Taking a break
davidandheather
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I said the words this week and I am not happy about it. My mom is just too unstable, too sick. She is really fading and seems to be getting worse each day the last couple of months. I am overwhelmed. I have too much to figure out. Our SW called this week to see how we wanted to proceed after not getting the trio we put our homestudy in for in December, and I let her know that we needed to take a break and re-evaluate each month. I did not like saying that. This is the season we are in. I keep telling myself that. Sometimes I wonder why God has shut so many doors for us. Maybe we are not meant to be parents. Maybe we are meant to be missionaries one day when we are not taking care of our own parents, or join the circus. I always liked elephants.
Re: Taking a break
While elephants are fabulous, they aren't very cuddly
in your siggy I see that it says you are answering a long awaited call to adopt. I truly feel that if you feel that, you probably are meant to adopt, it just might not yet be the perfect time. Maybe God just knows you need to spend this time with your mother before she passes. Doors are shutting because they aren't the perfect situation for you and God is keeping you from that. Nothing about IF or adoption is easy and it sucks that some of us have to go through it. I'm so sorry you are going through this, and I am sending you lots of virtual hugs!
TTC since June 2009
01/10- Femara
03/10- Femara
07/2010- Clomid with injectables and IUI #1
08/2010- IUI #2
06/2011- IVF #1 BFP!
09/2011- Miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks
11/2011- FET
01/2012- Start Home Study process
03/2012- Home Study approved and now waiting on our child to find us!
07/2012- matched with a BM who is due in October!
11/10/12- our son is born!
11/13/12- court grants us custody!
12/28/12- finalization! Always ours in our hearts, but.now also ours forever
http://keepingupwiththejoneses-dana.blogspot.com/
Maybe you are meant to be parents, just not right now.
I'll be praying for your mom, and for strength for your family as you make your path forward
5 Angels
You will be able to teach your child resiliency, endurance, grace and patience because those are the traits you are showing now, through this season. What an amazing parent you will be, whenever that comes true.
Prayers and virtual hugs to you and your mom.