You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.
Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.
OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.
It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.
Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.
And there is where a good AE goes bad. You just couldn't help yourself...you should have stopped, but now you are not believable at all.
This. I believed it until that post.
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Let me clear a few things up. I have NEVER actually tasted my urine. I have URGES to taste it but I have NEVER brought it to my lips. I have no idea why I feel the want to drink my own pee. I do get a bit of a high when I test it and dip things in it. I think it is the rush of thinking that I could be O'ing or pregnant.
I save my urine to test with a digi later to make sure I am not missing a surge. I only test the urine with the darkest OPK of the day with the digi. I immediately test my with a OPK then save the urine. It is expensive and realize that without a job I may not be able to continue testing the way I have been.
My DH has never questioned me. He and I both really want a baby. I have always kept saved urine in my top drawer of my dresser (out of sight out of mind?). He has not questioned me. I have told him they were downsizing at work and that is why I was let go.
I have left a message for my Family Doctor for a referral for a psychiatric.
Why don't you just throw the pee with lighter OPKs out each time you get a darker OPK? That way you'd only have one cup of pee instead of several.
Let me clear a few things up. I have NEVER actually tasted my urine. I have URGES to taste it but I have NEVER brought it to my lips. I have no idea why I feel the want to drink my own pee. I do get a bit of a high when I test it and dip things in it. I think it is the rush of thinking that I could be O'ing or pregnant.
I save my urine to test with a digi later to make sure I am not missing a surge. I only test the urine with the darkest OPK of the day with the digi. I immediately test my with a OPK then save the urine. It is expensive and realize that without a job I may not be able to continue testing the way I have been.
My DH has never questioned me. He and I both really want a baby. I have always kept saved urine in my top drawer of my dresser (out of sight out of mind?). He has not questioned me. I have told him they were downsizing at work and that is why I was let go.
I have left a message for my Family Doctor for a referral for a psychiatric.
I haven't ever found it that hard to tell a + from a -. It either is or isn't, and when in doubt, HIO. Not sure why the need for all these science experiments!
Off BCP since 1/12 TTC since 3/12 High LH/FSH Ratio 8/12 DX with PCOS 11/12 Clomid 50mg - 19.5mm Follie - Trigger + TI = BFP! 11/12 EDD August 11, 2013
Let me clear a few things up. I have NEVER actually tasted my urine. I have URGES to taste it but I have NEVER brought it to my lips. I have no idea why I feel the want to drink my own pee. I do get a bit of a high when I test it and dip things in it. I think it is the rush of thinking that I could be O'ing or pregnant.
I save my urine to test with a digi later to make sure I am not missing a surge. I only test the urine with the darkest OPK of the day with the digi. I immediately test my with a OPK then save the urine. It is expensive and realize that without a job I may not be able to continue testing the way I have been.
My DH has never questioned me. He and I both really want a baby. I have always kept saved urine in my top drawer of my dresser (out of sight out of mind?). He has not questioned me. I have told him they were downsizing at work and that is why I was let go.
I have left a message for my Family Doctor for a referral for a psychiatric.
Why don't you just throw the pee with lighter OPKs out each time you get a darker OPK? That way you'd only have one cup of pee instead of several.
Or, you know, just not keep pee in your desk.
Can we acknowledge the fact that she also transports her pee from her desk to home. Every. Single. Day. OP I hope you don't take public transportation.
I'm not even going to go into the sheer stupid of peeing on OPK's & HPT's everyday of her cycle . Apparently she missed the entire point to her two charts. And didn't read TCOYF
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I seriously hope she is not using the same thermometer to test both ways each morning. Then again, I wouldn't be all that surprised since she likes to taste her own bodily fluids.
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." -- Dale Carnegie "Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." --Thomas A. Edison
My DH has never questioned me. He and I both really want a baby. I have always kept saved urine in my top drawer of my dresser (out of sight out of mind?). He has not questioned me. I have told him they were downsizing at work and that is why I was let go.
Really?! My DH thinks it's strange that I keep a pee cup in the bathroom.
Also, I don't even want to know how much it would cost to use a digi OPK and a FRER every day.
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On the chance this isn't MUD, OP do you by any chance have a history of anorexia or bulemia? This sounds like a similar trying to gain full and complete control of your body that anorexics have. If so, please get to a Dr ASAP and make sure when you do get pregnant that your OB knows you have a history of an eating disorder because they will want to watch carefully.
Holy Hell. OP, did you eat a bowl of crazy for breakfast?
There are really no words to describe the bat *** crazy that is going on here.
Me: 32 DH: 31. B/W: good. SA: good. November 2012: Paratubal cyst found during U/S. January 10, 2013: Lap removed paratubal cyst and Stage 2 Endometriosis. 3 cycles of Femara + TI = BFNs
June 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 37.5 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFN
July 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 75 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFP!!!!
Beta 1 @ 11 DPIUI = 76. Progesterone = 27.3
BFP 8/16/2013 // EDD 4/28/2014
Jordan Samuel born April 19, 2014. 6 lb, 12 oz and 18 inches long.
You've summed up my feelings quite nicely, sueann. OP, I'm going to give you the same advice whether you're for real or whether this is MUD: get help. Get off the Internet, and find a professional who can help you get better. All snark aside, I wish you the best of luck in dealing with your problems.
You should have been let go for storing pee at your desk, let alone wasting the companies money surfing the bump all day. Find a therapist and do not pass go.
Little Man (4 years old---holy cow) He's the single greatest thing I've done in my life and reminds me daily of how fun (and funny) life can be. He's turned out pretty swell for having such a heartless and evil mother.
Wowww.....what a thing to read when I woke up early.....
Made up? No? After watching too many Hoarders episodes, I'm not sure there are any bounds to human weirdness.
Hoarding is a serious psychological issue, not a weirdness. If you truly paid attention to the show you would know this.
Didn't say it wasn't a serious issue. Maybe a better word for it would be "unusual". Just like wanting to taste your pee and storing your whole day's urine is probably also a serious psychological issue, it is unusual.
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Resumed TTC 6/2013~Chronic stomach pain and distension: 8/2013~TTA 1/2014 Until Resolved ~7/2014: Trip to the Mayo Clinic--SUCCESS!! Finally on the road to getting better.
Resumed TTC 7/2014! Third time's the charm....8/2014 Visited the RE~DX: MFI/low morph~Straight to IVF with ICSI! 9/2014~Transferred 1 perfect beautiful 6AA blast with 10 to freeze!!!~10/8/2014: BFP!!!! EDD: 6/17/15 STICK LITTLE BEAN!!! IT'S A BOY!!!!!
Love is like infinity: You can't have more or less infinity, and you can't compare two things to see if they're "equally infinite." Infinity just is, and that's the way I think love is, too.
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Slowly rising betas - Ectopic suspected on 8/8/14 & confirmed on 8/11/14
Methotrexate on 8/12/14 -HCG negative on 9/2/14
IVF #1- November- Antagonist protocol: 11/1: start stims, 200iu of Follistim; 11/12 ER 17R/14M/14F; 11/17 5 day transfer of two blasts, 2 blasts and 2 expanding morulas frozen; 11/22 BFP!! (On FRER at 5dp5dt)
Betas: 9dp5dt 205, 11dp5dt 497, 14dp5dt 1,709
u/s at 5w0d- 1 sac; u/s at 6w0d 1 baby with heartbeat, another sac without a heartbeat
TTC since August 2011, Me = 40, DH = 38 Unexplained IF. Tried Clomid for 3 cycles. All BFNs. BFP 1/6/13. Chemical pregnancy.
Moving on to IVF#1. ER 11/26/13, 16 eggs retreived, 12 mature and all fertilized. 2 blasts transferred on 12/1. All other embies arrested so nothing left to freeze. Beta 12/10 = BFN. IVF #2 March 2014. BFP!!! TEAM BLUE!!!
Now I am even more confused about who the pee storer might have been. ;-)
TTC since August 2011, Me = 40, DH = 38 Unexplained IF. Tried Clomid for 3 cycles. All BFNs. BFP 1/6/13. Chemical pregnancy.
Moving on to IVF#1. ER 11/26/13, 16 eggs retreived, 12 mature and all fertilized. 2 blasts transferred on 12/1. All other embies arrested so nothing left to freeze. Beta 12/10 = BFN. IVF #2 March 2014. BFP!!! TEAM BLUE!!!
Ha sorry I thought I got through the thread just realized this was a bump. :-P
Love is like infinity: You can't have more or less infinity, and you can't compare two things to see if they're "equally infinite." Infinity just is, and that's the way I think love is, too.
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Re: I lost my Job over TTC (long)
Why don't you just throw the pee with lighter OPKs out each time you get a darker OPK? That way you'd only have one cup of pee instead of several.
Or, you know, just not keep pee in your desk.
I haven't ever found it that hard to tell a + from a -. It either is or isn't, and when in doubt, HIO. Not sure why the need for all these science experiments!
TTC since 3/12
High LH/FSH Ratio 8/12
DX with PCOS 11/12
Clomid 50mg - 19.5mm Follie - Trigger + TI = BFP! 11/12
EDD August 11, 2013
Wow. OP I really hope you get the help you need.
Now I'm curious as to who you are.
Can we acknowledge the fact that she also transports her pee from her desk to home. Every. Single. Day. OP I hope you don't take public transportation.
I'm not even going to go into the sheer stupid of peeing on OPK's & HPT's everyday of her cycle . Apparently she missed the entire point to her two charts. And didn't read TCOYF
BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
I seriously hope she is not using the same thermometer to test both ways each morning. Then again, I wouldn't be all that surprised since she likes to taste her own bodily fluids.
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." -- Dale Carnegie
"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." --Thomas A. Edison
Really?! My DH thinks it's strange that I keep a pee cup in the bathroom.
Also, I don't even want to know how much it would cost to use a digi OPK and a FRER every day.
Holy Hell. OP, did you eat a bowl of crazy for breakfast?
There are really no words to describe the bat *** crazy that is going on here.
Me: 32 DH: 31.
B/W: good. SA: good.
November 2012: Paratubal cyst found during U/S.
January 10, 2013: Lap removed paratubal cyst and Stage 2 Endometriosis.
3 cycles of Femara + TI = BFNs
June 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 37.5 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFN
July 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 75 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFP!!!!
Beta 1 @ 11 DPIUI = 76. Progesterone = 27.3
BFP 8/16/2013 // EDD 4/28/2014
Jordan Samuel born April 19, 2014. 6 lb, 12 oz and 18 inches long.
CLICK ME!!!11!!1111!!
He's the single greatest thing I've done in my life and reminds me daily of how fun (and funny) life can be. He's turned out pretty swell for having such a heartless and evil mother.
Wow, I sure miss a lot during the work day!
I'm just going to sit here a minute and drool over Ryan Reynolds.
Wowww.....what a thing to read when I woke up early.....
Made up? No? After watching too many Hoarders episodes, I'm not sure there are any bounds to human weirdness.
Hoarding is a serious psychological issue, not a weirdness. If you truly paid attention to the show you would know this.
Didn't say it wasn't a serious issue. Maybe a better word for it would be "unusual". Just like wanting to taste your pee and storing your whole day's urine is probably also a serious psychological issue, it is unusual.
The only Easter Bunny I can get behind.
Maxwell Joseph 4/09 Lucy Violet 10/12
April 2013: Femara + Trigger + IUI = ???
My Ovulation Chart
TTC #1 8/2012~Chronic Pelvic Pain Condition began 10/2012~Told I was crazy by many doctors until a good specialist DXed a labral tear and bone impingement in left hip 4/2013~Surgery on left hip: 5/31/13 SUCCESS!!! Pain flares to continue indefinitely (but mostly gone).
Resumed TTC 6/2013~Chronic stomach pain and distension: 8/2013~TTA 1/2014 Until Resolved ~7/2014: Trip to the Mayo Clinic--SUCCESS!! Finally on the road to getting better.
Resumed TTC 7/2014! Third time's the charm....8/2014 Visited the RE~DX: MFI/low morph~Straight to IVF with ICSI! 9/2014~Transferred 1 perfect beautiful 6AA blast with 10 to freeze!!!~10/8/2014: BFP!!!! EDD: 6/17/15 STICK LITTLE BEAN!!! IT'S A BOY!!!!!
Fred Rogers
My Ovulation Chart
Anyone but me wondering if she ever had a baby... :-SS
I had forgotten about the follow up cray.
TTC since August 2011, Me = 40, DH = 38
Unexplained IF. Tried Clomid for 3 cycles. All BFNs. BFP 1/6/13. Chemical pregnancy.
Moving on to IVF#1. ER 11/26/13, 16 eggs retreived, 12 mature and all fertilized. 2 blasts transferred on 12/1. All other embies arrested so nothing left to freeze. Beta 12/10 = BFN. IVF #2 March 2014. BFP!!! TEAM BLUE!!!
Mom to 4 wonderful children: T(8), B(6) ,M(3), and A(1)
TTC since August 2011, Me = 40, DH = 38
Unexplained IF. Tried Clomid for 3 cycles. All BFNs. BFP 1/6/13. Chemical pregnancy.
Moving on to IVF#1. ER 11/26/13, 16 eggs retreived, 12 mature and all fertilized. 2 blasts transferred on 12/1. All other embies arrested so nothing left to freeze. Beta 12/10 = BFN. IVF #2 March 2014. BFP!!! TEAM BLUE!!!
Ha sorry I thought I got through the thread just realized this was a bump.
:-P
Fred Rogers