Some of you may remember me. I used to post a lot but took a break from the bump in general when we talked about actively try after losing our first angel. Well I sure all of you are the same as me today hating or dreading the holidays. I was ok for the most part until I started thinking how this should be my baby's first Christmas or the fact I should still be pregnant still. Unfortunately I am in the process of still recoverying from yet another d&c. Really not in the Christmas spirit this year more like bah humbug. I know we always say holidays are the worst but I think this one hit me the hardest and just feel numb. Sorry to just drop in like this but knew you all would understand!
To all of you I hope you can find strength to get through the holidays! Also to the new loss moms I am so sorry for your losses!
Re: bah humbug!!!...(TTC/pregnancy mentioned)
I hear ya! I was just laying in bed getting so angry that this should be Bradley's first Christmas and how different my last 3 months should have been.
I too feel completely numb. I also have somewhat been able to convince myself it's not Christmas for me, just other people. I just really want life to fast forward to my rainbow baby so I can have a baby at home and Bradley has someone to watch over.
I never thought the most joyful times of year would end up being one of the saddest for us.
We are pretty much skipping all holiday events this year; didn't put our tree up, didn't send out cards, didn't buy any gifts. Last year I was thinking that we would finally be able to send out cute photo cards with pictures of our little girl on them. I should have been buying baby toys to put under the tree, instead I am avoiding all things Christmas while I am also recovering from another dc.
Lots and lots of hugs to all of you.