 1/8/14
TTC 5/15
TI w/Clomid 12/16, 1/17, 2/17
OB ordered SA 2/17 and referred to RE for MFI - Low Count/Motility
DH Varicocele repair 6/17.
9/17 SA: count improved
TI w/Letrozole 9/17, 10/17
IUI#1 11/17 BFN
IUI#2 Christmas day
IVF#1 w/ICSI: 3/18 BCP, Lupron down reg, Follistim 300IU, LDHCG 10units, Lupron 5units, Ovidrel trigger on 3/18. ER 3/21
8 retrieved, 5 mature, 3 smaller no fertilization w/IVF. 3/5 fertilized w/ICSI. Day 5 Fresh transfer scheduled 3/26 or day3 on Saturday if any arrest.
PCOS diagnosed secondary infertility
BFP #1 (letrozole 2.5mg + ovidrel) February 2016, MMC April 2016 @ 7 weeks
BFP #2 (letrozole 5mg + ovidrel) July 2016, Beta #1 359, Beta #2 745, Beta #3 11484
EDD April 9th, 2017
DS1 born 11/3/06 * DS2 born 3/29/08 * DD born 3/15/11
Scarlett Mae born 1/14/14 Our family is now complete!
Of course, if the baby needs the NICU, they will transfer him to Strong anyway. Which is good, but I certainly hope that's not necessary.