I'm in FL with my mom in hospice. I appreciate that I can type this out here. I'm so fortunate to have close friends and family and also to have this cyber space- I've learned a lot here.
My dad told me to come early and I'm glad I did. In her drugged state she was able to tell me she loved me and even hug me . She is not eating and she had head pain - which she gets drugs for.
Ive talked to her a lot. Told her what's in my heart. Watched my dad do the same though more openly - my conversations with her were more private.
I feel selfish. I don't want her to go. But I told her I'd be ok and take good care of Sam - with her right over my shoulder. I still feel like it is all a bad dream.
Re: With my mom, in hospice
My you find the strength and comfort you need at this difficult time. I truly mean that.
Don't worry about being selfish. You are an amazing daughter! I'm glad you are there with her!
(((HUGS)))
I'm so sorry. I know that it is hard. Remember to tell her how much you love her and how special she is to you, even when you think she can't hear you.
Aiden 10.17.07 Emma 07.15.10
I'm so sorry. I have no idea what it is like to be in your shoes - but you are a fantastic daughter to be there with her.
Love and hugs and thoughts and prayers. And peace. I hope peace finds you in the coming days/weeks/months. We're all here for you if there is any way we can help.
Oh babe.
Keep talking to her. She will hear the whole time. Tell her everything you want and need to say. Hug her as much as possible (things I regret). I would even climb in bed with her (I did).
I am not too too far if you need anything. I'll FB you my number.
(((HUGS)))
(((hugs)))
I am so sorry.
Alex (11/14/06) and Nate (5/25/10)
"Want what you have, do what you can, be who you are." - Rev. Forrest Church
I can't even imagine what you are going through. Lots of hugs to you and your family.
Oh girl, (((HUGS)))
I will be thinking about you.
You take my ovaries, I take your yarns.
I'm so sorry you are going through this extremely painful time. Thinking of you!
Oh babe. I'm so glad you did. I wish I could be there with you and I don't even know you.
You're not selfish, you're an incredible daughter. Sending lots of love and prayers for strength during such a painful time.
xoxo
This. Big *hugs* to you.
Nora Judith 7/2/06 Miles Chauncey 4/20/09 born with Trisomy 21 - Down syndrome
Big Girl 2.7.06 ~ Baby Girl 9.2.07
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Ethan {1.11.10} & Malia {12.28.06}