Is it hope? Or belief in Murphy's Law?
I haven't yet started spotting this cycle. FP is due Sunday. That's still three days, a lot can happen. I could walk to the bathroom now and see the telltale spotting. But, if this was going to happen, now would be the time right? I don't have any tests in the house, and will probably wait until Monday to buy one, if I mike it that long. Since H just signed up for $240 a month in additional insurance to get us IVF coverage, and he has been taking his vitamins for almost three months, this is when it would happen, if it were to happen.
Although typing this out probably just jinxed it and I will still be heading into treatment next month.
I hate this stupid rollercoaster. And when my stupid period does start, I'm going to throw a fit and say it's like a family member just died. ::snicker::
Re: Fuucking Hope
IVF with ICSI #1: BFP
TESE for DH 08/09/09
ER 08/09/09; ET 08/14/09; Beta #1 08/23/09: 150; Beta #2 08/25/09: 267
TTC #2: FET #1: BFP
ET 06/16/11; Beta #1 06/25/11: 282; Beta #2 06/27/11: 777
First u/s: Twins! Baby A stopped growing @ 9 weeks, forever in our hearts
TTC #3: FET #2: c/p lost at 4 weeks
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I'm actually going to be fine if this cycle isn't the hail Mary miracle, because I do have an IVF coming up shortly afterwards. Though it would be my luck to pay an extra $240 a month for insurance for the next year (or until H finds a different job) that is no longer needed. Hahahaha
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{{Hugs}} And the extra $240 will be a drop in the hat. Oh well, if that's what it cost, hey. I wish nothing but the best for you and that everything works out, regardless of how!
Dx with endo & blocked left tube - TTC #1 for 29 cycles before miracle BFP, #2 - Surprise!!
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Meh. I think I see the slightest bit of spotting now.
Is it bad that part of me is happy the insurance isn't going to waste? What a mind fuuck. I have no idea how I can be happier for an IVF than a pregnancy occurring from sex, but in a weird way, I am. Probably because I have no idea what a sex induced pregnancy would feel like. LOL
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TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!
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Dip, do you have an estimated start date for your cycle yet? I am thinking mine will be in April since I have to do the operative hysteroscopy procedure in the next couple weeks.
TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!
booo
I hate limbo.
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