Exhausting day

Izabella22 · October 2010

So my family came to visit today... parents, bro & his g/f and 2 kids and my cousin. I was hoping it would just be my parents so I'd get a chance to talk to my mom but we got no time alone, and yeah I'll admit, I chickend out. I just don't even know how to begin, I don't really want to tell her over the phone but I suppose in some way that could be easier. And being around my nephews today and seeing my brother who is so very ill prepared and not motivated to be a good parent just took a toll on me. I love my nephews but the youngest is 16 months old w/ downs syndrome and I couldn't bring myself to hold him. The older one is 3 1/2 so that is easier for me but it just stings so bad that my idiot brother and some slut can have 2 kids (and she's pg w/ a 3rd, does drugs, smokes, drinks, and has been in/out of jail all year) that they can't even maintain custody of because they are so irresponsible. It just is a stab to the heart. I was doing well yesterday, made it the whole day w/out crying. Today is not looking like that will be the case.