my first ultrasound. ![]()
I am doing fairly well, but still sad and thinking about what would have been.
Also, it doesn't help that while I'm going to the lab to get my blood taken to watch the numbers go down, my BFF is going to watch her numbers go up... she got a BFP on Friday. I am happy for her (she has been trying for almost 2 years) - but also so sad that we aren't going to be going though our first pregnancies together.
Ok, that's all - just wanted to vent a little bit.
Re: Today was supposed to be...
I am sorry for your loss. I just wanted to let you know I am going through the same thing. Tomorrow at 10:00 a.m. would have been our first ultrasound. I had a D&C last Wednesday. Like you, I can't keep thinking about what could have been.
So sorry for your losses too... This sucks.
I have been on the verge of tears all day - but was at work. Now at home, I need to just let it out and I'm sure I'll feel better.
BFP Nov 09 - c/p Dec 09
BFP Dec 09 - A&J born in August 2010 at 37w, 6d
BFP Sept 11 - ectopic pregnancy/left tube removed
BFP April 12 - E born December 2012 at 39w, 1d
I'm so sorry for your loss. The reminders of where I should be or what I should be doing are really hard.
My BFF is also due within the month and only about a month before me. It's sad that we can't have kids the same age anymore and experience the full range of being pg together. I've found that the more I talk to her about how hard it is both in general and that she's pg now while I would give anything to still be, the easier it is for me to be around her. She has been wonderful about it all. I hope your BFF is the same way and you're able to be around her and not get too sad.
((((((((big hugs))))))))))