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My RE finally called me back... Cue the tears, again.

Boy this IF crap can be so freaking draining. 

My RE called me back and gave me the low down re: my egg retrieval.  Of the 7 eggs they retrieved, it turns out ALL of them initially fertilized.  I thought this was good - but nope.  He said 4 of them fertilized with more than one sperm, which indicates either bad egg quality or he let the eggs get over ripe.  Either way, that is how we ended up with only 3 embies.

I started crying on the phone and was so embarrassed.  He was on the bluetooth coming in freaking dolby stereo on our car speakers.  I felt like I was in a movie or something.

He also told me that their clinic grades each embie 1-4 (1 being the best) and I have a 1.5, a 2.5 and a 3.  He is hoping we have at least the first one to transfer.

Cue the sobs.  Like a fool.

I've been digesting all of this all night.  I know it only takes one, but I've lost hope.  I never thought in a million years I'd be dealing with this crap.  Esp while all my friends are super fertile and announcing their pregnancies left and right.

Anyway, I'm rambling, sorry.  That's all. 

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Re: My RE finally called me back... Cue the tears, again.

  • I am so sorry you are going through this.
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  • Many hugs, thoughts, and prayers.
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  • ((hugs)) I'm sorry. Lots and T&P your way - I hope the 3 you have do awesome!
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  • Don't you give up yet.  Sending tons of prayers for your three little rock stars! 
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  • i'm so sorry that this cycle isn't working out like you had hoped.  but, it's not over till it's over.  i'm crossing fingers and toes that you have at least one rockstar embie to transfer.  chin up soldier!
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  • (((hugs))) Sorry and Good Luck
  • Oh, hon...I'm so sorry.  Don't worry at all about the tears.  Believe me, your RE has seen it before.  You're dissapointed, and I would be too.

    But...I'm going to keep the hope for you - and that they all keep growing strong for transfer.  ((HUGS)). 

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  • i'm sorry :( i hope that even though its tough right now it turns into a happy ending
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  • Sending lots of positive thoughts your way. ((hugs))
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  • i'm really really sorry honey. this sucks. i'm sending tons of T&P and penguin power hoping that you have one or  more to transfer in a couple of days.
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  • Oh honey, I'm so sorry. Please don't give up. Like the PP said you have 3 little rockstars hanging on!

    ((hugs))

  • I am so sorry. 

    TTC since August 2008 4 cycles Femara = BFN Dx PCOS February 2010, 1000 mg Metformin XR IUI #1: Dexamethasone + Femara + Ovidrel + Progesterone = BFN IUI #2: Dexamethasone + Femara + Ovidrel + Progesterone = BFP! Our son arrived January 17, 2011!
  • I am so so sorry - I'd probably be crying too. IF sucks. Sad
  • I'm so sorry you're going through this :(.  Hoping your three embies turn out to be super embies!!
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  • So sorry you are going through this!
  • I'm sorry!   (((hugs)))
  • You are the furthest thing from a fool. Please stop saying that. You have every right to be upset with this news. I pray that you feel better soon and you have at least one goodie to transfer. Hugs!
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  • I am so sorry that you didn't get the news you hoped for. please try and stay positive. I am saying a prayer for you and your 3 little guys. ((((HUGS))))
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  • Oh honey, I am so sorry that you are going through this.

    (((HUGS)))

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  • oh I am so sorry...((hugs)). BUT dont give up hope, although it wasn't GREAT news, it could have been worse...maybe that one little guy who is a 1.5 will be the one. I hope for you that it is!!!
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  • (((((Hugs))))) 
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  • I'm sorry- I know it is hard. I will tell you though that at my transfer I had 3 (out of 10 eggs retrieved) that were transferable on day 3. We transferred a grade 1.5 and a 2 and I am pregnant with twins. Just wanted to let you know you still have a great great chance. 
  • Oh hon - I am so, so sorry. I am sending tons of PPV that your embies grow strong.

    (((((hugs))))) 

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  • I'm so sorry! I hope of the three you get at least one rock star!!
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    I'm sorry- I know it is hard. I will tell you though that at my transfer I had 3 (out of 10 eggs retrieved) that were transferable on day 3. We transferred a grade 1.5 and a 2 and I am pregnant with twins. Just wanted to let you know you still have a great great chance. 

    Thank you.  I needed to hear that.

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  • Thank you so much girls.  All of you.
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  • i'm sorry that you have to deal with all this - why can't things just work right?

    ((HUGS))

    praying you've got a couple rockstars embies that snuggle in good and tight and you get a sticky BFP

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    So sorry CC.  Though I haven't started the procedure route yet, I know what it is like to watch the friend's get PG left and right.  

    I will keep you in my T & Ps.

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  • Sending tons of T&Ps your way!  (((hugs)))
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    IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
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  • I am sending lots of good thoughts your way.  I hope your transfer goes really well.  1.5 sounds great!
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  • i'm praying that those 3 are rock stars.  ::: big hugs:::

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    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
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  • oh cc, I know it can be discouraging. Hang in there hon. Praying those 3 embies you have are rockstars and at least one snuggles right in with you.

     

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    imageLALASEPT05:
    I'm sorry- I know it is hard. I will tell you though that at my transfer I had 3 (out of 10 eggs retrieved) that were transferable on day 3. We transferred a grade 1.5 and a 2 and I am pregnant with twins. Just wanted to let you know you still have a great great chance. 

    Thank you.  I needed to hear that.

    Stay strong - this is the second hardest part. Waiting for beta is the hardest but waiting for transfer is very hard too. You still have a great great chance. There are so many cases where people have beautiful embies out the wazoo and have bfn's and times when people have not so perfect embies and get a bfp. Thinking of you. 

     

  • Oh, honey I'm so sorry you're going through this.  Please don't give up hope.  Things can change for the best in a short period of time.  I'm sure you have 3 rock stars waiting for their mama!
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  • I'm so sorry to hear that, but sending lots of T&P's that the other embies will continue to grow and can be transfered. Good luck!
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  • I'm so sorry.  I hope it all works out for you!
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  • Oh CC.  I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this.  I pray that your three embies will do a wonderful job making themselves at home after your transfer.  Huge (((HUGS)))
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  • I'm sorry you're so discouraged.  Hopefully things will turn around!  Good luck!
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