Boy this IF crap can be so freaking draining.
My RE called me back and gave me the low down re: my egg retrieval. Of the 7 eggs they retrieved, it turns out ALL of them initially fertilized. I thought this was good - but nope. He said 4 of them fertilized with more than one sperm, which indicates either bad egg quality or he let the eggs get over ripe. Either way, that is how we ended up with only 3 embies.
I started crying on the phone and was so embarrassed. He was on the bluetooth coming in freaking dolby stereo on our car speakers. I felt like I was in a movie or something.
He also told me that their clinic grades each embie 1-4 (1 being the best) and I have a 1.5, a 2.5 and a 3. He is hoping we have at least the first one to transfer.
Cue the sobs. Like a fool.
I've been digesting all of this all night. I know it only takes one, but I've lost hope. I never thought in a million years I'd be dealing with this crap. Esp while all my friends are super fertile and announcing their pregnancies left and right.
Anyway, I'm rambling, sorry. That's all.
Re: My RE finally called me back... Cue the tears, again.
Oh, hon...I'm so sorry. Don't worry at all about the tears. Believe me, your RE has seen it before. You're dissapointed, and I would be too.
But...I'm going to keep the hope for you - and that they all keep growing strong for transfer. ((HUGS)).
IVF #1 1/10-transfered 2 blasts- DS born 10/2010
March 2015- Chemical pg
1/25/16- BFP Beta1 12dpo = 17, Beta 2 14 dpo = 28.. resulted in one beautiful boy born 9/21/16
Now I'm a stay at home loving life and pursuing my love of photography!!!
Love & luck to my 3TC girls. Congrats to Omega-The boys are here!
If there's one thing I've learned while waiting my turn,
it's that in each life some rain falls but you also get some sun.
After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
Oh honey, I'm so sorry. Please don't give up. Like the PP said you have 3 little rockstars hanging on!
((hugs))
I am so sorry.
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Oh honey, I am so sorry that you are going through this.
(((HUGS)))
Oh hon - I am so, so sorry. I am sending tons of PPV that your embies grow strong.
(((((hugs)))))
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
C/P- at 6 weeks
5 IUI's= BFN
Dx: Endo stage 1 : evevated FSH (11.3)
IVF#1: 3dt 2 8 cell, grade 1 embyos :bfn
*(P)SAIFW*
~A lotus springs from mud~ Chinese proverb
Thank you. I needed to hear that.
i'm sorry that you have to deal with all this - why can't things just work right?
((HUGS))
praying you've got a couple rockstars embies that snuggle in good and tight and you get a sticky BFP
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
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So sorry CC. Though I haven't started the procedure route yet, I know what it is like to watch the friend's get PG left and right.
I will keep you in my T & Ps.
TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
Clomid/Femara no "O"
IVF #1 BFN
FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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i'm praying that those 3 are rock stars. ::: big hugs:::
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
oh cc, I know it can be discouraging. Hang in there hon. Praying those 3 embies you have are rockstars and at least one snuggles right in with you.
Stay strong - this is the second hardest part. Waiting for beta is the hardest but waiting for transfer is very hard too. You still have a great great chance. There are so many cases where people have beautiful embies out the wazoo and have bfn's and times when people have not so perfect embies and get a bfp. Thinking of you.
((hugs))