I would like to start off saying that I am not yet a mother. Closer to the beginning of the month I knew I was pregnant. I did a lot of research and I had all the signs, I was so excited! I talked to my boyfriend about it and since we had a guest in town, he asked for me to wait to take the test till he left. Well a few days go by and I could not take it anymore and bought a test and I was right, we were going to be parents!! All that night we talked about names, and the plans for the new future that was ahead. We were so excited and we went to bed holding my belly.
Unfortunately, the next day at work I started bleeding really heavy to the point where I thought I was going to be sick and faint. Soon after that I went to the bathroom and my little bean was in the toilet paper. I was holding my little bean in my hands.
Now here I am.. I am having such a hard time dealing with being sad just all day, not wanting to move, all I want to do is sleep and cry when I am awake. I have tried to logic my way through this and read the stories of other to try to show myself that I am not the only one but nothing seems to be working. My boyfriend is trying really hard to be here for me but the fact that he is not as upset as I am, I feel, is making it so much worse for me.
I guess what I am asking is, to the other women here who had lost their little one/s, what did you do to make the pain easier to handle?