I've had random crying of course, I think we all have...but I'd never encountered a trigger until yesterday. DH were at "The Descendants" as part of our valentine's date, and there's a part in the movie where they are scattering ashes. I lost it. I was bawling... as quietly as I could so people wouldn't hear hopefully, but I lost it. Then in the car I cried the whole way home. I just kept thinking how it's not fare that scattering ashes in a movie immediately takes me back to my own baby boy. It was awful. I finally understand what you guys mean when you talk about a trigger.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
Ugh I am sorry. We went to see shutter island a few weeks after Kam died thinking it was a horror moviem we had no clue about the drownings in it. I had to get up and leave the theater.
Huge hugs.
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BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.
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BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.
The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.
The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.
The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I was actually talking to a friend this weekend about triggers and I told her about how there's the known triggers (for me the baby aisle at the grocery store, Target, driving by the hospital where Corbin passed, being around babies etc.) but what I call the "unknown" or surprise triggers are the ones that stop you in your tracks. My worst one was a few days after Corbin passed. I went to CVS. In the car I figured listening to the radio wouldn't be good so I turned the radio to ESPN talk radio figuring I'd be safe. There was a commercial for State Farm Insurance and this guy sings that he likes his home and auto insurance like he likes his burrito. I was sitting in the parking lot bawling. Why? Corbin loved to be swaddled and whenever I would go to put him in his swaddler I'd ask him he he wanted to be a burrito. Never knew a stupid commercial could set me off. I've even cried over a Taco Bell commercial that mentioned a new burrito. Again, so sorry and hope you get through it. {{{HUGS}}}
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Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be
Big hugs! I hate it when stuff sneaks up on you like this. I agree, it is the ones that catch you off guard that are the worst. Especially when you are in public.
Re: My first trigger...
Ugh I am sorry. We went to see shutter island a few weeks after Kam died thinking it was a horror moviem we had no clue about the drownings in it. I had to get up and leave the theater.
Huge hugs.
Congrats to Heatherhah! Baby girl has finally arrived!
Congrats to my Labor Buddy SouthernBellaKS
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BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
Ugh that sucks! Why can't a valentines date just be a valentines date!
The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board. Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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2nd BFP 10/10/11, EDD 6/2/12,natural m/c 10/13/11 at 6w5d
3rd BFP 12/25/11, DD born 8/31/12
5th BFP 11/15, DS born 7/24/16
6th BFP 7/14/16, EDD 3/20/18
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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