May I join?

hopefulmom81

Hi Ladies!

I just noticed this board and my jaw dropped!  I was hoping for this board since we were TTC.

A little bit of my background,  DH and I always wanted 1 or 2 children, but both of us had always leaned towards 1.  

I am an only child and we know several happy only children in our friend group.

We had 2 lost babies (one in Feb of 2011, one in June of 2011) before we successfully got pregnant and had DD in May.

During my pregnancy, on top of the daily stress of the fear she would die, I developed Pregnancy Induced Hypertension towards the end of my pregnancy.  I had to have weekly Non Stress Tests and blood pressure checks that pretty much sent me into a full fleged anxiety breakdown.

I was induced at 39 weeks.  After 27 hours of grueling, awful labor (I went without meds as long as possible and suffered for it, they also had to run in and flip me after the epidural due to her plunging heart rate, so I feared she was going to die during labor), DD was delivered via C-Section, safely and healthy.

I had bad PPA, so all of this taken together, DH and I are done. 

I feel like I got all I wanted in this child.  She is calm, loving, and just an absolute angel in our lives.  Not that any of that matters, of course, I would love her if she was wild and crazy!

After what we went through, we are 100% sure we are one and done and will look at permanent birth control next year.

I am really happy to be joining you all, if you will have me!