Not hopeful about 2011?

VeilSdeGTO · December 2010

At the end of 2009, I was still hopeful that 2010 would be my year. Just a few months after my loss, I was thinking that I had the whole year in front of me to get pg with my take home baby. I was really optimistic that it would happen for us.

Now, a year later, and two more losses later, I am no longer hopeful. I am sitting here thinking 2011 will be just the same as 2010, full of false hope, disappointment, and possibly more losses. I just can't bring myself to be optimistic.

Is anybody else feeling this way? I am so glad 2010 is over, but I'm really not that sure 2011 will be much better.

KaitySueWho · December 2010

((hugs)) I worry about that too... I try to push it out of the back of my head though

emeraudecephiro · December 2010

I have my doubts too...but my inner optimist that hides out behind my emo-ness chants that 2011 has to be good, how much worse could it be? Emo-me says "DEATH AND DESPAIR, RAWR!" so...he's no help.

I had two losses this year and a loss last year...so my track record isn't so wonderful and I haven't had a BFP in over a year. I hope 2011 will be my year seeing they agreed to start doing testing in January...so that gives me hope.

*big hugs* I hope you find some good in your new year too

julesjb · December 2010

Admittedly I sorta feel like this too... I keep telling myself 2011 is our year but when we started TTC last Xmas, we toasted to the same thing. Uncertainty is hard to stay positive about. I really hope and wish for you that this is your year, filled with so much happiness and joy.... You have been through a lot.

ambs21 · December 2010

I think it's totally normal and honest to question it and worry about whether it will be more of the same. I am clinging on to hope for all of us that this will be the year for lots of BFP's and take home babies. Hang in there! ((hugs))

LilMaggs · December 2010

I hope it's better. I honestly do. However, well, just flipping a calendar page doesn't change life. Doesn't change reality. There is no fairy dust on a calendar. What gives me hope is that I have a new (much better) job, better health insurance, and coverage for an RE

ColleenS629 · December 2010

Hugs! I actually wrote a blog post about this a couple of weeks ago. I really hope that 2011 is much better for all of us and that we get our take home babies.

MrsR25 · December 2010

I want to be hopeful, but I can see where all of us who have had to deal with losses (especially multiple losses) would not be hopeful.

At some point, a new year has to be better.

Carolee · December 2010

Angeleyes5604:

((hugs)) I worry about that too... I try to push it out of the back of my head though

This!

pennynjon · December 2010

I am trying to be positive....but that is definitely in the back of my mind. I hope and pray that 2011 is great to all of us .

TeacherVicky · December 2010

((Hugs)) I'm sorry.

I am just concentrating on getting 2010 OVER. I tell myself 2011 HAS to be better, but I try not to think of it too much.

shelshel79 · December 2010

((hugs)) I really hope it is better for you.

cutebride73 · December 2010

I worry about that too. I am really feeling doubtful that this cycle worked - even with 3 friggin follies. So next up will be IVF, which is a one shot deal for us. I worry what if that doesn't work? Then what? Or what if it works and it ends in another loss? Same difference - totally sucky either way. I just don't want to deal with any of this anymore.

So I hope and I pray that 2011 is a better year, a better year for me, a better year for you, for all of us. But, I am terrified at the same time that it won't be.

tdmd09 · December 2010

I feel the same way. I've lived the last few months basically living for today when I can give 2010 the middle finger and move on, but now today is here and all I am thinking about is all the losses I've had this year (my grandpa, my mom, my great uncle, and my m/c) and how there's no guarantee that anything will get better next year.

I'm trying to keep my chin up and be hopeful, but I'm not doing a very good job today.

Runnergirl2242 · December 2010

Reading through everyones responses I got a little emotional. Crying I am so sorry that you have had such a painful year.

A lot of pain for one year for all of us. My honest prayer is that all of you (and I) can find great joy in this upcoming year. There has been enough sadness and greif. I am really praying the 2011 brings us all closer to those take home babies.

Love Sarah

Tapatio · December 2010

I'm right there with you! 2009 sucked because I had 2 losses but I was convinced 2010 would be better. 2010 sucked just as bad with another loss and a crappy diagnosis AND TTA for the remainder of the year! A friend texted me this morning all cheerful and told me that 2011 had great things in store and I just had to wait to see. I wanted to tell her to "shove it" but erased it and let her know I didn't have high expectations for 2011. I completely understand the lack of optimism.

itsmegin · December 2010

I'm trying not to think like that, but it definitely crossed my mind. I also thought, well for a lot of people 2010 was a great year, they got pregnant, had their babies. And even if we all get BFPs and have babies in 2011, there will be a fresh crop of people on TTCAL bemoaning 2011 and wishing for 2012.(But we all know the world's ending then so it won't really matter.)

It is a sad thought, and sometimes it hurts more to get your hopes up than to expect the worst and be pleasantly surprised with anything but that. I hope you're wrong though and 2011 is good. I hope this board becomes completely deserted by next year.

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