The Date is Set and I'm scared

KGS2003

My appt went well today. My lining looks good. Our next IVF is set for 9/9. He took me off the baby aspirin because I started spotting yesterday. Since it is a blood thinner he said I should stop for now. I'll start the progesterone on Monday night and go in for the transfer on the Friday. I'm having a lot of anxiety and the transfer isn't even here yet. I'm so scared that it won't work or it will and I'll have another loss. So not the way I want to go into this. Time isn't on my side because of my age and I just don't know how to relax about it. I was thinking of using a guided meditation app I found. I need to focus on the positive and I was hoping that might help. Anyone have any suggestions? If so I'd love to hear them.

ecleptic

Guided meditation might help. It certainly can't hurt.

Is there anything that will help you take your mind off of the worry? I do a lot of book reading/movie watching when I'm fretting- it's very escapist and while I'm reading/watching I'm not thinking about myself. I don't have a long enough attention span to do meditation, but I tried for a couple of months while we were early in TTC (my mom thought I needed to relax and I figured it was worth a try) Maybe a massage, manicure, pedicure? Something enjoyable that's totally unrelated to the IF process.

KGS2003

Thank you ecleptic. I do read a lot and it is a great distraction. My mind has been wandering a lot lately though. I am just over thinking this I am going to start a new book tonite and meditate. Hopefully it will be enough. Thanks so much for being here for me.

Sloane99

I'm sorry, it's such a cycle isn't it? Getting anxious about needing/wanting to relax only makes you more anxious!

I know a lot of ladies have had some success with accupuncture. I know for me when I start feeling this way I get a bit self-indulgent, I love pedicures or I buy myself something I've really been wanting. I get my favourite snack and a trashy magazine and enjoy the sunshine.

It's all about distraction in my mind because I've been hopeful and I've felt exactly the opposite and it doesn't seem to effect anything but my mood and my relationships, so try and stay distracted and remind yourself that this is just as likely to work for you as the next person.

eponine7682

I pray this is it for you! And I hope you can find ways to relieve some of that tension. Best of luck!

KGS2003

Thank you ladies. I'm so glad there is a place I can o where people actually get it! I decided I'm going to lay around and be lazy. Read some books do a little meditation and eat chocolate!! Hopefully that will do it!