I've known for 3 weeks about my unfortunate blighted ovum. My HCG was quite high, but in 3 days it went from 43000 to 35000. I haven't had any further tests since the first set.
I saw my OB Tuesday for one last check up after having given me a few weeks to see if anything would happen on it's own. I decided that, although nothing had happened yet, I wanted to try and wait it out some more.
Well, I'd been having cramps for a week. But it didn't feel like anything serious.
Tuesday night I had terrible cramps. I was warned that my cramps might come in waves, like honest to god contractions. That's exactly what it felt like.
I went to bed in hopes that rest would help (it didn't, I needed to move throughout the whole ordeal in order for the pain to subside). After a few minutes in bed I got up and put on a pad. I was certain that it was happening. By morning I was having some light bleeding that has been going on intermittently since then.
I'm just wondering how many of you knew it was about to happen.Whether you were anticipating it or not.
So many women say that it just came out of no where, but I'm just baffled by how natural it all felt.
Honestly, the act of miscarrying, while painful and ongoing, is so much more serene than I anticipated.
I expected misery, but it seemed like the misery just started to fade away once I knew it was beginning.
I had some tears today.
I don't want to lose my pregnancy, although it's clearly to late for that.
But I like being sure that things are underway and that I can get back to life.
Is that selfish?
I feel so strange going through this all.
Thank you for your help, ladies!
Re: Natural MC-Did you see it coming?
This is nothing if not an emotional roller coaster.
I'm ready for it to be over, not just for the physical pain, but the emotional pain as well.
When I find myself alone and start cramping again it's hard not to think about the implications of it. Realizing what this means for myself and my family. It's been hard.
I'm still just getting relatively light, bright red bleeding, no clots at all.
It's worse that my friends and I are so young that none of them have really thought about having children, so the lack of support is soul crushing.
BFP #1 11/28/09 ~ EDD 8/6/10 ~ DS Born 8/9/10
BFP #2 8/27/13 ~ EDD 5/8/14 ~ Natural MC 9/18/13 at 6 weeks, 6 days
BFP#3 3/28/14 ~ EDD 12/7/14 ~ DD Born 11/21/14
BFP#4 6/15/17 ~ EDD 2/20/18