This hurts my heart, but the timing is just so bad. I just quit my job to start my own business, giving up a steady salary for the unknown. And there's no backing out now and just finding another job - I've already signed a lease for office space, paid money for malpractice insurance, spent money on a website and letterhead, bought office equipment, etc. Having another child right now wouldn't just be a matter of cramping our lifestyle or finances being tight. If my business has slow months, it would mean not having money for the child's health insurance and/or daycare. While we'd love to have another child now, our plan was for me to really focus this next year on marketing and growing my business before we thought about adopting again. It breaks my heart and DH's, too, but this just isn't the right time.
That said, I called our fantastic adoption consultant, and asked if she would be able to find an adoptive family who lives near us who would be open to the baby having a relationship with Logan. She said that she would have no trouble finding a situation like this. I emailed the birth mom and asked if she would consider only Atlanta area families so Logan could still grow up with the new baby.
I really, really hope she will be interested in this.