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TTC After a Loss
lebongo
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"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
emotional kamikaze.... (little long)
lebongo
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yep, that was me last night. Poor DH didn't know what hit him! Between being all stressed at work, having to do laundry and pack last night, and this being the first xmas I'm ever going to miss with my family, and not being pg as originally planned for xmas.... well I'm an emotional kamikaze - I take down myself and anyone in my path.
DH informed me last night that he'd like to stay the ENTIRE week at his parents' house.... the small house out in literally the middle of no where with nothing to do, they smoke and have dogs that jump all over you too. Don't get me wrong, I really like my IL's, but their guest bed is as old as I am, you can feel the springs, is a double (DH is 6'2"), and the curtains are lace with no shade. My back always hurts and I never get a good nights sleep.... and he wants to extend our 5 day trip to 9 days.
It didn't go over well with me. I apparently share my emotions before I'm able to understand and share my thoughts. So I unleashed on him (not like a tornado, just got in to it, but we don't really fight much so this stands out) and am still frustrated and stressed. For months, literally months, we had been planning on coming back Wed (we are leaving right as soon as I get home this evening and driving as far as we can before we need to sleep - they live 7 hours away)... I don't do well with last minute shifting of plans either.
We managed to compromise and we're leaving Fri morning to try to beat some traffic and so we have some time together at home. We'll still need to drive another 45 min north to get our cats from my parents. So I'm missing out on xmas eve (we do the big italian seafood dinner for xmas eve and it is my favorite day of the year) and xmas (which also happens to be DH's bday - only child), but I'm missing out on my mom's bday (29th) and will now have to rush around to clean the house and grocery shop and not have as much down time as I originally thought before having to go back to work.
So I got to work early to try to curb that crap and get work done, going to be bringing more work with me down to the IL's to hopefully get a head start for Jan. I just need to get through this day successfully and things will be okay... as long as traffic doesn't piss me off tonight!
Plus... it's a minor problem I suppose in the grand scheme of things,
but they are on dial-up internet (they live in the mountains of VA, next
to a sheep farm, 1 traffic light in town that is 20 min away.... we
drink beer, watch tv, shoot guns and read books), so that means I will
prob not be bumping for quite some time. 
ugh... sorry for the vent but I needed to get that out.
Since I won't be around much after today for a little while, I hope you all have a wonderful holiday, have successful ninja sex, get BFP if you're testing this week.... see you in the new year where we'll hopefully all get our BFPs in Jan!!
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
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Re: emotional kamikaze.... (little long)
BFP#2 ~ 8/2/11, EDD 4/11/12, D&C 9/12/11 at 9w5d
BFP#3 ~ 4/15/12, EDD 12/21/12 ~ DD born 12/22/12
This! (hugs)
Nine days is WAY too long. I am glad you reached a compromise, and I hope the holiday is not as bad as you anticipate. GL. See you in the new year!