My appt went well today. My lining looks good. Our next IVF is set for 9/9. He took me off the baby aspirin because I started spotting yesterday. Since it is a blood thinner he said I should stop for now. I'll start the progesterone on Monday night and go in for the transfer on the Friday. I'm having a lot of anxiety and the transfer isn't even here yet. I'm so scared that it won't work or it will and I'll have another loss. So not the way I want to go into this. Time isn't on my side because of my age and I just don't know how to relax about it. I was thinking of using a guided meditation app I found. I need to focus on the positive and I was hoping that might help. Anyone have any suggestions? If so I'd love to hear them.
Re: The Date is Set and I'm scared
Guided meditation might help. It certainly can't hurt.
Is there anything that will help you take your mind off of the worry? I do a lot of book reading/movie watching when I'm fretting- it's very escapist and while I'm reading/watching I'm not thinking about myself. I don't have a long enough attention span to do meditation, but I tried for a couple of months while we were early in TTC (my mom thought I needed to relax and I figured it was worth a try) Maybe a massage, manicure, pedicure? Something enjoyable that's totally unrelated to the IF process.
Friends for 15 years. Married 8. TTC since January 2009
2010 Diagnosis: Anovulation and Severe MFI
2011 Treatment:
IVF w/ICSI #1 Antagonist: 2 blasts - c/p - BFN 04.22
FET #1: 1 blast/1 early blast - BFP 06.22 - m/c 06.30 @6w0d
07-11 RPL: MTHFR C677T Heterozygous & Slightly elevated ACLA IgM
FET #2: 1 morula - BFN: 9.02
January '12: IVF #2
Started BCP and Metformin (New!) 12-14 for stimming in January
Dum spiro, spero.
?SAIF/PAIF/PgAL/PAL always welcome?
I'm sorry, it's such a cycle isn't it? Getting anxious about needing/wanting to relax only makes you more anxious!
I know a lot of ladies have had some success with accupuncture. I know for me when I start feeling this way I get a bit self-indulgent, I love pedicures or I buy myself something I've really been wanting. I get my favourite snack and a trashy magazine and enjoy the sunshine.
It's all about distraction in my mind because I've been hopeful and I've felt exactly the opposite and it doesn't seem to effect anything but my mood and my relationships, so try and stay distracted and remind yourself that this is just as likely to work for you as the next person.
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!