On the verge...

MJ14323 · July 2013

...Of a breakdown.

I've been having such a hard time gearing up for our upcoming IVF cycle with some many different things adding to my stress level. Most recently, I accidentally thought yesterday was the 21st and took my cetrotide a day early on my IVF calendar. I'm supposed to call my nurse in the morning to decide what to do. I just can't help but think I ruined our change at doing IVF this upcoming cycle.

This is the last thing in a long list. 2 weeks ago yesterday DH and I were in a bad accident and totaled his car. I was driving and a deer came out of nowhere. It was in the middle of the night and I overcorrected. We didn't hit the deer but his car ended up on the side. Luckily we were both okay, but the car wasn't. Shopping for a car and the unexpected expense has not been fun on my emotions. Then, last weekend one of my best friends told me she was PG. Oh, and how after 2 months of trying she was like "hurry up already, I'm tired of waiting". I get someone saying that if they don't know our struggles, but she does. I've vented to her many times.

On top of all of that, things are stressful at work. We just had our quarter reviews and I asked one of my bosses for a raise. He said he was going to talk to our CEO and get back to me. I haven't heard anything so I'm anxious about that conversation. It just seems everything is adding up and starting to take it's toll on me.

I'm starting to think my stress level right now might be too high even though I'm doing everything I can to bring it down. I'm worried it might effect the outcome of our IVF cycle. Anyone have any advice on this? I'm going to my acupuncturist tomorrow and have continued to try slow/calm breathing on a regular basis.

krdesi · July 2013

Wow! That is a lot to take in all at once!

Sorry you're going through all that!

Try to just pamper yourself a bit...get a pedicure or a massage or something. Eat good food, relax and veg out a bit. Acupuncture will hopefully help you manage your stress, it definitely helped mine a bit and sometimes you just have to keep breathing.

Good luck with your cycle! Hopefully everything works out for you.

kristinapedot · July 2013

Hi,

I'm pretty new around here. I don't have much to say about IVF and I'm still doing IUI. You're doing everything you can and this level of stress won't last forever. You CAN and you WILL get through it. It's hard to remember the little things like you and your DH are ok after the accident thank goodness. Cars are replaceable and you and DH are not, but yes cars sure are expensive. Good luck with your job. Just try to remember you are doing all of this to have the ultimate outcome! Sending you positive vibes.

Kristina

twistsandturnsto2 · July 2013

MJ, big big hugs to you! I am so sorry you have all of this on your plate right before a cycle.

I hope that the acu will help calm and center you a bit. The only advice for you I have is to just try to take things one day, one hour or one minute at a time. Whatever it takes to get through.

kjf114 · July 2013

Mj I can very much relate everything I have been through with dog illness, work stress, etc.. The one thing I learned is there a good days and bad. Massage helped me and some solo time.. I am really sorry about one of your bfs too knowing that... I have several that said something similar but a little more sensitive. A day early for your meds hopefully isn't too bad I would do what is suppose to be next so nothing does get delayed. Good luck and ill be thinking of you!!

RosyGlow · July 2013

I'm so sorry it has been a tough time. You should definitely take care of yourself however you can...even though selfcare can be expensive, it's a drop in the bucket compared to IVF, so I like to think of it as an investment. Hehe. I also think that you sharing your stress on the IF board ought to help...I have a feeling you are at the worst of it and that you are gonna see the end of these bummer experiences. Maybe all things will look up from here!

sb9411 · July 2013

I just wanted to say I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. I am thinking of you, and I think your luck is bound to turn around.

MJ14323 · July 2013

Thanks ladies. I appreciate the support a ton.

twistsandturnsto2 · July 2013

MJ14323:
Thanks ladies. I appreciate the support a ton.nbsp;

::hugs:: we are here if you need anything!

KRoseToes · July 2013

Are you on any other meds right now? Like estrace/estradiol? That made me absolutely crazy and I had a major emotional breakdown last week. It was so out-of-body how emotional I felt. As soon as AF came and I got to stop taking that med, I felt a million times better.

I too am constantly stressed about being stressed and ruining the IVF outcome. But it sounds like you're doing what you can - acupuncture, deep breathing. I try to remind myself that people get pregnant all the time in much more stressful situations (war-ravaged countries, etc.) The IVF stress shouldn't affect our chances at pregnancy (I hope)!

MJ14323 · July 2013

KRoseToes:
Are you on any other meds right now? Like estrace/estradiol?

Yes, started estrace on Saturday. I didn't have issues with it last cycle, so who knows.

Now, I'm swelling from the Cetrotide shot this morning...having some sort of allergic reaction. I'm trying to prepare myself that we aren't moving forward with this cycle, but I'm waiting to hear back from the nurse.

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