I am so depressed. this is agony. I am not having a good day. I just want to sleep all day. the waiting. I feel empty and I am just waiting to miscarry. its a little to much.I am trying to have faith that the drs are wrong but I think I am just setting myself up for failure.
Plus I am so tired. I still feel pregnant. I was supposed to go to a christening with my husband. I am not going. this baby was born in january when my second was supposed to be. I just cant take the OOing and AHHing over the babies and I cant take hubbys aunt asking when we are going to have kids. She asks us every time she sees us. I feel like saying "we are trying, I lost two and am waiting to lose a 3rd shut up!"
thanks. Just having a bad time with this all. needed to vent.

Re: not having a good day.
((hugs)) I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm also just sitting around, waiting to miscarry, and it's agony I know.
I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry....And I understand. I too am waiting to m/c our first baby. My baby heart stopped beating about 11 days ago and untill yesterday I still felt a little pregnant.
Today has been really really hard for me too, I just got out of bed at 6;30 and don't have any desire to do anything. My stomach started to cramp last night but still no bleeding, which is fine with me I would rather have a d&c. I need to try and get back into real life and I think that may help. Unfortunately I work in a Neonatal special care unit and once I go back to work I take care of nothing but babies......Happy families and babies.
On the bright side my husband has been wonderful. He is heartbroken just like me but we agreed that we need each other, it really helps. I know that we will try again because we really want to be parents but, I know it won't be soon.
I can't imaging the grief you have felt losing three babies and I hope you can find the comfort you need to feel ok again.
(((hugs))) I am so sorry you are feeling down today. I can understand you not wanting to go to the christening. I wouldnt want to either and I am 5 months post delivery of Grace. I just cant handle them right now...
I hope that you get to feeling better soon... Know that we are here for you!