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i am having one of those days

shipoopiisformeshipoopiisforme
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where i just think i can't do it anymore. i was resigned to the every other day early morning monitoring appts, the drugs etc. but the no exercise thing definitely pushed me over the edge.

i am just tired of all of this sh!t, and i feel guilty because i know compared to others i haven't even been at it that long. i am tired of this being my life, of having to fight so hard not only for something that comes so easily to most everyone else but to try and keep some level of normalcy while going through all of this.

i really hope that it's just the follistim that is making me feel all nutsy like this otherwise i may actually be losing it this time. i seriously just wanted to reach through the computer and strangle mh when he said that this  "process disrupts our lives." the only disruption for him is that he has to drop his sample off once a month and walk both our dogs on the mornings i have to go in for monitoring.

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  • flutterby918flutterby918

    I know what you mean. While I wasn't cycling I felt like I wasn't doing anything, but when I do I feel as if all I do is think about it, it does rule our lives.

    I am sorry you are having "a day". Hopefully that is all it is. PM me if you want to talk. I feel as if we are kind of in the same place right now. :(

    As for no exercise, what about swimming? Isn't that supposed to be one of the lowest resistance because of the water and buoyancy?

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    Ugh. Im so sorry. I'm sure the follistim doesn't help. I feel the same way sometimes. My H doesn't really get it either.

    I've pretty much resigned myself to the lack of normalcy that this is requiring. I am also taking things just one day at a time. Hang in there. It will all be worth it soon!


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  • k827k827
    Im sorry you are having a day...im right along with you. Keep your chin up!
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  • moore1021moore1021
    I think being in the situations we are all put in we deserve to have "our days" every now and then regardless if it has anything to do with the drugs or not. Dealing with Infertility is extremely frustrating and emotional. But we are all here for each other and if you want to vent your frustrations, then vent away sister!!
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  • kristin_mariekristin_marie member
    I am so sorry your feeling that way! We have been trying just about the same time as you guys have and I have those feelings all the time.  IF is the hardest things ever....especially when you see everyone else getting pregnanat without shots, drugs and thousands of dollars.  It just all around sucks!
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  • shipoopiisformeshipoopiisforme

    thanks girls. it truly is a huge help to have all of you here. i know no matter how i feel or what i am going through there will be at least one person here who can help.

    now i am getting all teary, but for a good reason. i am so happy i found this board and truly feel lucky to have the support of such a wonderful group of women. i truly feel like i have my own little cheering section and it really has helped me get through some of the worst times i have ever had.

     

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  • moore1021moore1021
    The things women go through is truly amazing!! And just by going on living our lives day by day with injections, ultra sounds, HSG's, drugs, surgeries, ER, ET it's no wonder women are as strong as they are. To me all of you are an inspiration and whenever I feel down I always think that somewhere someone else is going through the same thing and if they can do it then I can do it. Keep your head up ladies one day our luck will change!!!
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  • CandTCandT
    Sorry you are feeling down. Sometimes H's just don't get it. My H gets upset each time because we have to abstain for 2weeks. I've just been through weeks/months of shots, blood test, and dildo cams, but you poor thing have to wait 2 weeks for sex!!
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  • EastCoastGirl*EastCoastGirl* member

    I'm sorry you're having a tough time.  Sometimes, I too am so utterly disgusted by this whole process that I feel like just giving up.  I think about the family of DH and I, and wonder why that isn't enough.  And then that makes me feel selfish and guilty for wanting more.

    It shouldn't be this hard, for anyone.  You think your life is going to be a certain way, and then this one thing comes along that changes everything, and it's so completely out of your control.  It's frustrating and unfair.

    I hope things get better for you. 

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    I'm sorry you're having a tough time.  Sometimes, I too am so utterly disgusted by this whole process that I feel like just giving up.  I think about the family of DH and I, and wonder why that isn't enough.  And then that makes me feel selfish and guilty for wanting more.

    It shouldn't be this hard, for anyone.  You think your life is going to be a certain way, and then this one thing comes along that changes everything, and it's so completely out of your control.  It's frustrating and unfair.

    I hope things get better for you. 

    Yes!  You completely described what I and probably most of us feel!

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