Our first ultrasound is on Thursday and I can't keep the negative thoughts out of my head. I am so worried 24/7 that there will be no heartbeat, it will be a molar/ectopic pregnancy, etc.
My blood work was pretty good. My levels doubled normally (measured 3 times) and my progesterone was 26 or 27 at my last draw. Last time, my progesterone was 10.3 at 6 weeks and they didn't measure HCG at all. I am nervous that even though those numbers are good, maybe that is what happened last time and then by the time I had the first draw they lowered.
Long story short- how did you distract yourself or keep positive thoughts in mind prior to the first u/s after your miscarriage? I want to be positive and happy but at the same time, I don't want to get my hopes up.
Re: Preparing for 1st u/s
Good luck! How far along will you be?
There was no distracting myself really. I guess I tried to tell myself it was all out of my hands at that point. I prayed a lot and tried to stay busy while hoping for the best, but also preparing my head for the worst. I tired to take it day by day, and I still do.
I don't think you will fee calm before any ultrasound. I still get panicky before mine now.
Two angel babies 11/09 and 4/10
I just try to focus on the positive things going on up until that u/s... the good beta #'s, my progesterone draw, the fact that I was taking supplements, and knowing that at my first u/s (at around 4w) there was a "suspected gestational sac".
I knew the u/s would be an anxious time for me (as they would not let DH in and I wouldn't see/be told anything), so I just took it one day at a time, knowing I would only know the results nearly a week after at my dr's appt.
I was 7w1d when I went and I hadn't had any spotting since starting the prog supplements, so I was also keeping that in mind.
BFP#2 3/16/11, beta 138; 4/12 Baby/HB DS born 9/10/11 at 29w4d due to partial abruption and PTL
BFP#3 8/19/13 Another boy! 17P, modified bedrest and Nifedipine helped us have a termie! DS2 born 4/19/14 at 38w5d.