* i realized I wasn't pg anymore so I made brownies so I could lick the bowl
* the pg "man" being pg again annoys me till no end. Either you want to live as a man or you don't.?
* I take more video of dd in her crib looking at her mobile than anywhere else. I'm afraid people are going to think I never take her out of there. ?
I'm exhausted. I think I'll have to wake DS up to feed him. Maybe that means he will sleep longer/better? I hope so.
*I'm having pics taken tomorrow of DS. I'm so excited about it.
*DH gets home and I give him the baby. I'm happy to do that. I welcome the break. It makes me feel like a bad mom.
* This is the most screwed up year ever.
* I was so so scared this afternoon. All I could think of was leaving Kellen without a mom, and I was so sad.
*DH is on vacation and offered me a full nights sleep. DD sttn...I however, did not. I was too worried he wouldn't wake up with her. I shouldn't be, he is so great with her.
*I am so tired of pumping. Sometimes I want to give up and switch to formula, but I know I'll regret it. My boobs hurt and I want my old ones back. I feel selfish thinking that and that's what keeps me pumping.
*BIL is getting married the day after Thanksgiving in Tennessee to my BFF. We have to share a cabin with MIL and I'm really dreading it. I'm not sure I can handle four straight days of her.