My first trigger...

Petunia844

I've had random crying of course, I think we all have...but I'd never encountered a trigger until yesterday.  DH were at "The Descendants" as part of our valentine's date, and there's a part in the movie where they are scattering ashes.  I lost it.  I was bawling... as quietly as I could so people wouldn't hear hopefully, but I lost it.  Then in the car I cried the whole way home.  I just kept thinking how it's not fare that scattering ashes in a movie immediately takes me back to my own baby boy.  It was awful.  I finally understand what you guys mean when you talk about a trigger.  

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lrichmond86

Ugh.  It's not fair at all.  I'm sorry you had this experience.  Big hugs!

karebear57

Big big ((hugs!)) I know how you feel! I'm so sorry.

pottermommy

Ugh I am sorry.  We went to see shutter island a few weeks after Kam died thinking it was a horror moviem we had no clue about the drownings in it.  I had to get up and leave the theater. 

Huge hugs.

drvst8

Huge hugs.

Carolee

(((HUGS)))

Mjmksb04

BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.

JessicaRobb

Ugh that sucks! Why can't a valentines date just be a valentines date! 

 

Petunia844

Mjmksb04:

BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.

The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board.  Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely. 

Petunia844

Mjmksb04:

BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.

The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board.  Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely. 

Petunia844

Mjmksb04:

BIg hugs. Parts of that movie, like the hospital scenes, were really a trigger to me too.

The hospital scenes were hard for me too, I hated seeing things that looked like my hospital room, like the white board.  Those parts made me cringe, but the ashes... that was just what made me lose it entirely. 

krysiahamaty

Big hugs. I hate those. :-/

foxxy1

*hugs*

savykay

Ugh, Petunia, I am so sorry , big fat ((hugs)) to you!

fluttergirlmoonchild79

I'm so sorry you had to go through that.  I was actually talking to a friend this weekend about triggers and I told her about how there's the known triggers (for me the baby aisle at the grocery store, Target, driving by the hospital where Corbin passed, being around babies etc.) but what I call the "unknown" or surprise triggers are the ones that stop you in your tracks.  My worst one was a few days after Corbin passed.  I went to CVS.  In the car I figured listening to the radio wouldn't be good so I turned the radio to ESPN talk radio figuring I'd be safe.  There was a commercial for State Farm Insurance and this guy sings that he likes his home and auto insurance like he likes his burrito.  I was sitting in the parking lot bawling.  Why?  Corbin loved to be swaddled and whenever I would go to put him in his swaddler I'd ask him he he wanted to be a burrito.  Never knew a stupid commercial could set me off.  I've even cried over a Taco Bell commercial that mentioned a new burrito.  Again, so sorry and hope you get through it.  {{{HUGS}}}

weddedwife

Big hugs! I hate it when stuff sneaks up on you like this. I agree, it is the ones that catch you off guard that are the worst. Especially when you are in public.