************ Signature/Ticker Warning ************ Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1 Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant DH: Severe MFI 12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN 8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly) My ovaries are just for decoration
12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years! 2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts. 2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13 3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d. 6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years! 9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts 9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14 9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d.
11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow! 11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13 Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522 Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373 6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!
Snowflake baby is a girl! Our beautiful Snowflake girl arrived on July 22, 2014! My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake
My biggest fear is losing DH, I tell him all the time that I have to die first. lol Other than that, I'm really scared of drowning, I feel like that has to be one of the worst ways to die.
Tornadoes. They intrigue and excite me and scare me all at the same time. I've been through several - one night I barely escaped alive - and watched some from the distance... even chased some when I worked in news (with proper training, of course).
And spiders... even harmless Daddy Longlegs! Blech!!
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My biggest fear is losing DH, I tell him all the time that I have to die first. lol Other than that, I'm really scared of drowning, I feel like that has to be one of the worst ways to die.
I'm with you on the losing DH thing. Sometimes I think about it, and I'll start crying, and DH just rolls his eyes because he knows I'm cray cray.
My biggest fear is to burn alive or be crawled all over by bugs, especially roaches.
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My biggest fear is losing DH, I tell him all the time that I have to die first. lol Other than that, I'm really scared of drowning, I feel like that has to be one of the worst ways to die.
Same here. We actually went through a period where I told him that all the time when he was trying to quit smoking (for a while he didn't understand why I'd get so upset about him smoking). Other than that, definitely snakes and spiders. Can't stand them!
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Biggest? That's hard I'm scared of a lot of stuff. I think burning alive and drowning are way up there. I'm also scared of large things and being in a plane crash, though, too. Also, alien invasion, zombieapocalypse, and snakes.
My biggest fear is losing DH, I tell him all the time that I have to die first. lol Other than that, I'm really scared of drowning, I feel like that has to be one of the worst ways to die.
I'm with you on the losing DH thing. Sometimes I think about it, and I'll start crying, and DH just rolls his eyes because he knows I'm cray cray.
My biggest fear is to burn alive or be crawled all over by bugs, especially roaches.
Me too. I'm a pretty strong person and I'm usually someone who can be counted on as calm in a crisis... but I honestly don't know if I could handle that.
I also have an irrational fear of earthworms, which is funny, because I'm a farmer. I almost killed DH when he tossed one in my hand one time thinking it was funny... not realizing that this isn't a "teehee" freak-out. This is a serious freak the fvck out.
Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.
IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.
Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.
Hope is the thing with feathers - that perches in the soul - and sings the tune without the words - and never stops - at all - (Emily Dickinson)
My biggest fear is losing DH, I tell him all the time that I have to die first. lol Other than that, I'm really scared of drowning, I feel like that has to be one of the worst ways to die.
My most horrible fear ever is that I will somehow lose DS (Alex is 4). He is the center of mine and DH's lives and I probably couldn't deal if anything ever happened to him. I mean, he needed B/W at his 4 year check-up last month and I nearly cried, ughhh.
Other than that, I am super terrified of spiders. EWWWW.
TTC #1 Since 9/2010 Progesterone B/W at 11DPO (9/21/2011) - 3.5 (Ovulatory) HSG (10/3/2011) - Normal! SA (11/8/11) - Normal except for low morph. (18%) SA (11/23)- same as above BFP #1 - 12/16/11 Due date - 8/26/12 Its a BOY! DS born 9/2/2012
Sharks. For sure. When I was about 11, I did that thing at Disney's Typhoon Lagoon where you can swim with sharks (nurse sharks, and they were like 20 feet below you... I wonder if this even still exists, it sounds like an insurance nightmare in retrospect) and even that terrified the living sh!t out of me. I also have/had a recurring nightmare brought on by the great white sculpture that's hanging above the line to the walk-thru shark tank at SeaWorld.
::The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar that even the ultimate fullfillment of that hope cannot fully erase:: Thomas Hardy
I am unreasonably afraid of the dark. And, what might be lurking in said dark to get me. Even in my locked home, if it is dark, I cannot go into a room.
I have so many fears and phobias! if I had to narrow it down to a few they would be:
Losing my children
Losing DF
Spiders (not an irrational fear at all, they are the spawn of satan!)
Large things
Throwing up
Crowds
Me 41 DH 33 Married 09/03/2011 DD1 EDD 08/18/01, born 08/03/2001 ~ 9lbs 10oz, 21.5 in
DS1 EDD 4/30/2004, born 05/04/2004 ~ 10lbs, 22 in mc 02/14/12 @ 5 weeks
DD2 EDD 12/25/12, born 12/30/12 ~ 10lbs 11oz, 21.25 in mc 12/05/15 @ 12 weeks Cautiously expecting 12/02/16
Crickets. Holy sh!t I hate them. One time they had disced a huge field near my house and it must have uneartherd a bajillion crickets. DH was working out of town and I had left my porch light on. We live out in the sticks so it was the only light in the vicinity and it attracted crickets....as in the porch, walls, columns, ceiling were completely covered in crickets. I lost it big time. I called my mom bawling that I couldn't get in the house. She had to drive to my house and use the water hose to spray the porch down. The next day I had the exterminator spraying the hell out of my house. ::shudders::
Crickets. Holy sh!t I hate them. One time they had disced a huge field near my house and it must have uneartherd a bajillion crickets. DH was working out of town and I had left my porch light on. We live out in the sticks so it was the only light in the vicinity and it attracted crickets....as in the porch, walls, columns, ceiling were completely covered in crickets. I lost it big time. I called my mom bawling that I couldn't get in the house. She had to drive to my house and use the water hose to spray the porch down. The next day I had the exterminator spraying the hell out of my house. ::shudders::
You would hate my house then! We have a gecko and it lives on crickets. We have to buy them every week and feed them to her. I have a little "cricket corral" that we keep them in.
Me 41 DH 33 Married 09/03/2011 DD1 EDD 08/18/01, born 08/03/2001 ~ 9lbs 10oz, 21.5 in
DS1 EDD 4/30/2004, born 05/04/2004 ~ 10lbs, 22 in mc 02/14/12 @ 5 weeks
DD2 EDD 12/25/12, born 12/30/12 ~ 10lbs 11oz, 21.25 in mc 12/05/15 @ 12 weeks Cautiously expecting 12/02/16
Cockroaches (the giant "banana" ones) scare the hell out of me. I've called a friend over at 2 AM to kill one. I sat in the corner, sobbing, and watching to make sure I still know where it's at so it could be killed when my friend arrived.
I also can't look under/reach under the bed at night. I still think something will grab me.
I'm afraid of... falling from anything (from heights, from a ladder, from a bike), bees, sharks. MH and family call me "Cautious Christa" because a lot of things tend to scare me.
ETA: Oh, and the dark. I guess I'm a little kid.
TTC #1 since March 2011
BFP #1: EDD 4/16/13~~blighted ovum w/ 2 gestational sacs~~Loss on 9/18/12 BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
9/13, 10/13, 1/14: letrozole + trigger + TI = All BFNs
Car crashes. I am a horrible passenger. I have so much anxiety as a passenger in a car (as in not having control of the car) that it is really becoming a problem.
TTC #1 since February 2011 Me: 29 (3/5/13- high NK cells) DH: 28 (5/8/12- MFI low morph and motility) Cycle #21 (IUI#1), Cycle #22 (HSG 9/21/12) and Cycle #23 (IUI#2)= Cycle #24- December Snow Bunny IVF #1 ER 12/6/12 (14R, 11M, 9F), ET 12/9/12 transferred 2 day 3 embies Bleeding and low betas=very cautious C/P 5W3D Cycle #26 March Lucky Duck- FET #1 scheduled 3/20/13- CANCELLED- lining issues Cycle #27 May Emerald- FET #1.2 delayed- Starting Trental for 3 months + natural cycles Cycle #28-30= Cycle #31 August Shooting Star- FET #1.3 transferred 1 hatching blast 8/21/13= Betas 8/30 (108) and 9/3 (565)
U/S 9/19/13- HR is 128! U/S #2 10/4/13- HR is 174! It's a BOY!
Re: s/o Earthquake...
************ Signature/Ticker Warning ************

Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1
Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant
DH: Severe MFI
12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN
8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)
My ovaries are just for decoration
12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts.
2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13
3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d.
6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years!
9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts
9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14
9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d.
11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow!
11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13
Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522 Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373
6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!
Snowflake baby is a girl!
Our beautiful Snowflake girl arrived on July 22, 2014!
My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake
Tornadoes. They intrigue and excite me and scare me all at the same time. I've been through several - one night I barely escaped alive - and watched some from the distance... even chased some when I worked in news (with proper training, of course).
And spiders... even harmless Daddy Longlegs! Blech!!
Both of these.
Drowning, choking... not being able to breathe are the scariest things I can imagine. As for spiders, it's almost irrational.
My biggest fear is to burn alive or be crawled all over by bugs, especially roaches.
Same here. We actually went through a period where I told him that all the time when he was trying to quit smoking (for a while he didn't understand why I'd get so upset about him smoking). Other than that, definitely snakes and spiders. Can't stand them!
Biggest? That's hard I'm scared of a lot of stuff. I think burning alive and drowning are way up there. I'm also scared of large things and being in a plane crash, though, too. Also, alien invasion, zombieapocalypse, and snakes.
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
Me too. I'm a pretty strong person and I'm usually someone who can be counted on as calm in a crisis... but I honestly don't know if I could handle that.
I also have an irrational fear of earthworms, which is funny, because I'm a farmer. I almost killed DH when he tossed one in my hand one time thinking it was funny... not realizing that this isn't a "teehee" freak-out. This is a serious freak the fvck out.
Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.
IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.
Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.
Hope is the thing with feathers - that perches in the soul - and sings the tune without the words - and never stops - at all - (Emily Dickinson)
I fear this too. Just the thought hurts me.
DS - Born 6/17/12
DS#2 - Due 2/11/15
My most horrible fear ever is that I will somehow lose DS (Alex is 4). He is the center of mine and DH's lives and I probably couldn't deal if anything ever happened to him. I mean, he needed B/W at his 4 year check-up last month and I nearly cried, ughhh.
Other than that, I am super terrified of spiders. EWWWW.
I am completely terrified of those things. I can't even say the word. I normally call it "the S word". Haha
This and tornadoes
Progesterone B/W at 11DPO (9/21/2011) - 3.5 (Ovulatory)
HSG (10/3/2011) - Normal!
SA (11/8/11) - Normal except for low morph. (18%)
SA (11/23)- same as above
BFP #1 - 12/16/11
Due date - 8/26/12
Its a BOY!
DS born 9/2/2012
I am afraid of the dark.
And yes I do sleep with a night light. Wow that sounds lame...haha.I also get freaked out by porcelain dolls.
When I was about 11, I did that thing at Disney's Typhoon Lagoon where you can swim with sharks (nurse sharks, and they were like 20 feet below you... I wonder if this even still exists, it sounds like an insurance nightmare in retrospect) and even that terrified the living sh!t out of me. I also have/had a recurring nightmare brought on by the great white sculpture that's hanging above the line to the walk-thru shark tank at SeaWorld.
::The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar that even the ultimate fullfillment of that hope cannot fully erase:: Thomas Hardy
Men in yellow hats...j/k
Bad things happening to my family and friends. I get these horrible visions of bad things happening.
I have so many fears and phobias! if I had to narrow it down to a few they would be:
Losing my children
Losing DF
Spiders (not an irrational fear at all, they are the spawn of satan!)
Large things
Throwing up
Crowds
DD1 EDD 08/18/01, born 08/03/2001 ~ 9lbs 10oz, 21.5 in
DS1 EDD 4/30/2004, born 05/04/2004 ~ 10lbs, 22 in
mc 02/14/12 @ 5 weeks
DD2 EDD 12/25/12, born 12/30/12 ~ 10lbs 11oz, 21.25 in
mc 12/05/15 @ 12 weeks
Cautiously expecting 12/02/16
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
I also have quite a few irrational fears (or totally rational depending on how you look at it). They are:
losing DH- big time fear (really glad to know I'm not the only cray cray one on this)
deep water - you never know what's in there!
subsequent large animals in the deep water
getting lost at sea/falling overboard- basically some sort of Titanic incident
LA drivers- they are really, really bad, and could result in said fear #1
getting fired/becoming homeless- totally irrational, but you never know!
dying young- I fully intend for DH and I to live until we are 102!
not being able to have children of my own- totally irrational at this stage in the game
I Remember that Earthquake all to well Scared the POOP! out of me! I'm terrified of earthquakes the earth should never shake below me!
and Yikes!! Spiders give me the heebie jeebies!
NEEDLES!!!! Nooooo thanks but i think i may have to try and get by this one if i plan on having children
This is very true. Especially in the rain.
DS - Born 6/17/12
DS#2 - Due 2/11/15
Being in a fire
Someone being in my house/in the woods looking in my house
You would hate my house then! We have a gecko and it lives on crickets. We have to buy them every week and feed them to her. I have a little "cricket corral" that we keep them in.
DD1 EDD 08/18/01, born 08/03/2001 ~ 9lbs 10oz, 21.5 in
DS1 EDD 4/30/2004, born 05/04/2004 ~ 10lbs, 22 in
mc 02/14/12 @ 5 weeks
DD2 EDD 12/25/12, born 12/30/12 ~ 10lbs 11oz, 21.25 in
mc 12/05/15 @ 12 weeks
Cautiously expecting 12/02/16
Cockroaches (the giant "banana" ones) scare the hell out of me. I've called a friend over at 2 AM to kill one. I sat in the corner, sobbing, and watching to make sure I still know where it's at so it could be killed when my friend arrived.
I also can't look under/reach under the bed at night. I still think something will grab me.
We just had a earthquake today in Philly! It wasn't so bad.
I'm afraid of Aliens... freaks me out. If any commercials come on about Aliens I immediately turn the channel ....I can't even talk about it
I'm afraid of... falling from anything (from heights, from a ladder, from a bike), bees, sharks. MH and family call me "Cautious Christa" because a lot of things tend to scare me.
ETA: Oh, and the dark. I guess I'm a little kid.
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
TTC #1 since February 2011
C/P 5W3D
Betas 8/30 (108) and 9/3 (565)
Me: 29 (3/5/13- high NK cells) DH: 28 (5/8/12- MFI low morph and motility)
Cycle #21 (IUI#1), Cycle #22 (HSG 9/21/12) and Cycle #23 (IUI#2)=
Cycle #24- December Snow Bunny IVF #1
ER 12/6/12 (14R, 11M, 9F), ET 12/9/12 transferred 2 day 3 embies
Bleeding and low betas=very cautious
Cycle #26 March Lucky Duck- FET #1
scheduled 3/20/13- CANCELLED- lining issues
Cycle #27 May Emerald- FET #1.2
delayed- Starting Trental for 3 months + natural cycles Cycle #28-30=
Cycle #31 August Shooting Star- FET #1.3
transferred 1 hatching blast 8/21/13=
U/S 9/19/13- HR is 128! U/S #2 10/4/13- HR is 174!
It's a BOY!
I have a fear of losing DH too. I'm also scared of being a bad mom.
But my dumbest fear/phobia is walking on top of grates. I'll go out of my way to avoid them!
My Blog: One Emerald
BFP#1: 9-13-11 EDD: 5-26-12 MMC: 11-4-11 D&C: 11-8-11
BFP#2: 7-6-12 Elizabeth Faye ("Zuzu") born 3-21-13