So after today's events..I was feeling discouraged. DH and I went out to dinner and I even had a glass of wine. I have just been having such a hard time this round of IVF. I have totally been thinking I was pregnant, but then have been testing negative on digitals the past two days. So on the way home we bought an FRER and the result came up a big NO. I just don't understand this anymore. I was bawling in the bathroom and DH was crying too. If the past 3 rounds of IVF, one FET, 3 rounds of injectibles, 3 rounds of Clomid haven't worked( and 3 chem preg's)..what will? I just feel like we are at the end. I am still totally unexplained. I just wish someone would say it's time to move on..or time for donor eggs...or time to give up hope..but nothing..Noone has any answers. Every year is more heartbreaking than the last...I just feel like I have been pretty strong..I have gone to baby showers, and spoiled my nieces and nephews,,and always tried to be postive,,but I am just running out of hope and trying to be postive. Anyway..thanks for listening..noone else would understand.
Re: I have def. reached my IF low.
oh, honey, I am so sorry that you have to go through this! I wish I had some words of wisdom...
(((hugs)))
I am so sorry hon (((hugs)))
In an earlier post did you mention that you had 2 faint lines on a HPT. So is there a chance that you could still get a BFP? Maybe test first thing tomorrow morning. I know that this is so hard, and it sounds like you have gone through way too much. Take care of yourself.
I'm just sending you some BIG (((HUGS))). Sounds like you've been a great friend and auntie throughout your tough journey. Pls know that you are very special and very strong. You have every right to vent and every right to be heartbroken and we are always here to listen.
I don't want to give you any unsolicited advice, but what I would have done differently myself is go to CCRM. From what I understand they are the best. It wasn't an option for me, as I found out about the clinic so late in the game and at my older age. Plus....I'm also self-pay. That was my regret.
Take care of yourself.
I just wanted to say I am sorry you are feeling so low. It is like hitting a runner's wall during a marathon, there is just that one point that seems too much.
Big hugs and there is still hope, take care.
Sweetie... I am so, so sorry
Hugs to you.
I hate that you have had to go through all of this.
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
*Excessive scar tissue, blocked tubes*hypothyroidism*
IVF #1 BFN 10/07
IVF #2 w/ICSI & AH*C/P 5/09
Beta #1-33 Beta #2-50 Beta #3-10
FET 9/9/09*Transferred 2 Blasts*BFP!
Beta #1- 2991, Beta #2 - 6757
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
I am so sorry. ::hugs::
I am so terribly sorry. I hate that you are going through this. Have you exhausted every single test out there? I was totally unexplained until we did the integrin 3 biopsy. It turned our IF lives around. Plus, we used a clinic that would genetically test (CGH) our embryos to make sure we were transferring viable ones. These are the 2 reasons I account for our BFP. I am just so sorry again. Please let me know if you have any questions or want to explore any of these options.
Plus, I'm holding out hope that somehow your sticks are wrong!
PCOS, RPL, & Anti Cardiolipin Antibody