I had a c-section. My epidural didn't work, so when they started cutting me open I felt everything. It was awful. I ended up passing out halfway through the surgery from the pain. I thought they had given me general halfway through but when I woke up they said they didn't need to since I was already unconscious.
Anyone else not remember the birth? How did it affect your bonding?
EDD 9/3/13
Re: Anyone else not remember the delivery?
BFP #1 12/23/12 EDD 9/3/13 DD #1 8/26/13
BFP #2 2/25/16 EDD 11/5/16 MMC 4/15/16
BFP #3 8/31/16 EDD 5/12/17 It's a GIRL!
I had an emergency c/s after 20 hours of labor, I ended up getting an epi that wore off twice and my contractions were non stop since I had a bad reaction to Pitocin. The spinal block ended up working for the c/s but they had to give me more because it wasn't working right at first either (I think the original injection wasn't put in correctly). I didn't get to hold DD for a while but I honestly have no idea how long because I was on such a rush of being a mom! I was so happy that after all that she ended up being delivered perfect and safe. When I finally got to hold her, everything from the last 24 hours just kind of faded away. I mean, I know I was in a ton of freaking pain and there was a huge shock of being told I needed a c/s but it seems like a cake walk when I think about it.
I don't think it affected bonding at all, I love that little cupcake more and more every single day! I kind of think that if we remembered all the terrible things we went through in labor that we may not want to go through it again, lol.
After that I remember the hour we spent in recovery and about an hour after that. Then, my BP dropped my HR went to 170 and I all but passed out. I don't remember any of the rest of that day until late at night. I was having massive internal bleeding but no one caught it right away so I don't hardly remember the next two days either.
I don't think it affected bonding at all though, I hated that I wasn't able to get up and take care of him for days but people brought him to me and it was all ok!
I also had a c/s and remember most things, the little details not so much. I remember being wheeled into the OR and puking on the table and having horrible shakes and the doctor's telling me it was normal. I remember hearing DS cry and DH crying and them telling me he weighed 8lbs 12 oz, most of the things after that were a blur. I had been having contractions for 4 days and nauseous/puking for 2 and had been stuck at 7cm for 8 hours when they decided to do a c/s. So I had hardly slept and barely eaten in a couple days so I was exhausted. I was falling asleep between contractions before I got my epi, then was pretty much passed out by the time they were putting in the catheter.
I would say that yes, it affected my bonding slightly, but not so much because of the drugs (although I did puke much of the next day because of them). I was so completely exhausted and kind of loopy that once I knew he was out and healthy, I just wanted to sleep, I didn't even really want to interact with him. I feel horribly guilty for feeling that way, but I had been through so much. I barely remember trying to nurse him the first time and I couldn't get up to care for him because I didn't get enough feeling back in my legs to walk until the next day so DH had to change all of his diapers and bring him to me to nurse.
DS started making eye contact within the first couple days so that helped our bonding immensely and we are doing great now.